Subliminal Talk

Purchased Stage 0 the day it was released and began running it that night.  Decided to use the instructions for people who need it as there were multiple points from the list on the sales page that fit me very well.  Even though I have a very good job that pays very, very well, and I'm about to hit 40 I still can admit that I have a lot of work to get to where I want to be.

Days 1-4

- As with PRA, the first three days of running Stage 0, it hit me like a truck, which I take as something is being worked on in the background. 
- One noticeable thing that's been happening lately is my lack of interest in women.  Friends have been pushing me to open up more, but the motivation just isn't there.  I think this is something that's already being worked on by Stage 0.
- While running PRA, I lost 20 pounds and got my diet in order and was very strict about working out and improving my diet.  This started to go away as I took a break from PRA in anticipation of Stage 0 coming out.  From the first night of running Stage 0, the feeling of wanting to eat better and lose the last 15-20 pounds I want to lose really hit me. 
- On Days 3 and 4, the motivation to just get sh*t done hit me, as I cleaned my entire house which I've been putting off for a while.  I got sick and tired of looking at the mess sitting around and decided it needed to change. 
- The most noticeable thing that I've noticed in the short time that I've run Stage 0, is that I've been dreaming a LOT more at night and can vividly remember dreams each and every night.  This didn't happen at all during E7 or PRA, and I've never really been someone to vividly remember dreams that happen.  So for me to be dreaming this much and being able to remember dreams for multiple nights in a row says just how strong this program already is.

That's what I have for now.  I'll update more as things progress.

Yep, the procrastination killer is on point in this program. No time wasted. Also my sleep quality is improved.

Today is the second of the two off days, and I can tell there's a lot of work that will need to be done still over the next four months.

One thing that I've always had an issue with is opening up to people that I don't know. Was out with a group of friends last night and just shut down since there were so many people that I didn't know.

The other thing is that I'm still battling my inner voices, mainly with getting irritable over things that don't even exist. I get irritated about things that I just make up in my head that usually get resolved as soon as I talk to people the next day.

Sleep quality has improved quite a bit over the last few days, but today I felt the sense of exhaustion yet again, which I take as something being worked on in the background.

Not much else to report now. Can't wait to get back to the On days starting tomorrow.

Sleep quality improving while remaining exhausted is a sign that you have internal resistance being worked through, and it's taking a lot of energy.

Overcoming social anxiety takes time. It helps to go to places repeatedly and get to know the regulars, in my experience.

For most of this week I couldn't really tell if something was happening since I've been sick and had to leave work early two days in a row since I had almost no energy and couldn't make it through the day. Tonight will be the last night of listening days before two more days off.

However, this afternoon I had a little bit of an "AHA" moment. I've always been someone that's had just a small circle of friends and have always been the type to really do things on my own most of the time. At the beginning of the week I was very irritable again over nothing, mainly directed to two friends of mine at work who are always trying to get me to go out. It irritated me at first since it disrupted the status quo of me doing my own thing and getting my alone time, but earlier today something just clicked in my head. Something woke up in my mind telling me these are friends that are trying to get me to change how I live my life and get me out of my shell more, and I really need to take advantage of that rather than get annoyed I should embrace that.

That's really it for this week so far especially since I've been sick most of it. Still dreaming a lot, though, which to me is a good sign things are progressing.