I forgot to mention my mom called me confident randomly the other day. She said "I really like that your confident"
my mom never gives me compliments, usually she is negative towards me.
Two wierd dreams last night.
1) I went on a date with some women and for some reason I choked mentally and the date was a disaster.
I've never had this happen in real life, my dates all went very well fortunately.
I woke up thinking I need to run WM in order to make my conversation skills better, then I realized it's just a dream and I don't need to run WM.
2) I had a dream where I was attacked by a Polar bear, and I had a gun but I couldn't shoot him in time.
I looked it up just now about what that dream means and here it is
Bear
To see a bear in your dream represents independence, strength, death and renewal, and/or resurrection.�Bears are symbolic of the cycle of life. Thus if you see a dead bear in your dream, then it is highlights the end of some old habit or behavior and the beginning of a new attitude. You may also be undergoing a period of introspection and thinking. In particular, if you see a bear in your grandmother's house, then it implies that your grandmother is a dominating figure in your life.
The dream may also be a pun on "bare". Perhaps you need to bare your soul and let everything out into the open. Or there is a situation where you just need to "grin and bear it".
To dream that you are being pursued or attacked by a bear denotes anger and uncontrolled aggression. You feel trapped. Perhaps you are in a threatening situation, some overwhelming obstacle or domineering and possessive relationship.�
To see a polar bear in your dream signifies a reawakening.
It makes sense because i'm 1 month away from my trial court date, where although my lawyer says it doesnt' seem like i'll be going to jail, it still is on the back of my mind. I have allot of bottled up emotions inside me right now.
That chick from the restaurant I worked at many months ago who I was extremely into at the time.
(im still into her but i dont feel strong emotion towards her or needyness)
She's definitely into me now, my guess was right. I sent her something and she responded with a Heart emoji.
Her responses to me in the last month or so indicated she was into me but the response she gave me now is a for sure thing. She is the one who had rejected me in the past. She's into me 100 percent now.
I'm going to keep on playing it cool. I'm buying my own apartment in the next month or two so i'm waiting till then to ask her out.. (an extra month or two of AM refresher wont hurt either
Also because my court date is december 1st and I don't really want to start a relationship with that stress on my mind.
Also I'm on a heavy steroid cycle now as of very recently so i'm expecting to get 5-10 lb more muscle. It also gives me more motivation in the gym knowing i'm going to date her in a month or two.
Plus the longer I wait the less needy i appear, especially now that she knows I know she is into me, by not pursueing her hard and attempting to talk to her or ask her out. it makes her wonder if i'm still into her and also makes her fall harder for me.
woman are wierd like that, when you truly stop giving a fuck they start to care (if your working on yourself in self development and also they see u have a life of your own that is interesting or fun)
I'm not going to give into her easily also because I want her to work to get me. She is the one who rejected me so a part of me wants her to wait for that reason as well.
Make her earn it.
You seem to be making leaps and bounds Raykon. Are you still doing RSD game?
(10-30-2017, 10:52 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]You seem to be making leaps and bounds Raykon. Are you still doing RSD game?
No I haven't studied much PUA stuff in many years however I used to study for like 4 years straight religiously. starting in 2010
I've watched over 500 hours of Pua material 230 hours being RSD material.
I find AM helps me relax enough and be grounded enough that my PUA game comes out subconsiously.
I am very calibrated and smart in the things I say with women because of the PUA game i learned, but especially during SM and AM i'm that way.
Because it gives me the underlying confidence needed to do it effectively. If that makes sense. I'm not explaining realyl well i'm almost late I gotta go to work.
Haha, no worries. I know what you mean about the underlyine confidence. I've got that already from the AM refresher. I wonder if DMSI could benefit from it.
(10-31-2017, 09:11 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Haha, no worries. I know what you mean about the underlyine confidence. I've got that already from the AM refresher. I wonder if DMSI could benefit from it.
Yeah I was wondering today why AM in month and a bit has made me have constant eye contact and strong for the most part, and DMSI did not, even though DMSI is higher technology.
Two days ago I went to the library and printed out a picture of a Rolls Royce and a picture that says I am wealth.
I printed those pictures and had put them up on my wall and door so I attract them with LoA.
Today 1100 bucks came into my bank account, turns out it was from last years income tax, i already had received 4 checks from them 9 months ago and was DEFINITELY not expecting any more money, especially a large amount like 1100 when I already got so much already.
I forgot to mention that tonight when I was the medical marijuana dispenary with a friend there was smoking hot young woman as cashier.
I was flirting with her and said "My favorite quality about you that you have, I don't know your personality but my favorite quality about you is your eyes. Very light brown!. You have big anime eyes.
Then she said that her friend also says she has anime eyes.
I was confident and stable in frame but didn't push for number. I instead asked her name and shook her hand and wished her a happy halloween and left.
It was a solid interaction though but I need to start pushing for numbers more.
Dude... I thought you were giving up weed!
#disappointed
(11-01-2017, 07:10 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Dude... I thought you were giving up weed!
#disappointed
Yeah I stopped for 12 days, then started up again then quit during the week and blaze only on weekends.
But im looking to stop all together again. but the fact that I can stop during the week and only blaze on weekends is a good sign imo. Moderating and control is better then having to smoke it every day.
It's a silver medal at best, go for Gold my man! Be the best!
Smoking weed will bring you down in every area of your life.
(11-01-2017, 09:21 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]It's a silver medal at best, go for Gold my man! Be the best!
Smoking weed will bring you down in every area of your life.
I agree for me personally. But not for everyone. I know some really successful people friends of mine who for example was high every day at work and worked his way up from labourer to owner/manager of a very successful pressure washing company.
But for me personally, i agree. Only thing weed enhances for me is musical ability at times and stress reduction, pain reduction and sleeping help.
(11-01-2017, 09:45 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ] (11-01-2017, 09:21 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]It's a silver medal at best, go for Gold my man! Be the best!
Smoking weed will bring you down in every area of your life.
I agree for me personally. But not for everyone. I know some really successful people friends of mine who for example was high every day at work and worked his way up from labourer to owner/manager of a very successful pressure washing company.
But for me personally, i agree. Only thing weed enhances for me is musical ability at times and stress reduction, pain reduction and sleeping help.
Fair enough. I suppose it depends on what you want.
I'm glad you recognize it's negative effects on you tho. I hope you kick it man, I really do.
