Another day of mad smiles and great reactions. one receptionist very chatty with me and when I asked a question that made her mention her bf it was like she was upset that she had to mention her bf.
We were talking allot and it was flirty. Even ended up talking Spanish to each other cuz "were both learning it"
AM makes me such a great man. its obvious dmsi effects linger on too but AM refresher made me complete again. I am SO MUCH LESS REACTIVE. I think and am patient and calm and grounded.
I was not very grounded on DMSI. on AM I AM GROUNDED.
That's the key. grounding and solidity in my frame/body language / voice / anxiety control.
The chick I really really liked from the restaurant many months ago has been showing interest in me via social media as of late.
I think it's due to the fact she see's im being genuine on FB, following my passion (Hip-hop) and also just seeing how confident and real I am on social media and not giving a fuck of what others think of me.
Also she saw me driving in my audi when I was driving somewhere a few weeks ago or few days ago so she must got a little nostalgic and also greedy (gold digging nature in women)..
Either way, It's interesting because now shes interested in me and my interest in her is neutral.
I still want to bang her and or possibly date but I feel like she's not worth me pushing for because when I did in the past she didn't like me.
I've come along way in the last 6 months in terms of quitting drugs, body building , general happiness and confidence and how hard i'm working towards my passion in Music.
I think woman can sense it when your doing better versus when your not at your best.
On a side note, my not giving a fuck attitude is improved dramatically from AM refresher, I lost that feeling of needyness I had for a long time on DMSI.
I am also more funny now. I like the humor and style AM gives me. It's the perfect subliminal for my personality. It completes me because i'm overly empathetic usually and AM numbs me slightly so I'm less reactive.
AM numbed me ALLOT when I did 6 months back to back. (too numb , what i thought at the time at least)
that receptionist that wanted to learn spanish together. I went into there office to pick a package up and i wasn't in a good mood feeling the best and I tried to keep it as brief as possible as I was walking out she said something to me in spanish.
she said "What is the word of the day" then i went and talked to her and she taught me how to say that and i told her "I'm going to have to practise that, next time I see you il have a sentence for you" then I said bye and walked away.
LOL now everytime i see her we are going to teach eachother a sentence of spanish.
This is a kind of fun flirty thing between us and i'm interested in seeing how it plays out. Using spanish to flirt with her (when i don't know spanish either and she doesn't either were both learning as we go)
day 29 or 30 now of AM refresher stage. I feel good. Idk if it's a conincidence but last few days my creativity has been shot.
I'm hoping it's a conincidence and not due to AM.
Anyways, not sure what to do at this point, stay on AM refresher, go to DMSI or move onto WM or SM..
I'm probably going to stay away from DMSI until it's final product or the journal updates I read start getting crazy next update hopefully.
Not sure what to do.
Decided to do 2 weeks of Natural song and lyric writing then jump back on AM refresher for another month.
I did AM last night, so I'm at 30 or 31 days.
I actually decided to continue using AM refresher for one more month to further strengthen the results.
I've noticed it's helping me allot socially, and with women and in general in life.
AM makes me feel great and I have a very masculine vibe with women. I shake there hand and look into there eyes in a more powerful and sexual way.
Also i'm more funny and humurous, making more jokes with people randomly I noticed.
It's pretty great.
I am going to run 1 month of Natural song and lyric writing after my 2 months of AM is over with.
my creativity is not shot like I thought it was, I wrote a good 32 bar verse the other day.
Great journal - 1 mo refresher sounds pretty good right now. How many times have you run AM, and what's your listening schedule/hours?
(10-11-2017, 10:01 PM)LionKing Wrote: [ -> ]Great journal - 1 mo refresher sounds pretty good right now. How many times have you run AM, and what's your listening schedule/hours?
i ran am 5.0, then am v6 right after. that was 3 years or a bit more when i first started, then i did Sm till stage 3, WM till stage 5, random 2 weeks -1 month am refreshers ..
but it had been a long time since i did AM refresher, more then a year.
the 1 month made a big difference I can feel it. 2 months probably even more so.
I highly recommend refresher. It works really well.
