(11-01-2017, 10:42 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (11-01-2017, 09:45 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ] (11-01-2017, 09:21 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]It's a silver medal at best, go for Gold my man! Be the best!
Smoking weed will bring you down in every area of your life.
I agree for me personally. But not for everyone. I know some really successful people friends of mine who for example was high every day at work and worked his way up from labourer to owner/manager of a very successful pressure washing company.
But for me personally, i agree. Only thing weed enhances for me is musical ability at times and stress reduction, pain reduction and sleeping help.
Fair enough. I suppose it depends on what you want.
I'm glad you recognize it's negative effects on you tho. I hope you kick it man, I really do. 
Thanks man. I appreciate the way you're coming about it too. Often times when people try to get someone to quit doing something for example they come across overly critical or condescending. but I don't get that feeling from you. I can tell it's just genuinely caring about my overall growth as a person and I appreciate that. Thank you.
Something crazy just happened, so 2 days ago I banged this 10/10 Colombian escort, Small waist, Massive boobs (fake boobs though), and huge nicely shaped butt. Sexy Colombian Accent (only been here 2 months from Colombia, and only been escorting two months) She's white skinned too which I love, I love white women. Especially a light shade of tan like she has.
Anyways, she was the best sex of my life two days ago and I decided to go back today one last time banging escorts for a long time. I went with her again and basically, We have a crazy chemistry together, sexually and mentally. joking together and you can tell the attraction is genuine and mutual on both sides.
I kept pushing to get her number but she wouldn't do it and I wouldn't understand why, but I kept on persisting in different ways, she said "if we didn't meet through this for sure we would go on a date"
But I didn't understand why she said that, but then a little later I said to her "I'll get tested for you to show you i'm clean" Once I said that she started making out with me harder then we had been previously and she got insanely turned on by it and was even more passionate then before.
it was a 2 hour session we spent 45 min foreplay, 45 minutes banging and 30 minutes cuddilng/kissing and a good 15 min of that 30 minutes just communicating, I was using my phone to translate english to spanish because it was hard for her to understand what i was saying allot of the time cuz her english isn't perfect yet. she only understands some stuff.
But yeah using the translator was a great idea because I was able to communicate with her much better and basically once I told her i'm going to get tested she finally agreed to go on a date with me and gave me her contact information. I had no idea why she wouldn't do it before but now I realize its because she didn't trust if im clean or not because I bang escorts.
I can tell she is a good girl at heart, i even said 'I think you're a good girl". she said "I was a good girl before I started working here" (shes only been escorting 2 months)
Anyways, the attraction was insane, shes definitely into me and I really think the date will happen.
The date with the other escort never happened because I lost her numbers and I changed my mind about it. I started developing feelings for the other escort too and I didn't want to get hurt and I had a bad feeling about it so I went to bang this one 2 days ago to get my mind off the other one (it worked).
I like both the women for different reasons but I could see myself dating the colombian with a higher success rate, I can also see this one quitting escorting for me but I don't know if i could see the other doing that.
I told this colombian chick i'm going to take her out of this lifestyle and take care of her and become rich together as long as shes loyal and a good girlfriend, ( used google translate to communicate this to her)
Anyways, it's been a wierd experience for me doing htis.
But I finally made a girl orgasm for the first time (today) I believe and she told me the sex was good. I used to have a premature ejaculation problem before and also had a HUGE amount of stress because deep down i felt like i cant satisfy a chick. It gave me allot of anxiety thinking about it because I felt like if i got a gf i would be a major dissapointment. Banging escorts has cleared this issue up for me because it made me practise and understand how to hold it in. (cum before the session) also I think DMSI may have helped me with sexual anxiety perhaps.
The connection was great and it was real.
I'm interested to see how things play out but at the same time i'm not going to let myself get overly attached.
Oh and she let me cum multiple times (your supposed to pay extra 100 to release a second time).
For some reason telling her about my court situation and drug dealing past turned her on too.
(11-02-2017, 06:33 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ] (11-01-2017, 10:42 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (11-01-2017, 09:45 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ] (11-01-2017, 09:21 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]It's a silver medal at best, go for Gold my man! Be the best!
Smoking weed will bring you down in every area of your life.
I agree for me personally. But not for everyone. I know some really successful people friends of mine who for example was high every day at work and worked his way up from labourer to owner/manager of a very successful pressure washing company.
