Subliminal Talk

I've had this issue and what I've found is that I become more interested in learning but the mind is going for low hanging fruit in terms of learning, so in the past I just started picking up many things which gave me an easy fix in terms of a sense of short term achievement but got me no closer to the goal.

Actually sitting down and grinding it out with the actions and learning you want to do will still take effort and it's useful to have strategies for making that pain, fear and discomfort manageable.

Since I posed the problem to myself I have come up with a strategy which seems to be helping me and I'll share it in case it helps - note when I refer to 'you' I acknowledge that this may not apply to you or your style, I'm merely contributing to you in case it is useful for you or anyone else who may read.

Say you're sitting there at 1pm and you're at a loss, about how to start and you want to get through a set of tasks.

Step 1. Decide clearly that you're not going to work passed a certain time. Say you decide that at 6PM you're going to the gym and going to have an enjoyable evening. This is important, you have to respect yourself and your limitations, you're not going to work forever, and you care about yourself enough to treat yourself just for trying.

Step 2. Set out a task list, with a 'complete by' time. They have to be very manageable and in a maximum of 15 minute chunks. I'll walk you through what's in my notebook.

It's now 1:08.
Begin work - 1:10
List things that need to be done - 1:15
Go through list and expand on each, do I have what I need to complete these? 1:25
Pick top three tasks to begin in order of priority/and ease of completion. 1:30

ensure you have a digital clock near by to view the time, and how it is progressing you will note that this removes some of the anxiety about the work you're doing and how long it is taking - you will feel the value and space of one minute, two minutes, three minutes etc - and in doing that you will be able to enter into pleasurable flow states.

In 20 minutes you have a clear sense of what you can achieve - now repeat the process again with the first task you identified, what can you do in the next 5/10 minutes? it could be just locating the necessary books/resources and settling down... after that, say your goal is to read through a chapter of a text book with sub headings, your next step may be to, within 10 minutes note down each sub heading with a sentence on each about what you think each is.

Then your goal may be to spend the next 20 minutes reading under the first sub heading etc. so in your note book you will have something like

1.45 books, note paper and resources needed ready
2.00 clear on first chapter sub headings - what are they, what could be under each.
2.10 - understand first paragraph

yes 10 minutes on one paragraph, if you think it's complex stuff and it's a short paragraph, give yourself 10-15-20 mins, set yourself up for winning, and not failing with each of these - the time given should be enough to make you feel confident you can achieve the goal in that time, but just stretching enough to keep it exciting.





This has been working for me with work related tasks and studying, there may or may not be something useful in there for you.

Thanks Darwin. That's really practical advise. I really should try it.

ION: I just read through this journal ... and realized that I sound like a know-it-all asshole that's using big phrases to emphasize smartness out of fear to be seen as stupid. Seen as stupid by whom? Let's find out where this new rabbit hole leads.

It's been 28 days since I stopped smoking. Seems phlegm cough-up is almost over. It was less intense than I have experienced before. Interestingly I haven't wasted even a single thought on lighting up another cigarette, and that although I am almost daily surrounded by smokers. It's as if I have never even been a smoker, despite me knowing the opposite. The process of stopping has always been easy but this time it was like deciding not to wear that one worn out shirt anymore.

These days are quiet. The initial strong contrast to how I operated on other subliminals is gone, as are the initial tangible effects. Now with stuff like the naturalizer in full swing I don't notice much that's going on.

I am hitting a wall in slow motion.

Feeling like I forfeited my life and the opportunities it presented me. Not an inch of self-discipline is left. My sleep is a mess even when I don't listen to MLS at night. And I don't want to listen to MLS anymore at all ... or to subs in general. Too much invested time with so very limited returns.

Now that registers under resistance in my book. F*ck you resistance!

(08-26-2017, 08:35 PM)Raz Wrote: [ -> ]I am hitting a wall in slow motion.

Feeling like I forfeited my life and the opportunities it presented me. Not an inch of self-discipline is left. My sleep is a mess even when I don't listen to MLS at night. And I don't want to listen to MLS anymore at all ... or to subs in general. Too much invested time with so very limited returns.

Now that registers under resistance in my book. F*ck you resistance!

