(02-24-2016, 07:07 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ] (02-24-2016, 05:07 AM)Sickologist Wrote: [ -> ]I can't stand earth and air signs, aries and leo are okay though as they don't get in my way. So that's the most important thing for me, water signs need each other. They understand my particular needs, preferences and tastes without having to shout it out. I made that shift from wondering if people like me to only caring about if I like them.
I also believe that Scorpios can see good where others can't - like when someone puts up a tough "front," but they're really good people on the inside and are just trying to appear tough...you can see it easily.
Shit this is EXACTLY what I have
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RTBoss Don't be, I welcome discussions as long as it doesn't get too derailed and off topic.
(02-24-2016, 07:09 AM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: [ -> ] (02-24-2016, 07:07 AM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ] (02-24-2016, 05:07 AM)Sickologist Wrote: [ -> ]I can't stand earth and air signs, aries and leo are okay though as they don't get in my way. So that's the most important thing for me, water signs need each other. They understand my particular needs, preferences and tastes without having to shout it out. I made that shift from wondering if people like me to only caring about if I like them.
I also believe that Scorpios can see good where others can't - like when someone puts up a tough "front," but they're really good people on the inside and are just trying to appear tough...you can see it easily.
Shit this is EXACTLY what I have
@RTBoss Don't be, I welcome discussions as long as it doesn't get too derailed and off topic.
Yeah, I can see it easily but to me it's not really seeing the good. People who put up a tough front are very easy to manipulate, they are doing it to compensate some weakness they perceive in themselves. Being a scorpio I can't help it but feel the need to be in control and I feel safer when I know how to handle someone. Knowing their weakness is the easiest way. Maybe one day when I'm stronger mentally, I can let it go.
Most of my friends are not water signs actually, but those who are water signs do "get" me more. I can get along well with any signs if I can find a way to communicate with them. When I say I don't like how people are intimidated by me, I mean people who don't really know me. I don't care what people think about me but I don't like it when they keep a distance because they are "afraid" of me somehow.
To a certain extent all people are selfish assholes, even when they do something that's perceived as charitable. About finding people's weaknesses, you have to do that sometimes to ensure your survival. At a job I had, I constructed a conflict between two of the bosses because one of them was out to get me. He eventually was fired.
And that's the thing, you can't control how people percieve you. A scorpio with scorpio rising means that what you see is what you get which is a good thing. And with that scorpio rising you'll attract a lot of attention, most of the time unwanted, sometimes things go your way.
In high school for instance, there was this group of girls in another class who hung up some pictures of me besides their desks. Every time I walked past them, they were all looking at me with those eyes and trying to talk to me, but I was too busy being cool. Rest of the school thought I was creepy. It's been like that my whole life, my vibe is insanely strong.
One time in college, I was really angry before entering one of my classes. I didn't think much of it, just thought I'd coast it through the thing. But the whole class picked up on it and the atmosphere was torture. All eyes on me, even the professor was looking at me like I was Lucifer himself. She stopped talking several times to carefully check if I was going to burst into flames.
So these events happens for real, and what works for me is to review my mood before I go out. You probably send out really strong vibes which you can learn how to use in your favour. Since I went deep in to the Cory Skyy mirror affirmations, things started smoothen out. So opposed to having one horribe experience followed by another horrible and then striking gold I was having steady positive results.
How you treat people isn't that important. How you treat yourself, that's the ticket.
Guys this isn't the place for astrology.
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(02-24-2016, 03:53 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]Guys this isn't the place for astrology.
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No worries Ben
-Day 25-
So I have been at the gym and damn this one girl who was next to me on the stretching mats was fine as fuck - she was doing some session with a personal trainer but noticed she kept glancing at my groin area and some other IOIs while I was doing bridges and stretches
I'm starting to realize that theres a certain kind of girl I'm really attracted to, it's the ones that are comfortable with their sexuality, often these girls are slutty but they aren't total bitches - wild chicks who have good personalities too. I also am starting to realize the girls I am NOT attracted to, it's the ones that are pretty closed and judgmental, I feel their energy and it's pretty locked up makes me wanna run away hah.
Some fears and anxieties are coming up atm but I'm sticking to going out and doing stuff instead of escaping and being lazy. My mum and sisters thought I was hooking up with a chick at the gym cause I was wearing jeans lol must be giving off a vibe had to spend a while convincing them I wasn't.
I'm very glad I've decided to give up porn and temporarily masturbation also, it gives me more of a drive in life without that shit, also it just can't be natural looking at porn since I was 8/9, so committed to doing it.
I'm thinking of running this for 6 months, really interested in seeing where it can take me. Pretty smooth run so far.
-Day 38-
Quick update: feelings of anger towards myself have been coming up a lot recently in the past few days, slight depression also. Been thinking about buying EHPR 2.0 but decided to stick with OGSF as I hate switching subs at the drop of a hat.
I've decided to use speakers now with ultrasonic at night and some masked with earphones during day.
This is the speaker I'm using -
http://www.johnlewis.com/samsung-hw-j250...mcampid=73
It unfortunately doesn't show the frequency response specs but I tested it with frequensee and it was on like 19khz so I'm not totally convinced, I can't hear any crackling when playing the sub though (compared to my "apprently 20khz speakers" which crackling is heard, so what gives...)
