I've been thinking about subs lately and something came to mind. If we have the beast 16 and more powerful technology which can achieve its goals. Then why is DMSI not achieving its goals. How was the beast even made in the first place if we can't get DMSI to work.
Is it advanced alien technology that Shannon is reverse engineering?
(05-10-2018, 09:22 AM)Superman Wrote: [ -> ]Not experiencing much of anything anymore. The nofap streak ended, but I'll probably get back on it soon. Feeling really really tired and mentally drained. It's getting harder and harder to get out of bed in the morning and actually be coherent.
Patiently waiting for 3.3
Edit: actually make that 3.4 or 4.0
Dude, you just stated how I feel. I don't wanna leave bed in the morning. I don't wanna leave bed after coming back home and throwing myself on it. I'm not mentally coherent and can't express my thoughts to other people. Work productivity is much slower than I can deliver. This is a big regression for me.
Pretty sure I've gone into full reversal resistance mode. No good self effects, anxiety and Insecurity are prominent. No external effects to make note of at all.
Just Patiently waiting on 3.3, I might switch to part A just to switch things up a bit
Ver. A should help with resistance...
(06-05-2018, 10:41 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Ver. A should help with resistance...
I thought A and B were identical except for healing and clearing? Resistance wise they should be the same no?
Anyways I think hybrid may be too much for me mentally. I just don't like listening to it. Ultrasonic is slightly less irritating and masked is easy to listen to.
(06-06-2018, 09:36 AM)Superman Wrote: [ -> ] (06-05-2018, 10:41 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]Ver. A should help with resistance...
I thought A and B were identical except for healing and clearing? Resistance wise they should be the same no?
Anyways I think hybrid may be too much for me mentally. I just don't like listening to it. Ultrasonic is slightly less irritating and masked is easy to listen to.
Not in my experience. And besides that, I think ver. A goes at your own pace, clearing things as needed, whereas B doesn't.
A isn't go at your own pace, it's just the healing added to whats in B. It still is a 'forced march' as Shannon calls it.
(06-06-2018, 09:41 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]A isn't go at your own pace, it's just the healing added to whats in B. It still is a 'forced march' as Shannon calls it.
Oh I did not know this. So A doesn't deal with resistance? I thought Shannon put tech in there to deal with resistance.
You're talking about 2 different things. I was referring to the 'at your own pace' which is what E2 does.
A is going to be gentler than B though. With what you're saying it may be better for resistance makes sense though, as it is working on healing it and dissolving it at a bit of a slower and less forceful pace. So if there's a ton of resistance on B then yes A is good.
Shannon has said A is kind of like dissolving a mountain, where B is drilling straight through the mountain. They can both get there but differently.
I hope it makes some sense, i'm pretty tired today.
Quote:Shannon - Side B is going to get to the goal by getting you to deal with the issues you have blocking you also, as you can see. It's just not going to do so in a slow or "fun" way. It's goal is to achieve it's goals, and everything in the way can just take a hike.
This is going to require some dealing with and purging of things holding you back, because The Wall will not allow you to run and hide this time.
It may not always be pleasant, but rest assured, it will be much faster getting to the goals with B side than it is with A side. B side will just go right through whatever stands in its way.
Hmm. Well the way I've always understood it is that B forces you through obstacles no matter how painful while A deals with those obstacles. Which may mean helping you to come to some understanding, new ways of looking at things, insights, etc. Would love to have Shannon's feedback on this.
But like I said, I'm definitely seeing more results on A, but the damn 180 phenomenon tells me we are still missing some things.
Update: still running 3.2A. Not as consistently lately though. I'm finding it hard to get more than 3-4 loops per day in. My listening situation isn't optimal, I think I need new speakers.
I managed to get 7 loops in one day and I was just destroyed mentally. All I wanted to do was sleep.
Effects wise still nothing Externally. Internally I think I'm feeling some changes. I've always had social anxiety and sexual guilt and shame. Insecurity sexually and about myself in general. Regrets and anger because I never had the experiences that other guys were having.
Lately I feel like it's going away. A moment will happen where the negative emotions and feelings come up and take over my mind, and then once I calm down and process it I feel like it hurts a bit less than before. Even though I'm getting older and I can never go back and have the experiences I wanted.
Comparing what you feel on the inside to what you see on others on the outside (outward success), is the fastest way to being unhappy.
Well that's why we run subs isn't it?
(05-10-2018, 09:27 AM)Superman Wrote: [ -> ]I've been thinking about subs lately and something came to mind. If we have the beast 16 and more powerful technology which can achieve its goals. Then why is DMSI not achieving its goals. How was the beast even made in the first place if we can't get DMSI to work.
Is it advanced alien technology that Shannon is reverse engineering?
DMSI is not achieving its goals because things have to be developed and implemented in the right order, and that is a slow process with everything else besides working on DMSI that I must do to achieve that.
Beast is where I develop and test new stuff. Then when it is proven to work and be safe, I mark it as ready for release. But with literally hundreds of technology modules, this is not a simple thing to do, especially since they may or may not interoperate. So I am waiting until Beast achieves design spec, and then I will mine the tech and put it in the skeleton script. It is a very complex, very challenging job, and I'm not going to do it in chunks at a time. I'm going to do it all at once,
after I know that what I am doing will be worth the effort. Going from whatever comes before it to "finished mining the tech from Beast and translating it to working within the skeleton script" is going to be a months long process. Doing it piecemeal won't work because there are too many technology modules of too much complexity for me to keep track of if I try.
So when Beast is finished, we will start mining and translating the technology. Until then, we will have this store of technology that is in development or has been developed, waiting to be released.
It's not alien technology, but it's very complex. I am not looking forward to porting it.