Similar feelings for me on Day 15.

Interesting dream content last night.

There was a subconscious quake of a high magnitude. It produced a tsunami-like effect on the world and I had to climb to the very top of my home which had dozens and dozens of floors in order to avoid being hit by the wave. The wave surrounded the whole world and crushed and drowned everything in its path. The thing looked awe-inspiring and came complete with "It's the end of the world as we know it (and I feel fine)" playing as the soundtrack (again).

Later dream fragments referenced always back to that event. But something changed and I was hearing Queen's "Don't stop me now" in the background. One interesting reference involved me asking my mother if the wave would come back and she saying "no, not for now" and me noticing that it'll be interesting to find out what it had shaken loose in the deep and washed ashore in the process.

I am still in the realm of resistance. Thoughts of quitting and/or program change are there, oddly concentrated in the first few hours after waking up in the morning. But it is easier to ignore and dismiss those thoughts than it has been in the past while running other subs.

All in all I don't notice much from MLS in terms of nudging or enhancing at the moment. Still, I think that I am changing but am unable to actively see it unfolding, either because it is happening just outside the time-frame of my perception or because it involves changes on much deeper, much broader levels. Possibly all of that mixed together.

Anyway, since there is literally no other sub around that I'd run instead of MLS, keeping committed is as easy as it comes for me. And if it takes several weeks to months before improvements are noticeable from dietary changes (except in cases of severe depletion of one or more components), why should it be any different for subliminal soul food?

I get the feeling that I experience resistance after listening sessions with the hybrid while feeling pretty good with the ultrasonic. So I'll stick with the ultrasonic version for now.

Some days ago I followed the urge to have a large bowl of carrot-apple salad mixed with some grams of coconut flakes. The taste got me hooked instantly and I am having one every day now. I am convinced that this is a result of the detox scripting in MLS.

I can relate to ichigo and Arsenic in terms of walking on a plateau these days. However, I am certain that another hike is closely ahead.

(08-26-2017, 09:47 PM)Ampersnd Wrote: [ -> ]

(08-26-2017, 08:35 PM)Raz Wrote: [ -> ]I am hitting a wall in slow motion.

Feeling like I forfeited my life and the opportunities it presented me. Not an inch of self-discipline is left. My sleep is a mess even when I don't listen to MLS at night. And I don't want to listen to MLS anymore at all ... or to subs in general. Too much invested time with so very limited returns.

Now that registers under resistance in my book. F*ck you resistance!

Similar feelings for me on Day 15.

Same I'm having trouble sleeping more than 7 hours per night, even when I need more.

Also I can't stay up working late at night like I used to.

When it's 11pm, my eyes now autoclose without my consentment which can be quite annoying ^^

I am feeling strange today, like nothing can really faze me.

There is some stuff going on that would have troubled me a year ago and sent me into an anxious thinking frenzy about things spiralling out of control and whatnot. Today it doesn't even cross my mind to think about that stuff, much less worry about it. I am sure that I can handle everything that I come across and the more difficult it is the more I will learn from it.

All those moving smilies at the left of the writing window totally disrupt my train of thought. Can we please get only the static ones showing per default and all the ones in motion hidden away behind the [get more] link? That would be great.

A nice TED Radio Hour podcast on success.

http://www.npr.org/2013/10/25/240777690/...2017-06-09

I am under the strong impression that my subconsciousness (or whatever part of me) is trying to persuade me NOT to take action and to just passively watch my life as it unfolds. Because who doesn't jump into life is not bound to get hurt.

In the past I wasn't able to recognize this. It was just this intangible sensation of standing in front of an invisible wall that blocks me from taking the next step. This generation of subliminals may finally be able to provide me with a hammer strong enough to tear this wall down.

Fingers crossed.

In addition to the hope there is a lot of resistance going on lately. Again and again my consciousness is flooded with the urge to change programs. Either E2, AM or BASE. While some part of me is trying to convince the rest of why any one of these would be better or more suited I am still able to see through this self-deception.

This mix of hope and despair is something I haven't had in some time. And strangely enough I kind of enjoy feeling this emotional collage because I don't really experience emotions anymore.