But for me personally, i agree. Only thing weed enhances for me is musical ability at times and stress reduction, pain reduction and sleeping help.
Fair enough. I suppose it depends on what you want.
I'm glad you recognize it's negative effects on you tho. I hope you kick it man, I really do.
Thanks man. I appreciate the way you're coming about it too. Often times when people try to get someone to quit doing something for example they come across overly critical or condescending. but I don't get that feeling from you. I can tell it's just genuinely caring about my overall growth as a person and I appreciate that. Thank you.
No worries man. What are friends for?
Btw, awesome latest post about this columbian! (Big fake tits? Yes please!) Sounds like you're getting to the next level.
One thing I'd be wary of is how girls over seas can sometimes use men to get a green card. Just make sure you're the one f*cking her, not the other way around.
(11-02-2017, 07:13 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (11-02-2017, 06:33 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ] (11-01-2017, 10:42 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (11-01-2017, 09:45 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ] (11-01-2017, 09:21 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]It's a silver medal at best, go for Gold my man! Be the best!
Smoking weed will bring you down in every area of your life.
I agree for me personally. But not for everyone. I know some really successful people friends of mine who for example was high every day at work and worked his way up from labourer to owner/manager of a very successful pressure washing company.
But for me personally, i agree. Only thing weed enhances for me is musical ability at times and stress reduction, pain reduction and sleeping help.
Fair enough. I suppose it depends on what you want.
I'm glad you recognize it's negative effects on you tho. I hope you kick it man, I really do.
Thanks man. I appreciate the way you're coming about it too. Often times when people try to get someone to quit doing something for example they come across overly critical or condescending. but I don't get that feeling from you. I can tell it's just genuinely caring about my overall growth as a person and I appreciate that. Thank you.
No worries man. What are friends for?
Btw, awesome latest post about this columbian! (Big fake tits? Yes please!) Sounds like you're getting to the next level.
One thing I'd be wary of is how girls over seas can sometimes use men to get a green card. Just make sure you're the one f*cking her, not the other way around.
I always knew I'm right on the edge of exploding in terms of my life with women. I'm still not exploded yet, but I'm getting there.
I am definitely the most confident i've ever been with women. However I still am not 100 percent where I want to be. Like I still get nervous a bit before dates and stuff. I don't want to get like that. I want to get to the point where it's just second nature ..
I am confident I am really close to getting there, my last few dates I had although it's been a long time, were great success's (last date was that 29 year old hottie while I was on WM at the end)
I feel very hopeful and excited for the future, these successes are huge motivations for me in terms of the gym and to continue to not do Hard drugs.
In life there is only up and down. I rather climb the mountain then fall off it.
My age is another thing I'm grateful for. To have come this far in my self development at this age is a blessing. I was so bad with women in highschool I couldn't be 1 on 1 with a chick i liked without getting extremely awkward, quiet and shy. that being said, age is just a number, I have heard of PUA's who didn't start getting successful till age 40's but then they had a great dating / sexual life.
It's never too late to grow.
I was terrible with women in the past i only dreamt of getting to where I am now.
I'm grateful for subliminals and Shannon because they are the biggest reasons in my honest opinion why I've developed as quickly as I have.
And about the green card thing, yeah i've heard of that too but in this situation that's not the case for sure. She wasn't pushing the date at all I was the one eager and pushing for the contact information.
Also I have really good intuition and can read people so well. I know when someone is shady or manipulative or something is off about them.
One thing that is important to note though, I don't think I would have said the perfect things if I was on DMSI, AM for some reason just makes my mind work at a better rate, everything I say to people is perfect, even at work I express myself in a very mature and smart way when interacting with my boss for example.
Am is clearly the subliminal most suited for me. I think the best chose is for me to stay on AM long enough that it's 100 percent internalized. Like it is for Shannon, probably run it for a long time.
I can't risk or gamble with DMSI. It wasn't a waste of 6 months but I would have came a much longer way if I had been using AM the whole time like my intuition was telling me to do but because DMSI is higher technology I didn't do for a long time.
I hear you man.
If she asks you to help her get a green card then you'll know, till then I think it's safe to say you know what you're doing.
Following your gut is an important thing. I've struggled with that all year myself. I'm still not listening to it to be honest, opting to try things I've never tried before. We'l see how that goes.
