5G tech uses a lot of energy. Make sure u take enough calories to keep up with that. Last time I listened to LTU which was in March 2016 I was exhausted and burned up like hell. I drank protein shake just for that and all was well.
Change always requires energy. Weather its changing the position of an object from one place to another or weather it is ur habits or beliefs....Its just physics. In this case I we call it Meta-physics.
So, I had my blood tests done. I will be seeing the doc next Tuesday for results.
To be a bit more clear, My health has been poor for the last 2 months I would say. Of course I've had the odd day where I've gotten laid (I didn't expect it either to be honest lol). This journey with subs can go from elatation to frustration in the span of a day, but it's never without growth and learning something new about your experience.
As for lessons, I've had a few wake up calls the last few days. Namely, not treating people who care about you like shit. I reached a bit of a dark place and took out my fears and sadness out on my family and friends. It was a bit of a slap in the face (much needed one) to really take a good look at the man I'm becoming and who I want to be remembered as. All is good now, I did some clean up, took responsibility, and faced a big fear to boot.
Another interesting thing is how creative and inspired I've been the last 2 days. I guess I've been sort of transmuting my fear of dying young and having achieved nothing into motivation to leave a legacy when I die. I practiced rapping and played music for hours yesterday (even whilst fatigued as hell). I felt so inspired. Time to record and get my stuff out there. Life's short.
Welcome to my bi polar journal
(10-19-2016, 08:47 PM)bliss Wrote: [ -> ]So, I had my blood tests done. I will be seeing the doc next Tuesday for results.
To be a bit more clear, My health has been poor for the last 2 months I would say. Of course I've had the odd day where I've gotten laid (I didn't expect it either to be honest lol). This journey with subs can go from elatation to frustration in the span of a day, but it's never without growth and learning something new about your experience.
As for lessons, I've had a few wake up calls the last few days. Namely, not treating people who care about you like shit. I reached a bit of a dark place and took out my fears and sadness out on my family and friends. It was a bit of a slap in the face (much needed one) to really take a good look at the man I'm becoming and who I want to be remembered as. All is good now, I did some clean up, took responsibility, and faced a big fear to boot.
Another interesting thing is how creative and inspired I've been the last 2 days. I guess I've been sort of transmuting my fear of dying young and having achieved nothing into motivation to leave a legacy when I die. I practiced rapping and played music for hours yesterday (even whilst fatigued as hell). I felt so inspired. Time to record and get my stuff out there. Life's short.
Welcome to my bi polar journal
Creative and Inspired: Great that you are facing your 'fears' and worked on some creative outlets.
(10-20-2016, 08:02 AM)Zane Wrote: [ -> ]What is ur sub history?
1. A half assed incomplete run of AM6 (I don't usually count this)
2. OGSF 5G: 90 days
3. ASC: 90 days
4. LTU: currently
(10-20-2016, 04:39 AM)DisneylandUSA Wrote: [ -> ] (10-19-2016, 08:47 PM)bliss Wrote: [ -> ]So, I had my blood tests done. I will be seeing the doc next Tuesday for results.
To be a bit more clear, My health has been poor for the last 2 months I would say. Of course I've had the odd day where I've gotten laid (I didn't expect it either to be honest lol). This journey with subs can go from elatation to frustration in the span of a day, but it's never without growth and learning something new about your experience.
As for lessons, I've had a few wake up calls the last few days. Namely, not treating people who care about you like shit. I reached a bit of a dark place and took out my fears and sadness out on my family and friends. It was a bit of a slap in the face (much needed one) to really take a good look at the man I'm becoming and who I want to be remembered as. All is good now, I did some clean up, took responsibility, and faced a big fear to boot.
Another interesting thing is how creative and inspired I've been the last 2 days. I guess I've been sort of transmuting my fear of dying young and having achieved nothing into motivation to leave a legacy when I die. I practiced rapping and played music for hours yesterday (even whilst fatigued as hell). I felt so inspired. Time to record and get my stuff out there. Life's short.
Welcome to my bi polar journal
Creative and Inspired: Great that you are facing your 'fears' and worked on some creative outlets.
I need a laptop and mic setup though! I've gotta start recording and releasing my music, and get it out of my head!
Day 97:
I had a pretty fun weekend. My friend (girl from the previous posts) came over Saturday night and one thing led to another and we fucked all night. Woke up, and spent all of Sunday and today doing it as well. I'm pretty tired, it's been a while since I've had sex like that, but fun nonetheless. I guess I have a fuck buddy now, so I'll be spending less time thinking about sex, maybe.
Seeing my doctor tomorrow for those results. Ive honestly been pretty slack on listening time the last week. It may have been good to let it settle a bit though. I'm running this one long term.
Your journal is making me seriously consider giving LTU a go once I'm done having fun with DMSI...
I just read the program's description page and I like what I'm seeing there. Hopefully it gets updated to 6g, too!
(10-24-2016, 05:27 AM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ]Your journal is making me seriously consider giving LTU a go once I'm done having fun with DMSI...
I just read the program's description page and I like what I'm seeing there. Hopefully it gets updated to 6g, too!
Yeah, its very well rounded. I believe it will be upgraded when 6G is introduced, with maybe a few goals added.
First few months have been a bit bumpy for me, but I've noticed a lot of positive changes in my self esteem and attitude towards life. I'm excited for the next few months, seeing as I've probably cleared a bit of resistance by now.
Day 98:
- Test results came back. All clear. Not sure exactly what was causing that fatigue. I am feeling better however.
- Feeling happier and more social.
- Less inhibited when checking out girls. I gave a few girls some slow up and down looks today, which I rarely ever do.
- Still feeling motivated and inspired creatively.