Subliminal Talk

been meaning to start this journal but I've been busy/worn out. so here we go.

days 1 through 11
my listening has been sporadic. I've had to split up the listening like an hour in the morning before my shift and finishing on my commute home. every few days I would switch between sub ocean to ultrasonic. always 2 loops each day.
I feel like inner issues are being resolved. the first 3 days was rough, ups and downs like crazy. men seem to be challenging me more. I got jumped on the train. customers are getting mad at me for the littlest things. this has subsided by now but it sucked cuz I would feel awesome one minut then smack someone is aggressive towards me.

there is so much I noticed though with women.
at work
girl j a 6 has been going out of her way to help me at work
girl s an 8 has been flirting with me lately, I think ( she is a natural flirt )
girl ss a 7 boobed me
girl l a 6 has had a thing for me and lately increasing her interest
out of work
girl b an 8 has increased kino lately
I have been getting interest from women that I am not attracted to in the least
IOI's, "accidental" touching, and invading my space.

these are all just a quick recount of what I have noticed after starting the sub.


day 12

I am currently working on staying consistent in my listening patterns.
I am currently listening to ultrasonic.
My appetite has increased.
I am sleeping more.
I do notice I feel more drained after listening to masked subs with headphones than I do with ultrasonics.
I did make a breakthrough either yesterday or 2 days ago
I was listening to the subs on the bus and near the end of the ride it felt like an enormous weight had been lifted off my soul and felt awesome about myself
guess that was the healing kicking out some more gahbage

I am going to work and will report on anything sexual

day 13

went to get a burrito. counter girl cute 6, normal when I first get there. a minute or two later caught her staring at me, lol. then I add an order of guacamole and she gives me double and smiles and says don't worry about it.
I'm lovin the celebrity vibe I'm getting.
feeling lucky as well.

Unfortunately I haven't noticed any free stuff yet. Not that I really order food or anything, only really coffee.

day 15

I'm noticing that the girls I find attractive or would just sleep with at work are flirting with me if I just give them attention. this could just be in my head though. I'm wondering when the first of these beauties will offer to "netflix and chill" with me at their place.

just got back from pool hall. waitress there was super attentive. she was always smiling when I looked at her. when I left she gave me a full body to body hug for which seemed to me an extended amount of time. made sure to keep touching so I held the small of her back and then her manager calls her away and I had to leave.
I hope to pursue that one.


side note: I have been trying to listen while awake but sometimes I'm not afforded the chance so I will have to listen during sleep sometimes.

day 17

I'm starting to become less of a wallflower and find myself interacting with women more.
I am noticing a lot of hovering around me by women.
I am noticing more invasion of personal space.
I am getting more positive body language by women on the train.
my bouts of resistance aren't that bad, low key, it's there but riding it out is easy.

day 19

girl at work 6, not my type, is getting aggressive. she keeps increasing kino.
she asked me if I was the "King of vaginas" at one point during the shift, lol

I didn't notice much else as my allergies were messing with me all night.

day 20

I am noticing that people are challenging me or messing with me more than usual. I will make a suggestion or someone will ask for my opinion and then just ignore my suggestion or go with the opposite.
I see subtle iois on the subway from women I don't find attractive.
I have been listening right before I fall asleep, 2 loops.

I wake up happy. its great.
my desire to watch porn is almost at 0.
I have been checking myself out in the mirror more admiring what is sexy about me.
I have been slowly upgrading my wardrobe and focusing on making more income.
I feel very positive about this sub.

day 44

still on version a
I did hit a rough couple of bouts of resistance
I missed two days of listening.
had someone reach out to me on tinder and am getting more matches
I found an old vision board and saw the picture of the girl I put as my girlfriend looks like this girl at work, who by the way has been flirting with me recently, just put her two weeks notice in.
I asked her out for a drink after a shift a few days ago but she turned me down cuz she had to open the next morning.
she's like a 9 and guys are constantly hitting on her.
been trying to just play it cool around her. she's moving for work but its only for the summer.

right now she's my favorite.

other girls seem to open up in conversation more to me
my attitude is recovering from the draining resistance
still haven't gone to gym since starting
feel kinda drained
lost some weight
just needed to check in, hard to keep up with everything but last night on my 12th hour of my shift, the dude working with me reminded me that attitude affects everything and everyone around you so have fun and be focused

til next

Day 55 (minus one week)

I have not listened for one week, not out of choice. I was sick with the flu/bronchitis/just plain as hell sick. I lost 10 pounds from lack of eating/fasting. anyways...

I look FLIPPIN SEXY! I was looking at myself in the mirror for the first time since being sick and damn I am looking my best in years. I haven't even worked out in 5 months.
look, I'm not ryan goosebaby looking nor am I shredded or anything like that, no, but with the loss of weight feels great.
back to the mirror.
I was happy I was looking my sexiest in years. I was even doing poses in the mirror, lol.
Other than that...
I was at muscle maker and there was a chick with a dude that was twice my size started flipping her hair and stuff...when her bf went to the bathroom! umm...cool but no. I don't touch another mans fries.
checkout girl at cvs flirted when I picked up my drugs
I am getting stared at by random women


gonna take the day to decide if I will go back to the healing of a or go to the b side

cant wait to see what the next version will bring

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Hey dude, your journal keeps updating with "undefined" as the text. You ok? Your account is ok?

That is unusual, I wondered that myself. The only thing I can think of is he wrote something then edited it since it says it was edited. You can delete your own posts by the way if that's what's going on.