But yeah, great progress on your end. And to be at the age you are and being as dedicated to self-improvement as you are is very good. I always tell myself "man, if I knew or did XYZ when I was younger, where would I be right now?"
Started chatting up the maintenance/cashier/gym attendant lady that works the gym. shes in her late 30s or 40s and a milf colombian.
I didn't chat her up with the intent to bang her or get her number, but definitely more social because of AM. We ended up talking for 5 minutes and building rapport.
She was kinda blushed a bit when I said to her in spanish "I like colombian women very much, and that they are pretty"
I wasn't trying to hit on her I guess im just naturally kinda flirty . but I was being honest too. I really do love colombian women so much so far.
My not giving a fuck level is up allot recently regarding women.. I can tell its from AM. SM does the same thing to me but even more so.
I texted that waitress I used to really like and in my mind I'm feeling like "Do i even like her anymore"
Like i'm not feeling any needyness or strong desire or emotion towards her at all. Even though in the recent past she has been showing strong IoI's to me.
It's such a great feeling not giving a fuck. as ironic as it is.
That being said I do think about the two escorts but I also don't feel overwhelming emotion towards them. But I am interested in seeing how things play out.
the one thing that I can say that is sort of negative about banging escorts (but could be seen as a positive too).. I don't find regular women as attractive as I used too.
I'm way more attracted and desire 10/10's even MORE so then I used too. ( i was always shallow all my life though but now even more so)
(11-06-2017, 07:36 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ]I really do love colombian women so much so far.
The columbian women love Raykon, and Raykon loves the columbian women.
(11-07-2017, 04:47 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ] (11-06-2017, 07:36 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ]I really do love colombian women so much so far.
The columbian women love Raykon, and Raykon loves the columbian women.
Ahahahha I literally laughed out loud.
Day 62 of AM. Decided to start Sex magnet stage 1 tonight. Here is a journal post of mine from almost 3 years ago while on SM.
Stage 1 of sex magnet was awesome! I felt like I had allot better beliefs about women & I lost allot of anxiety and fear associated with them. I also started talking to girls more and my approach anxiety dissapeared allot although I wouldn't cold approach women, I would only talk to them if I had a reason like if they also had a dog. I found myself walking around even more confidently & with amazing self esteem & social ability than I had during AM6. I would talk to allot of chicks even if they weren't super hot I would start hitting them up. I also noticed allot more interest from other girls.
Now that I'm thinking back in retrospect, during SM i had the most results internally and externally then any other subliminal.
Had the confidence to call chicks on phone, (i suck at phone game), had a number from a chick I met within 5 minutes with no fear or anxiety when approaching her, it felt natural and normal I didn't feel like I have to approach, I had two chicks at my house making out with both of them all night and licking there tits (could have banged 1 but i wasn't that into her), I also had one chick calling me up at night to come over while she was drunk, but i passed on it because I still had fear (i was very low test at the time) before roids and right after getting arrested so my test was at all time low.
SM was really an UNBELIEVABLY amazing sub and I only did up to stage 3, (twice)
I'm looking forward to this run and i'm hoping that 2 months of AM refresher is enough foundation, and DMSI prior to that. I'm thinking it will be.
Always when I look back at SM, I realize I had very strong results and behavioral changes on it. But I remember clearly that when I was on SM it felt like nothing is ever different and I don't feel anything etc.
I think its likely that it'll greatly amplify and enhance you when you'd already get kinda turned on, or are otherwise "in state". And then that you can be much more. But on the normal days I didn't feel anything. Maybe its not even healthy to expect to be super horny and strong all the time, idk. But its gonna be great for you - fuck I'd want to just instantly switch back to those times myself!
Just found out no work today wooot. 30 minutes before my shift started I found out.
Great surprise, especially since its my 2nd night using SM and i always feel tired when switching to a new sub for a couple days.
I am no longer 100 percent vegan. I now eat seafood and fish.
I still don't consume dairy or land animals.
But I decided to eat seafood for bodybuilding reasons and convenience. Also because there isn't nearly as much suffering or cruelty involved in the hunting of fish versus farming/hunting of animals.
two years of being 100 percent vegan was a great experience. I'm very muscular and in good shape at the moment but due to convenience / poor cooking ability and difficulty in making lots of good meals everyday for me. Eating seafood was the best option for me to reach my bodybuilding goals.