Day 32.
Decided to Facebook message and add that waitress from the other night.
I asked her out no response / read yet but we will see. I want to see her but I don't feel like I'm emotionally attached or will be hurt by rejection.
I have a feeling she will say yes though the attraction was really high in person.
decided to start listening to subs with headphones again while awake. Haven't done this in a long time but I used to always use primarily headphones. especially my first two AM runs I listened to 18 hours of headphones a day.
But woman magnet & base I did not use headphones that much and I had great results as well.
more exposure will be nice though especially with 5.5g technology using headphones should make a big difference + the added exposure.
(10-06-2016, 05:07 PM)Rayhon Wrote: [ -> ]Threw the computer in the garbage, using my sisters laptop to make this post.
already from the moment I got home I was thinking about what to do, going out to the park, play guitar ect.
Destroying it was the best idea ever even though it makes me unable to do some of my favourite things in life atm, playing dota 2 and watching The Office on netflix while stoned.
I'm going to get back into the gym hard and have the best physique of my life come summer time.
Seems like you're opening up. Didn't see that many posts in the past that mentioned gaming, netflix, smoking OR the roids previously.
But Dota2 is awesome
Not that I play a lot anymore. Maybe a game after work and rarely and on weekends. I used to play till 3 in the morning pretty regularly tho...
Physically removing your computer from your presence is an extremely hardcore action that must have taken a lot of willpower. I commend you for allowing yourself to do so and wish you success in your computer-less state in this digital age!
(10-06-2016, 09:25 PM)Inconceivablezen Wrote: [ -> ][quote='Rayhon' pid='135725' dateline='1475802475']
Threw the computer in the garbage, using my sisters laptop to make this post.
already from the moment I got home I was thinking about what to do, going out to the park, play guitar ect.
Destroying it was the best idea ever even though it makes me unable to do some of my favourite things in life atm, playing dota 2 and watching The Office on netflix while stoned.
I'm going to get back into the gym hard and have the best physique of my life come summer time.
Seems like you're opening up. Didn't see that many posts in the past that mentioned gaming, netflix, smoking OR the roids previously.
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It's interesting you mention that I also noticed that after I made those posts.
(10-07-2016, 06:07 AM)Blink Wrote: [ -> ]But Dota2 is awesome Not that I play a lot anymore. Maybe a game after work and rarely and on weekends. I used to play till 3 in the morning pretty regularly tho...
Me and my friend are going to build me a gaming comp come January for my bday dec 26. Until then I won't be using a computer or playing any games. I love dota its something I've been playing for 7 years since Dota 1.
(10-07-2016, 03:30 PM)apollolux Wrote: [ -> ]Physically removing your computer from your presence is an extremely hardcore action that must have taken a lot of willpower. I commend you for allowing yourself to do so and wish you success in your computer-less state in this digital age!
Thanks man I appreciate that..
I've had a computer or laptop in my room since I was a 7 years old and it was a hard decision to make but I feel like I will come out a healthier individual. My main reason is to quit porn but I also think having a break and doing things outside of technology is great for mental health.
Right now I just finished drawing and I've been reading too. i tried playing my keyboard but it was broken and I am going to tune my guitar and learn more things tomorrow.
So far I'm doing okay at managing my "boredom" and being positive about it. Music helps
Day 33
Noticed the sniping power of the aura very intensively when these two young Mexican women who were at a construction I worked at today showed up. I had an extreme urge to go talk to them and I was planning on it right after one more elevator delivery load but I came back down and they were gone.
I noticed them checking me out and smiling allot.
Another thing huge is I am trying to hook up and reconnect with this chick I was friends with few years ago. I sent her some really sexual shit on snapchat and was extremely direct and playful about it.
Even half joking/half seriously asked for nudes.
Everything I said was in the right context and seemed normal. She would say something in a snap chat tome and I would respond very sexual. She said she's dating someone but I made another sex joke and we're still talking. She didn't actually say she's dating someone but she implied she is.
They aren't serious and she's still into me. The way I responded to her and her telling me that stuff was still sexual and unapologetic.
I'm not going to into details because my fingers are hurting from Internet on my mobile phone so I'm going to get off now.
I never used o be comftorable before using subs with texting women sexually and even normal texts I'd re read all day and worry about it.
I never worry about what I say now. If I think it's funny I say it.
Speak of the devil she snap chatted me again just now
Ended up smsing each other on snap chat for 30-45 min. I toned down the sexuality and did comfort style game. Had her sending me big paragraphs and getting to know her.
forgot to mention yesterday at a chinese restaurant I was eating alone at the young women waitress gave me a free cup of tea even though they aren't allowed or supposed to give free tea out at that restaurant anymore. They only sell pots.
It's there new policy they've had for a while now.
She was smiling at me allot too. She wasn't my type or else I woulda sniped her with my words and personality.
Day 34
I had my fourth or fifth dream this month of me and a wild bear.
Most of my dreams were me fighting the bear and it's vague whether I would win or lose the encounter but it was scary every time.
I had a dream last night that A giant grizzlybear was 3-4 feet away from me and instead of being scared and weak I ROARED multiple times and puffed my chest out and continued roaring at the Grizzly till it ran away.
It was very a very alpha dream and I believe it has to do with clearing me of my fears.
Wild animals specifically bears & cougars are my biggest fears in life. I'm not scared of a whole lot but I'm scared of wild animals due to there unpredictable nature and great size/power.
Even though I fear them I still love them, the way they look & are. I just get scared if I'm out hiking or something. Id like to carry a gun if I could in those situations.
I hear you man. I've had dreams of bears before and they were terrifying! I've read that dreams of bears signify your inner instincts being triggered in some way.
Also, I went on an amateur off-the-beaten-path camping trip with my cousin last year. I thought a bear was going to eat us at one point. Not something I'll be doing again that's for sure!