I've heard of it before but never got into it. Is open focus a mindfulness type practice? As in allowing yourself to feel the feelings and just be okay with them until you feel better? Or is it something else alltogether?
Tried open focus earlier and its really good. I even sent the mp3 to a girl I was seeing at the time to try on the train, and even she said it worked well, despite her limited attention span and reluctance to try it. Gotta try it again and make the gf try it. I prefer sounds over vision, though.
(Very interesting to hear about your path recently Athanas. I remember you posting on matters of seduction in the past.)
Ben, if you focus on the sensations of your thumb, then on those of your index finger, then on the feeling of space between them, you should notice that focusing on the space feels kinda open and nice. Different from focusing intensely on one thing or thought. Different modes of attention. There's exercises that train this on the audios, where you end focusing on everything at the same time.
We've officially reached 21 days since beginning MLS.
This means we're out of the P5 from DMSI and MLS should theoretically be running at full-speed.
My current results are pretty representative of that. Less interest in women, although women still seem pretty enthused by my presence. It's certainly less than on DMSI, but better than baseline when I started. Extremely different from baseline for me. I'm quite satisfied if this is all that remains from my DMSI run.
I'm getting "flashes" of MLS, where there are times where I can definitely see the effects of MLS. My productivity has increased by a lot, finding me reading more and applying what I read. My general work-ethic has improved as well.
Most of the time it's much more subtle but I can tell I'm upgrading. The detox is doing wonders for my mental state and I find myself manifesting exactly what I need to move forward with the goals of MLS.
Healing and clearing on my beliefs around Seduction and Pickup are now taking place.
When I was in High School I caught RSD fever. Having no point of reference I thought their material and beliefs about pickup were actually helpful. That being studying their stuff I was much superior than anyone else. It only ended up making an issue (which probably wasn't much of an issue to begin with) much worse than before.
Since then I've been opposed to using most of the pickup material that I've studied because of that bad experience. It hasn't stopped me from getting laid, but it's definitely made it harder for me.
The clearing seems to be working on the beliefs that I picked up and wasn't satisfied with and clearing them. It seems that rather than saying "this, this, and this is unhelpful" I threw the baby out with the bath water and said "All of it is unhelpful!" I resented the fact that I had poured so much effort into something and gave the instructors my trust, it was hard to just let it go.
I feel assured now that I have enough relevant experiences and better critical thinking skills to delve back into the material without losing myself.
I have to ask: what the fuck is in MLS?
This issue plagued my entire run of healing subliminals from E2 to DMSI. It's really interesting that now that I'm on a completely unrelated subliminal, my mid is finally ready to let it go.
Fuck yes! Glad you realized before getting too deep into RSD and such, i'm happy for you.
Thanks Ben. I've been following your journal, especially your posts on Inner Bonding as I've been going through that material.
I'm happy to see the healing working so well for you, I know you've tried many methods looking for results. It's awesome to watch your breakthrough.
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My studying "skill" is increasing.
I'm taking advantage of highlights, flash cards, mind maps and other tools to increase my ability to retain knowledge. This is all coming intuitively. I was never doing any of this stuff, then something clicked and I'm doing it all at once.
I notice I'm also seeking the meat of what I read. I'm no longer meandering through text aimlessly. I'm looking for what is most applicable or what I specifically would like to know.
Thanks man, glad you got something from it.
Healing and clearing is continuing.
Notably in the last few days I've said goodbye to many relationships.
I've had the belief that "to be smart is to be lonely" for a very long time. There were many relationships with other people that would slow down my learning. Relationships that I didn't want to be in, but stayed in because it was comfortable, or I had already invested a lot of time in them. I felt extremely restrained by having to constantly restrain my own intelligence or pander to others to fit in. I feel much more comfortable being alone with my ideas and passions than trying to fit in with others, and that is what I'd like to do.
I think there will be some time that I spend away from people as the healing and clearing continue. When things have shifted more comfortably into place, I'll pursue new relationships. With the help of MLS I feel that the nature of my relationships will change dramatically. I'll implement what I've learned and the new realizations that I'm forming while observing my past relationships, present interactions and what I'd like more of in the future.
