Subliminal Talk

Over the last few days I could feel myself falling back into some old bad habits. Nothing bad, but things that I do that just keep me in my comfort zone. Had another realization that I need to get over these habits if I really want to grow and become who I really want to be and should be at this point in my life.

Yesterday I could feel the healing fear removal working on something. I've never had an issue with women, but when I do come across and interact with women that I'm really attracted to, I still freeze up and become unsure of myself. This happened yesterday and it was almost as if my entire mindset changed as soon as I got to the venue where this girl works. During the day at work I was feeling great and my mind was crystal clear, but when I went out after work it's almost like i could feel myself freeze up a little and then I could feel the program kicking in. My mind got real heavy and I just became real tired real quick. That was the second of my two off days for that cycle.

Stage 0 is quickly becoming one of those programs where I'm really craving the input and get excited about getting back to the listening days so it can get to work on what needs to be worked on before the main stages arrive.

@Bayern2 yeah I'm also enjoying the Stage 0 loops.

Something is really being worked on cause the last two nights I've gotten a little over 10 hours of sleep each night, which is extremely rare for me. Before starting the healing process with E7 and PRA, I was sleeping between 5.5 - 6 hours a night, so for me to need 10 hours of sleep to process what this program is doing means something is getting worked on.

And it really helped. After I woke up this morning I felt great and my head just felt light as if nothing in the world could bother me. Procrastination was hitting again before the last few nights where I got all the sleep so maybe it was my inner self trying to resist whatever change is being made.

Coming up on the end of the first month of Stage 0 in a few days, and all i can say is going the 4 month route was a good call, there's a lot more work that needs to be done but I'm liking what's happening. I still feel that the real me is being buried away under a bunch of bullsh** that needs to be cleared away. I want to be more expressive and show more charisma, but there's still some hesitation to do that. I don't know if I can describe it as feeling like a zombie sometimes, but there's parts of me that is waiting to be unleashed.