Day 5
Pretty sure im running DMSI 2.5 which is supposed to affect members of the same species as I am. NOT MOSQUITOS. My entire body is all forms of f***ed up from these little bloodsuckers.
Aside from that, I think I felt a minor version of dragons breath last night. When I played the sub, i felt heat is being generated everywhere especially a piercing warmth in my throat.
-The Entire day I was in my head and had a massive dialogue with myself. Felt really down today with a bit of resistance.
-The sub seems to amplify the energy or lack thereof inside me so I have to cut caffeine asap or else my crashes are going to run me to the ground.
Day 6
Not really feeling much in terms of aura although I did have this really strange thing happen while I was was about to sleep. Almost like a command, I basically told myself to visualize a large while orb in front of me and I poured all my memories, emotional pain, and trauma about my ex. It felt like I mentally outed all the emotional pain, trauma, and memories into this white orb. Then like another command I sent this orb away. I repeated the expertise once or twice and in the middle of the night I realized just how much baggage I let go.
I woke up with more focused and also more carefree than yesterday. My Ex did pop up in my mind but it's not emotionally charged. I thought it would be funny to send a bag of gummy D**ks to her as a tasty and funny prank.
-Today in class I was talking to the girl i was toying with in visualization. Got to know her a little bit better. She sits next to me and we are facing our own computers but either her legs or entire body was pointed towards me.
-Msged another girl about an event tomorrow and suddenly I followed my urge to ask her about herself but she answered them vaguely so I don't think she's interested. Who knows? ill see her tmw and ill judge then.
Quote:I thought it would be funny to send a bag of gummy D**ks to her as a tasty and funny prank.
Hahahaha i've thought of doing that to a few people, unfortunately it's pretty expensive to do so. There's also another site you can ship a big cardboard dick with a message to people.
(10-19-2016, 08:19 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:I thought it would be funny to send a bag of gummy D**ks to her as a tasty and funny prank.
Hahahaha i've thought of doing that to a few people, unfortunately it's pretty expensive to do so. There's also another site you can ship a big cardboard dick with a message to people.
An Interesting Greeting Card. 
(10-19-2016, 08:19 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Quote:I thought it would be funny to send a bag of gummy D**ks to her as a tasty and funny prank.
Hahahaha i've thought of doing that to a few people, unfortunately it's pretty expensive to do so. There's also another site you can ship a big cardboard dick with a message to people.
That's a bit as light hearted as a bag of gummy D**ks though. It's perfect because it's funny and it's also an edible gift. Too bad she's not above the age of consent yet so I might get in trouble for sending it though.
Day 7
I had a rather simple cartoony dream but the emotional rawness is what makes it unique. In this dream, the world is essentially covered in sadness, a sadness that is so dense it was killing everything in this world. So in this scene, the was an innocent child and an adult. I don't remember if there is a relationship between the two. The adult feigned a smile and happiness so the child feel it before passing away. The scene ends with the adult crying and broken and I woke up immediately with a "hoky s*** that was intense".
Outward Iois so far isn't too noticeable. One Asian girl in front of me was shifting her bodyweight everywhere, facing away from me then trying to get closer, facing me and then facing away. When the seat next to me is available, she sat down and brushed her body on mine then cracked a smile while apologizing.
Day 8
Went to a small party with a cool group I recently met. One girl was glancing at me but she looked rather teserved and looked like she was with the dude she was with. When alcohol was involved, she just became more and more unattractive. Especially when she started insulting comically until she started hitting home. She was lashing out and started purging her relationship problems.
Even before the party, I was in a club meeting where the group was waiting for my friend. I think she would occasionally glance or maybe even stare. I got her name and whatnot as we were heading to another dudes place.