I suspect there will be a few days where I feel like shit but it's part of the process and I'm going to stick to 3 months minimum.
Also decided to buy some mones from androtics but I haven't seen any positive results from using 1 spray ammo at the gym so not sure what to make of that, I have heard some bad things about androtics recently so I'm remaining skeptical, I can always get a refund at the end of the day though.
Some positives;
-Working harder in sports such as football, playing better too, playing with less fear other people noticed.
-Still going out and putting myself outside in the world (mainly gym and cycling through town) even when feeling shitty.
-Becoming slightly more honest with myself, not being satisfied with my environment/life.
Need to remind myself of the positives in every situation even when it looks like there are none.
let's keep going, Dan
Day 59
It's been a tricky couple of weeks, I have had lots of anger come up sociopathic feelings even, issues to do with taking responsibility have been illuminating as yesterday I decided after an argument with parents to make a phone call to a guy who can hook me up with some practical work, I'm going over to his house to discuss tomorrow morning at 9AM, this guy is actually my counselor/mentor who just happens to be a DIY/hands on kind of person who's passionate about doing practical constructive jobs, I think he'd be a good influence for me and I am grateful that he's offered me this chance to work with him.
I've always known that I don't want to work in a 9-5 environment, I've had bad experiences in the past working under certain managers. But now I am making it happen, now I am deciding to get on with doing some work even if it is "Unofficial" in other words I don't need paper work and I won't receive a p45 if I quit.
My goals at the moment are to develop a better attitude towards work, routine and relationship with my parents (and family in general) one that is based on mutual respect with the end goal in mind that I gradually become more and more self sufficient and move into my own place, I want to be treated like an adult rather than a moody teenager with a bad attitude, but it's ME that has to change this attitude.
Some things I have noticed;
-Realizing that I am wrong and negative about many things in life (mainly due to attitude).
-Realizing that I am truly the only one who can change my circumstances, opportunities will present themselves but it's only I that can take them.
-Noticing and becoming more aware about how my actions, vibe, attention affects those around me and wanting to change that to create a better environment for myself and the people around me.
-Feeling fear, feeling frustration guilt even at times too.
-Fear of becoming a sociopath/narcissist or a freak.
In other news my Phero XS order arrived with the following;
-Ascend
-Cohesion
-Evolve
-Bliss sample
-Vibe sample
Will be testing mainly ascend + evolve at first.
If you fear becoming a sociopath, you flat out are not one. Expect turbulence,though - these subs can hurt.
(03-29-2016, 06:08 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: [ -> ]-Ascend
-Cohesion
-Evolve
-Bliss sample
-Vibe sample
Will be testing mainly ascend + evolve at first.
Whooooa -- dude, be sure you're congruent with ascend + evolve's vibe, especially when the latter "evolves" into the sexual. I couldn't pull it off and ended up freaking out my date. There was also a dude at the restaurant / bar that couldn't take his eyes off me and literally kept flicking his knife around.
Not trying to induce fear or anything, just a heads up.
as far as the pheromones are concerned, you should definitely figure out how each molecule works for you individually. for example, test ascend solo for the first week, using 1 drop/spray of ascend the first day, 2 the second day, 3 the third day, and then try it again for the next 3 days in a similar fashion. that way you will start to understand what dose will work with each mone
(04-14-2016, 02:20 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: [ -> ]So I have finally got my nice new speakers set up and sorted to play ultrasonics @ 22khz range
http://www.amazon.co.uk/M-Audio-BX5-D2-S...-audio+bx5
I've tested with freequensee and it spikes just under the 20k mark @ -60 DB is this ok I wonder?
-55 to -65 is pretty much what most people will want for where they are listening.
(04-14-2016, 03:13 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (04-14-2016, 02:20 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: [ -> ]So I have finally got my nice new speakers set up and sorted to play ultrasonics @ 22khz range
http://www.amazon.co.uk/M-Audio-BX5-D2-S...-audio+bx5
I've tested with freequensee and it spikes just under the 20k mark @ -60 DB is this ok I wonder?
-55 to -65 is pretty much what most people will want for where they are listening.
Okay nice, cheers.
I'm curious, on freequensee it peaks just under 20khz is this the limit of your subliminals' frequency? Or perhaps it's the limit of the Ipod?
(04-15-2016, 01:36 AM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: [ -> ] (04-14-2016, 03:13 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (04-14-2016, 02:20 PM)AlphaScorpio Wrote: [ -> ]So I have finally got my nice new speakers set up and sorted to play ultrasonics @ 22khz range
http://www.amazon.co.uk/M-Audio-BX5-D2-S...-audio+bx5
I've tested with freequensee and it spikes just under the 20k mark @ -60 DB is this ok I wonder?
-55 to -65 is pretty much what most people will want for where they are listening.
Okay nice, cheers.
I'm curious, on freequensee it peaks just under 20khz is this the limit of your subliminals' frequency? Or perhaps it's the limit of the Ipod?
In Frequensee, you should be seeing a peak at 17.5khz. As long as you have that, and the volume is set right, and it's silent and not making any scratchy staticky noises, you're cool.
Ipods can play up to 20,000khz, so that should be fine, it's got a bit of buffer.