Day 2 of no E2
So last night I worked till around 3am I think and then called it time for bed.
I worked on completing the reference section which was better than not doing anything as my printer wasnt working and I wanted to print work out.
So today I'm awake and as I eat my cereal my printer is working so I'm printing the work that was to be presented today in class.
I have around 3hours till class, so I will eat, have shower and then work on thursday project, IF my printer does print that.
So back to this update for today.
I woke, felt okay and normal, pretty refreshed actually which happens when I have poor sleep for a few days.
I sat on the bed and just read the news or surfed the net as well as seeing if anything new was going on here which always is of course.
I then got reminded of the incident yesterday that brought me down of how some girls in another group were whispering about my age and then had the audacity to ask a friend how old I was.
He said I don't know go ask him, which was pretty poor as a back up but anyway.
So I've been down over the weekend, down at procrastinating and not doing work as I want to and then this leading me to be down at myself.
My issues I believe have stemmed from around the age of 11 when I moved school and didn't like it there but it could also be at being angry at parents as a kid for not letting me do things as I wanted to.
I could speculate all I want I guess ill never know but the reality is that my procrastination at studying has gotten from bad to worse.
Funny thing is, if I need to do anything else, like learn about exercise, or nutrition or do something on Facebook etc I can do it for hours but studying no, there is a block at times and when it manifests itself to me as it did this weekend it brings me down.
I shouldn't procrastinate now as a mature student but yet I'm worse than the teens, its crazy!!!
That being said, I do work when the deadlines hit me or its late at night, and this I must change.
Its hard not to wonder if Overcome Procrastination is the better sub for me than IYGSH but since some of you have said just use that then that is what I will do in the hope it smashes me out of this funk (not swearing its a legitimate word lol).
So back to today, so the thought of yesterday affected me again and made me feel down and sad and well it made me wonder just what if anything did E2 clear inside me after the 47days I've listened to it so far.
I hope that I smash the level of listening with IYGSH so that it works on me easily, quickly and deeply.
Anyway eating cheers me up as clearly its got me to relax a little since that low though about yesterday and I guess its why I'm fat too.
Other than this I'm not noticing or sensing any bloom of E2 occurring