Subliminal Talk

thanks guys,
your so right.
Letting em' fall where they may.

Personally, I would probably allow her to make the next move, after something like that. See what she does and how she reacts to you in the future. Her actions could have been a number of things, but that sounds like an easy way to get hurt.

Yea I agree. There are three main reasons why a girl would leave in that situation.

- she's not feeling it
- she wants to take it slower
- she has to be someplace and wants to do the right thing


If the reason is that she wants to take it slower or that she has to be somelace, the vast majority of decent women would tell you that. If she didn't tell you that, she either doesn't communicate well or it's the other reason.

Also, most decent women would contact you after that situation, if they were interested.

You like the bad girls. I'll take a girl next door over the tattood chick with the fake boobs any day of the week.

Tattoos and fake tits spell trouble for me.

(09-12-2012, 03:44 PM)HMoody Wrote: [ -> ]

(09-06-2012, 11:51 AM)RainbowAbyss Wrote: [ -> ]Journal--k-trains suggestion got me thinking about lm enhancing SM so I decided to go out to have some fun and give it a test whirl. My quick LM boost formula-20 minutes visualizing what I want-feel good about it-know LM will make it happen-let it go and forget about it-no matter what happens stay carefree I set my intention in the general sexual direction and went out to this hotel rooftop party-..long story short
I went home with two quite attractive girls...we picked up some beer and ended up drinking in my studio...it seemed like an inevitable threesome but what ended up happening was they each made moves on me whenever the other went to into another room...and they were clearly best friends who got along like a house on fire...it was really funny actually..anyway one of them was gradually winning me over and the other basically starting manufacturing drama...started thinking she might be pregnant from the guy she used to date or something...me and the other girl were just ripping on her about it but when she wouldn't shut up about it I kicked her out and said she could only come back if she bought a pregnancy test. When she left I had sex with the other girl. She came back a half hour later (I sent her to an inconveniently far pharmacy lol). When she came back we all cheered while she took the test and it was of course negative, since while she might have believed it herself it was obviously manufactured drama...The funniest part is after she found out she was not pregnant and the other girl, who I already had been with at this point, went to the bathroom, this girl straddles and starts grinding me and says it made her really horny to find out she's not pregnant. She was really hot as well and wearing a skirt so it took quite a lot of self control but I was not going to try to start something with her after I had been with the other girl. I kind of liked the idea of having been with both of them and each one thinking I was only with them but somehow it just seemed unethical, only if it was both at once. I was trying to find a good way to move it towards a menage a trois but they were definitely to close as friends..it could have gotten weird. Ridiculous but gotta love it lol.Anyway the whole thing was really fun and it was nice to get a shot of the wild side back. especially since this time I could have cared less about the whole thing so I felt really free to just enjoy it for what it was.


@K-Train That's is a great question to ask..and a really good way of looking at it. I think Alpha would certainly address what I need more but honestly the times of dipped into WM it made me more productive in all areas of my life-as much if not more so than Alpha, and I only grazed stage 1 and the new WM has EIP and gratitude hardwired into it. I'm gonna do some contemplating and journal about it later.
I think we might share some similarities with our family situation..although I think I'm older than you if your still in school..I'm 24...My family ties don't represent safety---I feel safer in free fall ...they represent a sense of familiarity that has kept me from feeling alienated in the past and now my ability to stay in the city and life I know-as I make more than enough to thrive living in a room I built from my dad's old studio-which my mom owns-but not enough to pay rent in any half decent place to live in NYC. With LM my income has been increasing quite fast so maybe soon I can find an equally dope place to live... I love my family and used to think there nuts and I was the only sane one, at least the only one who developed into someone sane,-now I see the depth of depravity quite ripe for personal and spiritual development lol. I like to see my life from both a helmsman and passenger perspective at times, I'm here to flourish in/ expand, and enjoy life as much as possible, and carry out whatever unique gifts I can contribute and co-create with the world and others, and achieve all my authentic desires, without the bs of should's and should not's, excluding harming others of course....to fully being living this way I see more and more that there are real lessons to be learned, embodied, and lived, new paradigms and energy to move into by working through whatever resonances I still have that keep me tied with the 'negative relationships' in my life. That may sound a little woo woo but I assure you the shifts and effects in my subjective experience and ability to achieve purpose, that come from reclaiming my power from this stuck spots is quite concrete. Also my changes have consistently seemed to change everyone else in the family for the better, its like there is some sort of connected effect that amplifies for the better the more differentiated I become. Sure they fall into their own re-activity and conditioning but the less I do, the more prone they are to snapping out of it,, in relationship to me AND surprisingly in their own business as well apparently. It seems there really is something to being the change you want to see in the world, even if it starts as small as not fighting with siblings lol.

Wow! Awesome Story Rainbow! Your posts are definitely inspiring and I can't wait till I have that level of success!

Same here man. Your stories are really great sources of inspiration for us Rainbow!

