Last night went great. Everything from the 3.2 modules is still intact - or propagated by USLMax.
Fell asleep, then woke to my wife tossing and turning at 12:30 AM. She heard me and asked if I was awake. I said yes, and then she asked me to turn USLMax off because it was giving her "extreme anxiety" and she had been trying to sleep for 2 hours and had work this morning. I told her no, that I would go sleep on the couch.
So she didn't get her loops, and if I play it with her home again it'll have to be ultrasonic or headphones. I don't relish sleeping with headphones on again, and the sleep/cozy phones are just poor quality. I'll try tonight with ultrasonic on speaker and see if that still causes her problems.
This morning, at my son's swim lessons, there's this milf (who has every physical feature I like, from hair color to chest/ass size) I talk to each week. Last week, I found out she's just decided to divorce her husband, and that he's already seeing someone else. When she looked into my eyes today, there was this palpable energy. I could feel her attraction, and I'm sure my eyes communicated the same. I had her laughing the entire session, and my wit was dialed in. It just flowed, which surprised me. I wasn't in that great of a mood going in there today. By the end of the half hour, she was twirling her hair like a school girl.
Last night my wife was working, so I was excited to get back to the hybrid FLAC track.
In my excitement, I totally overlooked the fact that I was due to start my secondary ASRB. I didn't realized until halfway through my first loop. Ooooooops. Guess this week is 7:3 instead of 6:3.
Had insane dreams last night, and I actually remember bits and pieces from the last week. I've had a lot of "back-to-school" dreams, that have involved people I've missed or admired. In one back-to-school dream, I transferred to a military school. At the military school, my favorite teacher was there and offered me alcohol - because I was a "veteran."
On the military theme, I was in a massive battle in a World War III scenario last night. I was also in a veteran or "hero" role, looked up to to get things done.
I had a few other crazy dreams, but one in particular was traveling to far off lands - a vacation of sorts. I figure it means my life may be about to go in new and interesting directions.
I've been feeling a lot of gratitude toward my wife and children - probably due to the fact that one of my goals is to be a better father and husband. In that same vein, I saw a commercial for a certain holiday coming up in a few months. I hate that holiday. To me, it's just a stressful time. I haven't enjoyed it for many, many years. But, I found myself thinking that I could "learn to enjoy it again," for the sake of the family. I think I'm going to give it an honest try.
Some pretty noticeable anxiety yesterday and today, again.
(10-27-2018, 08:35 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]In that same vein, I saw a commercial for a certain holiday coming up in a few months. I hate that holiday. To me, it's just a stressful time. I haven't enjoyed it for many, many years. But, I found myself thinking that I could "learn to enjoy it again," for the sake of the family. I think I'm going to try to give it an honest try.
That's really encouraging to read. Having our core beliefs changed is why I use subs, so thank you for reporting this. It says change is possible, even for the deep down, seemingly unmovable thinking patterns.
Thank you
New friend - a dad my age from my son's swim lessons - texted me to see Bad Times at the El Royale (great movie). Got me out of the house, just as I was wondering what to do with my day.
Ordered a bottomless Coke Zero. This place has servers, you order at your seat. I normally pay with my card, but said I was going to pay with cash instead. Server dropped off the check, but never came back. I easily could have walked off without paying, and had a free soda. But - that's not the right thing to do, so I made it right (found someone to make change for me) and left cash for the soda. My buddy shared his popcorn with me. No moral qualms with that one, lol.
Feeling the mental exhaustion of processing whatever I'm processing. But other than that, felt pretty great all day - not as much emotional turmoil.
Man, I got lucky Halloween morning. Was getting out some decorations in the basement - in the dark - while barefoot. I stepped on a bunch of tiny things that were hard. It hurt, but not bad. I found the light, turned it on, and then realized it was little tack-sized nails. I don't know how or why they were there on the floor (perhaps leftover from some renovations we did over the summer?) but not one of them pierced my foot. That would have sucked, lol.
Yesterday morning I thought I was on-the-ball. I was getting the kids ready for swim lessons, had them fed, dressed, and was all ready to be on time (or early) when my cat purged his breakfast all over our brand new area rug (which is white and gray). I got it cleaned up, but it set me back 15 minutes and royally pissed me off. Because of that, I was "off" all day. Even so, my wife was really nice, upbeat, accommodating, and even made me feel loved in a way I haven't felt for awhile - so that was really nice.
Went to the gym today, which has been rare lately. But, I felt like I hadn't missed a day. It felt really good. I got lucky with this long hiatus, but somehow I'm only 5 pounds heavier than my summer weight, and that's saying something for this time of year. Summer body here I come - 6 months early!
No sooner had my loops of Ocean Surf hybrid FLAC finished than I woke up for the day, and headed downstairs to get the trash ready for pickup. Just another Monday.
