If you look at my journal you'll see i wrote about the expressionless look also. I've had girls smile many times, but some are just acting like we're having a staring contest, really creepy. Even if i do something they still act like they are in a trance. This usually happens on the bus.
Day 19
Quit my job. Felt a deep sense of calm and euphoria for the rest of the day. Also felt bouts of anxiety, tension and depression in the past few days.
Haven't been approached or seen any obvious IOIs aside from expressionless glances here and there.
I've realised that Shannon's restaurant routine doesn't work here as I literally haven't seen any attractive waitresses in any of the wide variety of restaurants I frequent. Every single waitress is either old, dark skinned, fat or unattractive or a combination of all that. Pretty girls in China simply don't work in restaurants or at all for that matter.
Been thinking about where to find attractive girls here. I am attracted to hourglass shaped women that are mature in both appearance as well as personality and don't do any of the silly "cute" stuff young Asian girls tend to do. Strangely enough, two of those have added me on the social networks here but they're both in different cities far away from where I live.
Signed up for the gym here(damn costly but I need to put on weight) and am eating like a blackhole. I just need to come up with a more efficient way of finding an attractive girl here, Chinese Tinder has produced zero results in 3 months so far.
Also realised that nearly every single Chinese girl I've been talking to expresses the need for natural masculinity, leadership, dominance, calm strong frame and so on. But most importantly, they're looking for muscular dudes, they're literally spamming their wechats with posters of ripped underwear models(usually white). They're basically looking for the opposite of what Chinese guys naturally are. So despite the open materialism here I think that tall ripped dudes would slay it here. I cannot change my height but I can try to become as buff as possible while working on my mindset!
Quite alot of them like muscles and since I've gained muscles i can easily get attention here by showing them off. I do know girls who also like guys with some fat.
(12-19-2016, 08:03 PM)Eurasian Wrote: [ -> ]Day 19
Quit my job. Felt a deep sense of calm and euphoria for the rest of the day. Also felt bouts of anxiety, tension and depression in the past few days.
Haven't been approached or seen any obvious IOIs aside from expressionless glances here and there.
I've realised that Shannon's restaurant routine doesn't work here as I literally haven't seen any attractive waitresses in any of the wide variety of restaurants I frequent. Every single waitress is either old, dark skinned, fat or unattractive or a combination of all that. Pretty girls in China simply don't work in restaurants or at all for that matter.
Been thinking about where to find attractive girls here. I am attracted to hourglass shaped women that are mature in both appearance as well as personality and don't do any of the silly "cute" stuff young Asian girls tend to do. Strangely enough, two of those have added me on the social networks here but they're both in different cities far away from where I live.
Signed up for the gym here(damn costly but I need to put on weight) and am eating like a blackhole. I just need to come up with a more efficient way of finding an attractive girl here, Chinese Tinder has produced zero results in 3 months so far.
Also realised that nearly every single Chinese girl I've been talking to expresses the need for natural masculinity, leadership, dominance, calm strong frame and so on. But most importantly, they're looking for muscular dudes, they're literally spamming their wechats with posters of ripped underwear models(usually white). They're basically looking for the opposite of what Chinese guys naturally are. So despite the open materialism here I think that tall ripped dudes would slay it here. I cannot change my height but I can try to become as buff as possible while working on my mindset!
If I can give you an advice on an easy cheap way to become muscular is to do it at home. I would love to go a gym to meet people there but for me it wouldn't be for becoming muscular, at least it wouldn't be as efficient to me.
All I really needed to become very muscular when I was 15 was this:
http://rippedstatus.org/wp-content/uploa...ilding.jpg
With that I can work most of the important body parts that people see as attractive. No need of any machines or any expensive things, if you think through it you can work tons of ideas by yourself on how to use this weight to body build.
Then what you need to do is to work out everyday, I mean every day so your mind get use you to it like brushing your teeth. Even 15 minutes is okay. After I became lazy with body building all I needed to maintain it was 15 minutes a day. Building is actually the laziest sport to me as even with 15 minutes if you are using very big weight your body is consuming a lot of energy fast. The more you can lift the easier it becomes, even with 3 minutes a day you could maintain only your arms which is sometimes what I do when I'm very lazy about it.
Depending your body abilities though it may be harder or easier.
Thanks for the advice, I've been training using bodyweight routines for years now. I have functional strength but it doesn't really show as I hardly gain any weight, even when I eat 6 times a day.
I am switching to a compound lifting routine(Fierce 5) and eating a shit ton of food everyday, as at least the food is affordable here in China.
The problem with dumbbells is that you eventually cap out(the dumbbells here in China go up to 30kg think) as only barbells allow you to add more and more substantial weight. And one thing I've learnt from bodyweight exercises is that continous growth is only possible if resistance is continously increased.
I stopped at around 32kg when lifting with one arm, after that I thought that it could actually cause problems in my later years if I lift more than that with one arm as it's half my weight. I would say unless you want to be a professional you don't need more than half your total weight.
I won't be able to call myself a man until I master the 1 arm handstand pushup.
Bodyweight type training is good for strength and fitness, but it won't build much muscle.
I've switched to a program that is more supersets, endurance based, some bodyweight stuff and i'm noticing I lost some fat but i'm not as muscular as when I was doing HIT for example or more bodybuilding focused.
Day 21
Feel extremely relaxed and carefree, I have also lost interest in girls. Even forgot to swipe on the Chinese Tinder for a couple of days. Am having sex or sex-related dreams every night(although dream recall has been getting worse on DMSI)
Seeing Shannon still going through clearing I wonder how long it will take for me before I see something tangible in real life.
Day 22
So later yesterday I was close to tearing up multiple times and felt lonely as hell. And today I don't care again. Man, this is a roller coaster.
Day 24
Had to skip one night due to feeling nauseous. Felt painful to listen to any sound. Resistance?
Went back hard the following two days and got my regular amount of loops.
Was wandering about the city today and started to doubt the efficiency of the subs as I felt invisible.
Back home I just felt an intense wave of anxiety/sadness wash over me, only to be gone a few minutes later. Also feel sleepy as hell, despite having woken up 7 hours ago after 9 hours of rest...guess something is going on under the hood. Really hope so!
Day 28
Feeling much more stable now. On the way back home, a random girl gave me a really nice smile.
Almost all of my dreams are either about sex, companionship or traumatic issues. Also, a lot of peeing for some reason(only in the dreams lol)
I assume I should continue running 3.0.1A for another month and see what will happen?
Day 29
I act much more calm and focused when I am interacting with people, but I still feel strangely invisible.
I am also aware of all the negative thought loops that are constantly on my mind, they're all related to girls. I am tired of them and try to stop them as soon as they occur. I have the feeling that nothing good can come out of constantly rationalizing in my mind as to why I don't find a girlfriend here. These thoughts are terribly annoying to have, but they play like a broken record in my mind throughout the day. In reaction to these thoughts I am trying to contemplate why they've occurred in the first place, but aside from lack of positive experiences in that regard, I can't think of a good reason. I honestly think that I've had a good and comfortable life and shouldn't have a reason to complain. Still, I'd love to simply banish those negative thoughts and feelings of inferiority for good. I am sick and tired of them, yet they come up everyday.
As such, I will keep running Version A until 3.1 comes out.
Shannon, based on my reports so far, do you think that I am resisting the program out of pure fear or even stonewalling it? Or am I simply clearing through so much baggage in my subconscious mind that it will take years for me to see obvious external results?