@Shannon-will do-thanks
@funkey monkey-totally agree-thank you

Been on ASC 5g for about 2 weeks here is what I have noticed
1. Naturalizer-is one hell of a naturalizer, I don't really feel all that different most of the time, but my behavior is more confident.
2. The set makes me extremely comfortable with whatever I do but it also highlights what feels off to me quite confidently as well, I care less about it, but its much more obvious to me
3. 5g leaves me mentally and physically with noticeably less energy than usual.
4. I feel on fire to take action and want to step up and run the show as often as possible, when I can't I want to leave or 'fight' it out, in a civil, logical, but intense way. I'm standing up for what I actually think much more and feeling its worth sharing.
5. I feel I'm more confident in some of my perhaps unwise or lazy decisions.
6. I'm much more confident in letting things go as well as going after them when I want to.

Just as an experiment I also listened to 1 hour of SM stage 6 after a 12 hour break from ASC, despite ASC I was feeling very out of vibe and out of rapport with myself around woman, I was not enjoying them, I wasn't following my desire or attraction, I wasn't being curious and there was this subtle sense of neediness that was back. So I ran the SM stage 6 set once through before I went out that night. It was ridiculous. It was like this switch of power was back on, that makes things work. The most notable thing was the joy and care and lack of neediness I felt when socializing, while still being comfotrable and shameless with my intentions. It was like a fun downhill ride. I felt more myself than I had in a long time, even when walking around alone. But experiments over so I'm finishing out ASC before running SM for a 2 week refresher. Then Overcome Fear and possibly another sub, and onto a much needed Alpha 5.0.

I ended up running ASC 5g for another few weeks.
And now am on extreme self esteem and luck magnifier.
ASC was really great, its amazing how natural it felt. I found
myself having the confidence to do all the things I was avoiding or wanted to do
and completely letting go of stuff that others wanted me to do that was not in service of my life.
Socializing became way easier and more fun when I was interested, but in general I became less interested.
Its like the more confident I become the more I would observe others actions were rooted in
really self doubting places, and it became harder to hang around those kind of people.
Extreme self esteem is surprisingly good sub, its 3g but it had me feeling really good about myself within a few days, and much more motivated.
This whole last month I have been feeling better and better about who I am yet feeling like nothing
in my life matters. I realized the hardest part of life, at least for me, is deciding what I want for my life, not getting it.
I am going to swap out Extreme self esteem for Overcome fear soon. But am considering running the new chronic useless pain sub for a while. I get really bad tension headaches, low back pain, and back of neck pain for no apparent reason. I believe its from when I hurt both my ankles really badly, those points on my body starting overcompensating. Its been causing a lot of internal distress this past month, and while I have come to quite comfortably live with it, lot of mediation and letting it be has helped, it would be cool to have it NOT be the norm again.
I'm getting really excited from subs again. Honestly I have not been getting as much out of subs as I would have liked lately, my own life circumstances have made me very resistant to change and I have been using subs to help with in the moment problems rather than the long term vision of who I want to be and how I want to be in this world. Lately it feels like the have been effecting me well but its not causing any difference in my life circumstances, although that is really secondary to the changing of myself. When I have had the most success, is when I REALLY wanted to do a sub and I made changes in my life with its help. That hasn't been the case lately, I've been coasting and in a bit of a dark night but feel I am really moving out of it now.
Its frustrating when life doesn't evolve for me as fast as I would like it to, but truly I have had the most ridiculous things happen with subs help. Just as fun story, I've been on Ryan's trend a little lately and wanting a way to get involved in a form of art in a big way, acting and music. This was while I was on LM btw. A day after I started feeling that the old studio, which is next door to me, got rented out by an extremely famous rock band drummer. I can't say who for disclosure reasons but I was just laughing at how ridiculous that is lol.
He keeps a really odd schedule like me, late night, and whenever I go through in the elevator, which connects to my house, we hang out and sometimes drink together. Just talking to him has been incredibly interesting and fun and made that whole big world seem like such not a big deal.

"Its like the more confident I become the more I would
observe others actions were rooted in
really self doubting places, and it became harder to
hang around those kind of people."

Wow thats exactly how I feel at times. It really frustrates me. I really try not to think that way though. Just because when I do feel unconfident i feel like a hypocrite.

Introduce him to subs, Rainbow.

I'd like to have a drum battle with this guy lol

@alec-agreed-the less I feel I need approval from others, and the more I act from certainty and don't look for others permission the less hypocritical I feel in my down times...I wish I could be more empathetic as well , but I have my hands full handling my own volatility, my compassion is in guidance when asked for or making full awesome, I suck at emotionally relating to people's 'negative emotions'/down times/...although holding a compassionate space for that is something the world could use more of...there are people really good at it..who love doing it..but I am not one of them..I can relate..it sucks..and what can we do to move on..is more my attitude.
@Shannon...Strong consideration towards that
@Spiral lol
I think I'm gonna have to use chronic pain releif..as today at the gym, my back got really bad...I'm getting shooting spasms of pain in my low back/cocyx area, and can barely walk or sit down...
@Shannon-will the chronic pain sub work for a pinch nerve or injury like this..?

Rainbow, if you had ankle injuries that have caused problems further up your kinetic chain, try buying a lacrosse ball, and using that to work out the tough spots in your calves and the front of your lower leg.

Also check out www.mobilitywod.com: there is some great stuff for fixing your body.

many thanks Sean,
that is an awesome idea

ok, I went ahead and started the chronic pain sub because I literally couldn't move with out shooting into unbearable pain-8 minutes later-I can walk..and the hurt area feels very weak..but I can stand up and move around at least without pain...placebo power of my gullible mind..or ridiculously powerful sub