First things first - get a Diet Mountain Dew. So I padded over to the fridge, barefoot, and opened the fridge door. Like a rocket, out flew a jar of Better Than Bouillon, flipping end-over-end through the air. My fourth toe on my right foot exploded in pain, having been smashed on the nail.
My first thought? What incredibly bad luck. Then, "Hey, subconscious, thanks for the warning!" It felt like getting spanked for doing something wrong, like revenge for consciously trying to change my subconscious. If that's the case - fuk you, subconscious!
Goddamn that hurt. I'm limping around here like a gimp.
Welp, off to ice the purple toenail that's throbbing with my heartbeat. Grrrrr.
(11-05-2018, 05:43 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]So I padded over to the fridge, barefoot, and opened the fridge door. Like a rocket, out flew a jar of Better Than Bouillon, flipping end-over-end through the air. My fourth right toe exploded in pain, having been smashed on the nail.
Now that mentioned it, yesterday as I was sitting in my office space at home reading and catching up on the forums, I must had heard that product mentioned on TV close to a dozen times. Never ever have I heard of it, until yesterday...and now in your post...funny...coincidence?
(11-05-2018, 01:40 PM)DssMaster Wrote: [ -> ] (11-05-2018, 05:43 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]So I padded over to the fridge, barefoot, and opened the fridge door. Like a rocket, out flew a jar of Better Than Bouillon, flipping end-over-end through the air. My fourth right toe exploded in pain, having been smashed on the nail.
Now that mentioned it, yesterday as I was sitting in my office space at home reading and catching up on the forums, I must had heard that product mentioned on TV close to a dozen times. Never ever have I heard of it, until yesterday...and now in your post...funny...coincidence?
I'm having these on a daily basis. I've been trying to learn more about this from my own observation, and maybe apply it to my own life somehow.
The term for it is the Baader-Meinhof Phenomenon, but I feel like there's more to it. What do you think?
(11-05-2018, 01:54 PM)Hatman Wrote: [ -> ]The term for it is the Baader-Meinhof Phenomenon, but I feel like there's more to it. What do you think?
Baader-Meinhof Phenomenon? There is a lot that comes to my mind (assassinations, bombings, kidnappings, etc.) when I see
Baader-Meinhof but never before frequency illusions
I rarely if ever watch TV anymore.I dont have an active,plugged in,TV. for decades havent liked most commericals. most of them I cant stand.
I dropped the whole thing about 5 years ago.that is entirely,as such. got tons of anti-spyware,anti-malware,cleaners,ect ad blockers,for MY PC/Laptop, once I found things like putlockers,123movies,Fmovies,moviesonline,etc, download for free,watch whatever fer free. telechargerunevideo.com/en/ for example. .
I hate having to talk over a damn TV, like its a loud 3rd person in the room,when Im trying to communicate with another soul.I Flat out refuse to have a conversation with someone,on the phone,trying to compete with thier 3rd person LOUD ass TV.going in the background and not that back in the ground ,so to speak.peace n calm is more my speed when and where ever possible.
Information,awareness,education,entertainment all online and most if not all free.
Plus I use these specialized devices in the home to protect,sheild and create greater peace calm and harmony. not afraid of da quite. just wish I could really sleep with the subliminal running all night,I really do. I can have an air purifier with a fan on it runnning all night but with subliminals I feel like I've slept on the floor in the living room in the middle of a very active party of lively folks. I feel grougy as hell,irratable,grouchy and just flat out bothered as all git out like a raw nerve ,after an all nighter of tryingto sleep with a subliminal runninginthe background,however low the volume. I read years back it takes about a month to get used to subliminals all night while sleeping,for those of us who have these issuses ,of course,not everyone does.
(11-05-2018, 02:31 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ]I rarely if ever watch TV anymore.I dont have an active,plugged in,TV. for decades havent liked most commericals. most of them I cant stand.
I dropped the whole thing about 5 years ago.that is entirely,as such. got tons of anti-spyware,anti-malware,cleaners,ect ad blockers,for MY PC/Laptop, once I found things like putlockers,123movies,Fmovies,moviesonline,etc, download for free,watch whatever fer free. telechargerunevideo.com/en/ for example. .
That's the way to live man. TV sucks! And I hate ads. Haven't watched TV in a long time now
Haven't watched TV for past 3 years.
ANYWAYS, I wish you a speedy recovery RT!
(11-06-2018, 07:16 PM)apollolux Wrote: [ -> ]ANYWAYS, I wish you a speedy recovery RT!
Lol, right?! Thank you, Alex. The pain is less today, but I'm definitely losing that toenail. Oh, well. I didn't like that one, anyhow.
Starting USLMax (V3) tonight.