I listen to it for 8 hours a night, without headphones and the speakers are not on the left and right side of my ear.
im sure if u listen to it more ur results would be even more profound.
when i first ran AM , am 5.0 i listened 18 hours a day
am v6 i listened 8-12 hours a day.
I was also doing plenty of hours for the 5G multistages (am, sm, am), but it seems like less could be more. I seem to remember feeling mostly foggy during AM. And having related dreams after a skippep night
(10-11-2017, 10:29 PM)LionKing Wrote: [ -> ]I was also doing plenty of hours for the 5G multistages (am, sm, am), but it seems like less could be more. I seem to remember feeling mostly foggy during AM. And having related dreams after a skippep night
As long as I get 8 hours I feel every sub i've done pretty quickly. I do believe more hours effects me harder though, even if the difference is slight.
I'm LOVE AM Refresher, I think i'm going to run SM after 2-3 months of AM.
I am loving what it's doing to me. I feel so much more self esteem and at ease in situations DMSI for some reason didn't make me feel the same.
I was SO close to going straight direct with this new blonde chick at this chinese restaurant ive been going 15 years.
She is the only white person there and they never ever hired one in the last 20 years.
I was going to straight up tell her shes adorable and start seducing her.
she didn't wait on me and she didn't come to my area, but I put my own dishes away (brought it up to the front) and cleaned my table. The people there know me as Tofu guy cuz i alway order the same thing and I always called myself that because I found it funny.
But now that this white chick works there im stoked. Its my favorite Chinese restaurant.
I didn't feel the anxiety I felt on DMSI when thinking of approaching/going direct. I didn't get it on AM, thats why I was so close and I probably would have done it if she came up to me to wait on me.
I am going to start taking more initiative and approaching chicks finally. I feel i would be better now more then ever in my life. I feel like I can do it and am more then capable, but Approach anxiety is still there a bit, even if its not that strong emotionally for some reason I don't approach all the hot women I see when i'm about my day, when in reality i should because that would get me laid more then anything.
Something very interesting happened today, I went to do a delivery somewhere and the receptionist was some beautiful european women in her late 20s.
I said "what type of accent is that" .. and she said "Why do you want to know" I replied "Just curious"
It caught me off guard because I've never had someone do somethign like that , she didn't even answer the question. After that I said "european?" she said "yeah"..
I looked at her hand she had a wedding ring so she was clearly married.
But im wondering why the reaction was so strong, was I giving off a sexual/masculine vibe, or was it just a coincidence and chick is wierd/loyal like that.
But this has me thinking, im wondering how many other times I thought a women didn't like me or had a bad reaction but in reality she was just taken and loyal.
What your thoughts on this?
Beautiful women are like that. Generally when a person is interested in another's nationality or accent, it's because they find them attractive. She probably picked up on this.
Imagine you are that woman for a moment. She's married and in love. Some random guy asks where you're accent is from. You'd probably be abrupt too.
My last gf was like that when I wasn't around. Women who are in love take pride in rejecting the advances of other men.
Another thing is with guys, we all have egos. Every guy in his own mind thinks he's attractive. So when women we hit on aren't into us, we think there's something fishy going on. The problem with this is that it creates a reality distortion. If we could all see ourselves as the rest of the world does, attraction would be so much easier.
(10-13-2017, 09:37 PM)Determined Wrote: [ -> ]Beautiful women are like that. Generally when a person is interested in another's nationality or accent, it's because they find them attractive. She probably picked up on this.
Imagine you are that woman for a moment. She's married and in love. Some random guy asks where you're accent is from. You'd probably be abrupt too.
My last gf was like that when I wasn't around. Women who are in love take pride in rejecting the advances of other men.
Another thing is with guys, we all have egos. Every guy in his own mind thinks he's attractive. So when women we hit on aren't into us, we think there's something fishy going on. The problem with this is that it creates a reality distortion. If we could all see ourselves as the rest of the world does, attraction would be so much easier.
I agree.. but I disagree with your last paragraph.
I don't think all men think they are attractive, also I don't understand what your saying exactly or what you mean by reality distortion.