(04-21-2018, 07:49 AM)Darkness Wrote: [ -> ]Can ask why you are always so emotionally scattered ? You seem to think and act in a inductive way, rationalizing yourself from moment to the next.
Are you a psychologist/Therapist? If not then I don't want your advice.
(04-22-2018, 07:20 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ] (04-21-2018, 07:49 AM)Darkness Wrote: [ -> ]Can ask why you are always so emotionally scattered ? You seem to think and act in a inductive way, rationalizing yourself from moment to the next.
Are you a psychologist/Therapist? If not then I don't want your advice.
Don’t get fuckn rude. No advice was given.
Guys.. let's not start an argument here.
(04-22-2018, 08:31 PM)Darkness Wrote: [ -> ] (04-22-2018, 07:20 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ] (04-21-2018, 07:49 AM)Darkness Wrote: [ -> ]Can ask why you are always so emotionally scattered ? You seem to think and act in a inductive way, rationalizing yourself from moment to the next.
Are you a psychologist/Therapist? If not then I don't want your advice.
Don’t get fuckn rude. No advice was given.
You just don't know me as a person or have enough information to make assumptions about my personality or who I am. You don't know what I been through or what I'm currently going through atm that makes me the way I am. So unless your a profressional I don't think you should be talking about my mental health or point out flaws that you percieve (without having met me in person) in my personality..
I'm allowed to be emotional this is my personal journal, where I vent and talk about my most inner feelings.
But yeah let's not argue like Ben said.
I notice I"m only resisting in terms of self sabotage, going back to my inner demons (drugs ect)
I am more alpha/confident and inner game when in social situations feels better then I ever have.
I sometimes project a strong aura in public and other times I don't.
I feel like the healing/clearing is finally past some of the rough parts and its starting to cause results.
I notice allot of positive changes from using DMSI so far.
I will continue with DMSI A until I feel like its done its healing job then move onto B again.
I noticed the last two days my rage and sadness emotions that I was feeling (especially when thinking about those two women, especially the first one) has almost gone away.
I don't feel like I want to kill myself anymore, i also don't feel the pain nearly as strong.
I still don't want to think about it and it still causes some negative emotions to arise, but nothing as dramatic and severe as the last few weeks where I felt suicidal when thinking about it and like I wanted to punch something because I had so much rage and sadness inside of me.
Healing and clearing is definitely working.
I feel more hopeful now about my future then I have in a while.[
I don't feel super sad at all anymore, i feel hopeful now.
Yesterday I went the entire day without thinking about the chick (at the end of the day I did a little). a great sign. I'm thinking of her less and less.
i'm on 2 loops btw Hybrid.
Went to the gym twice today went for run. Did everything perfect. Was a very productive and busy day. Felt like u was executinf very strongly. At the gym I felt attraction fromcrhe women beside me and also idgaf attitude from me.
Anxiety is at an all time low socially and in general.
Feeling very good. I'm going gym twice a day now including pool/hottub once a day and running with my dog. I'm also buying a puppy this week so I'll be raising a pup too. I feel great now that I'm in my new apartment and focused on my bodybuilding goals. Btw im using my phone hence the errors in typing
Feel allot of apathy and depression. Lost all my potentional women in my life.
Skipped jail and went downtown last night and was very confident though and alpha. Some guys wide was hitting on me and was clearly attracted to me.
The husband bought me and my friend a lap dance for free.
Went to two strip clubs didn't pay for any dances
This is unusual for me I usually in the past spent allot at strip clubs and also had allot more awe and desire for the women. I was more logical then in the past.
Had a great night met two sluts that my friend knew drove them back home and I'm hanging out with two of them at my house on Tuesday and getting fucked up.
They said they are down I just need to hit them up the day of to confirm.
I did bang some escort yesterday before I went downtown and she was a 10 and she asked me why I bang escorts because I'm cute. She also gave me bareback bj and was really into me making out.
I got her Snapchat and she sent me some seductive pics.
I'm not attracted to her mentally tho but she was nice
I met my soulmate last night. I met this woman outside a club while i was on mdma, we were both wearing the same tigers eye crystal on us. From the moment we met we talked about deep topics and personal stuff like my mysgony for women.
After 20 min talk outside a gas station she agreed to come over and chill, we were in a 2 seater 350z so she literally had to be laid down in the tiniest trunk if a 350z since my friend was with me too..
She came over and then after 15 min my friend left and I talked to her for an hour about deep personal topics and I had expected her to stay the night because she took a 25 min cab ride to come to my place and she ended up leaving and wouldn't accept my cab money even though I dragged her alloy the way from down town to the suburbs ... I told her I'm going to take her out for dinner then and she agreed ...
The reason I say She is soulmate is because she is the exact personality typw. Everything that my person needs is found in her, this is a 100 percent compatibility mentally physically and spiritually.. we connected on every way imaginable...
No exaggeration here at all. I would marry her. This is coming from someone who that same day told a stripper I'll never get married..
I'm telling u guys meeting her just reborn my faith in love God and romance..
She's someone who can handle my intense Venus in scorpion astrological placement and appreciate it. We even talked about out our astrology together.
She's not from here she's only been in western country last 5 years. She's very well cultures from a small island in middle east
She's in university graduating this month in economics
Same age as me too
Lol MDMA does have that effect. It's for that very reason I used to use it when going out to pick up, it'd make an absolute pimp.
From experience, I've found that MDMA also allows people to make really deep connections (if we're going to be metaphysical here, soul level deep). Be mindful of this going forwards.
I also do believe that MDMA amplifies the law of attraction, so to some degree you probably drew her to you.
Either way, I'm very happy for you man. Especially given the darker tone of a few of your previous posts. Well done!
(05-06-2018, 12:06 PM)Determined Wrote: [ -> ]Lol MDMA does have that effect. It's for that very reason I used to use it when going out to pick up, it'd make an absolute pimp.
From experience, I've found that MDMA also allows people to make really deep connections (if we're going to be metaphysical here, soul level deep). Be mindful of this going forwards.
I also do believe that MDMA amplifies the law of attraction, so to some degree you probably drew her to you.
Either way, I'm very happy for you man. Especially given the darker tone of a few of your previous posts. Well done!
Yeah and the best part is she wasn't on m or drugs so her connection was real and nor drug induced. The m helped for sure
There's one time when I really f****ing felt that I just felt in love, even the day after because it was just something way special, never had that in my life before. Literally irresistible magnetism. And also a (different) substance. Enjoy, but do remember to reality check that later.