I'm not sure if it's the DMSI bloom or MLS specifically but I had a good cry yesterday, twice. As weird as it sounds, I've been hoping I'd cry for a while now. It's a great emotional release and I wasn't able to do so my entire run of E2 and DMSI, almost 18 months where I was being healed.
I also had a dream last night where I was in my old middle school auditorium and I was having a shootout with a rough bunch of guys. Eventually I had to fall back and continued shooting while I ran. I caught a bullet in midair and then ran through a double door and locked it. From there I entered into another set of double doors where I could only see white light, nothing else.
It may have something to do with being bullied I suppose. I had carried those experiences with me for a long time, but there seems to be a definite lessening of those thought patters and way of seeing things. I no longer feel like a nerd and all the associations that come with it. If my unconscious was holding on to being a nerd/inferior in some way then it could only be negative for DMSI.
I'm continuing to do Inner Bonding and realizing more and more things about myself and my experiences.
I've long said that E2 actually helped me more with seduction than any other subliminal and I now realize why: when I was on E2 I was fully connected to my inner child and loving adult. I was fulfilled. This internal sense of fulfillment was radiating from me and women were taking notice.
When I switched to DMSI I began neglecting my inner child because the only model I knew for getting sex involved basically fooling women into believing I was something that I wasn't.
On the flip side, when I sensed the tension of this, I didn't interpret it properly and then turned into a passive chump.
I bounced from one extreme to the other, and it's only now that I'm accurately interpreting the messages I got.
When I was doing my best on DMSI during 3.1 I was leaving my house everyday to go and draw. Just spending time walking and being peaceful, then doing something that my inner child liked to do. I became quite shameless with myself and who I was, if you didn't want to accept me, then fuck you.
I realize I can't go back to this exact same way of living, but I can certainly recreate the conditions and feelings that were present at that time. I'm curious if
Quote:I'm continuing to do Inner Bonding and realizing more and more things about myself and my experiences.
I've long said that E2 actually helped me more with seduction than any other subliminal and I now realize why: when I was on E2 I was fully connected to my inner child and loving adult. I was fulfilled. This internal sense of fulfillment was radiating from me and women were taking notice.
Nice man, glad you're enjoying Inner Bonding.
I can say the same about E2.. it helped me more with girls than anything else, I was with like 3 different girls who were 10 years younger than me and it kind of just flowed. And I was doing more things just for my enjoyment too instead of just going out to hopefully find girls.
Where DMSI has brought me with the healing, dealing with abandonment and such is awesome and going deep. But on the actual girl side.. E2 was better for me.
(08-19-2017, 09:49 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:I'm continuing to do Inner Bonding and realizing more and more things about myself and my experiences.
I've long said that E2 actually helped me more with seduction than any other subliminal and I now realize why: when I was on E2 I was fully connected to my inner child and loving adult. I was fulfilled. This internal sense of fulfillment was radiating from me and women were taking notice.
Nice man, glad you're enjoying Inner Bonding.
I can say the same about E2.. it helped me more with girls than anything else, I was with like 3 different girls who were 10 years younger than me and it kind of just flowed. And I was doing more things just for my enjoyment too instead of just going out to hopefully find girls.
Where DMSI has brought me with the healing, dealing with abandonment and such is awesome and going deep. But on the actual girl side.. E2 was better for me.
Yes - there's something being completely overlooked with the connection between E2 and DMSI. There
is a component there that women need to connect with to express themselves in a sexual manner
comfortably. I believe it has something to do with the love energy flooding, personally. My SIL would initiate texting and Snapchat with me, and to this day, has never done so since. Of course, that's just one example.
I'm glad we are all of the same opinion. If Shannon hasn't already seen this I'll link to it in the discussion thread. Love flooding + Positive Thinking Positive Attitude is going to make 3.2 amazing.
Along with a million and one other things... but I have made note of this and added it to the "to add" notes.