Subliminal Talk

Alright, it’s now been a year on 6G subs. I did 6 months on OSC, 4 months on E7, and 2 months on PRAv1, in addition to many other programs before 6G. It wasn’t until 6G that it felt like they were able to help me actually break through issues, instead of just trigger the issue without any kind of resolution. The first 10 months of 6G were hell. I was right up close and personal with all kinds of negative beliefs about myself. In those moments, those things felt true and unsolvable. Things like “I’m a piece of shit” or “I hate myself” “I’m a weird person,” etc. I had a huge breakthrough near the end of my E7 run with the help of some breath work and body work therapy that has made a lasting and significant change for the better.

As far as AM7, I’m definitely a stage 0 needer lol.

My living situation needs an upgrade. 

My work/income source needs an upgrade aka starting my own business which I have been putting off for a long time but have started to take some small steps in that direction in the last couple months.

I consciously reject the feminist stuff but I know there’s some social programming I have taken on at some point. One of the beliefs is not that women don’t want attention/sex etc, it’s that they don’t want that specifically from me, and any evidence to the contrary that I have ever had has only been true in those specific instances and hasn’t changed the overall belief (ie. “ ok that woman wanted me in that situation but still, no other women want me”) Also there’s beliefs that I can only make any kind of move once I already know they’re interested, and it takes a level of explicitness in that interest from them for me to realize they’re interested and then things can happen. At various times I have thought I was maybe on the spectrum, but I think it’s more just fear and blockages and lack of social skills. And fear of women is tied in there as well. Some of it is general social anxiety and I have been a shut in at worse times in the past. The anxiety is magnified with women and the more attractive she is or closer to potential relationship material the more the anxiety.

I do hide from a lot of adult responsibility and have issues with permission seeking. There are definitely traumas, some of which I know what they are, that have prevented me from stepping into my full adulthood and masculinity. I have worked through some of them partially over the years, but it’s time to get through the rest.

I have so far run stage 0 for 3 nights at bedtime. I can feel it working on the blocked areas in my energy body and moving things more so than on any sub so far. Some of that is that the channels, so to speak, are more open now than in the past due to all of the work I’ve done, but this also feels more direct and impactful in my body than even PRA felt when using that up until a week ago.

I’m travelling right now. Yesterday I found myself wishing I could connect with people and meet new people without the anxiety and the constraints I’ve put on myself.

I’m looking forward the the months ahead with this program. I’m know that I’m moving on to much better things.

I got a haircut today. In the past I had nothing really to say and unless they asked me a question it would be awkward silence the whole time. Today the guy I went to and me got along really well and we had a really great conversation about all kinds of common interests. I don’t have a lot of great conversations. I think I was much more open than usual and my presence invited him to be more open as well, as he shared some really deep meaningful things that he was almost embarrassed for a minute after he said them and almost apologized but I said no it’s good and we carried on. He even commented after that he really enjoyed the conversation. And I felt really good afterwards, including happy bodily sensations and heart opening, for having connected with someone in a way I used to be too closed off to do unless I already knew the person well.

Welcome to the train fam, I can relate about your experience with your barber, because people around me somehow treat me way more polite than usual and they like somehow got this kind of respect when I'm talking. Good luck.

(02-20-2026, 07:29 PM)Qiel Wrote: [ -> ]Welcome to the train fam, I can relate about your experience with your barber, because people around me somehow treat me way more polite than usual and they like somehow got this kind of respect when I'm talking. Good luck.

Thanks man! Good luck too with your run. This is gonna be an epic journey!

Started a weekend healing training retreat with the same group I was at when I had the big breakthrough a couple months ago. Before it started, I sat in the sun for 20 minutes and this was the first chance I’ve had to be in sunshine with any warmth to it since last fall. It felt so good and while I was trying to absorb the light and warmth from the sun I felt like it was charging me up and opening my heart. The happy positive feelings carried on into the first evening of the event. One of the participants, an older woman, told me that I seem taller and bigger like I’m taking up more space than last time and I seem more masculine. In the past she has told me I have great hair and that I’m a handsome man. She’s much older than me and she wasn’t saying those things to come on to me or anything, but she’s someone who is very honest and blunt and gets masculine/feminine dynamics so I’m glad to get the feedback from her.

Oh yeah and I had a multi hour drive today to get to this retreat and I listened to music most of the way. I haven’t listened to much music in quite a while other than a song here and there. It was like I just couldn’t be bothered. Today it felt great listening to it and I was singing along out loud in my car which I never do. I was really getting into the music and feeling emotions and energy movements. I think that contributed to the heart opening feeling this evening.

(02-20-2026, 10:19 PM)Just Saiyan Wrote: [ -> ]Oh yeah and I had a multi hour drive today to get to this retreat and I listened to music most of the way. I haven’t listened to much music in quite a while other than a song here and there. It was like I just couldn’t be bothered. Today it felt great listening to it and I was singing along out loud in my car which I never do. I was really getting into the music and feeling emotions and energy movements. I think that contributed to the heart opening feeling this evening.

Wow,Man!! Great progress!! Rock n' Roll Just Saiyan!!

Excited to hear more! Keep it coming!

(02-20-2026, 10:19 PM)Just Saiyan Wrote: [ -> ]Oh yeah and I had a multi hour drive today to get to this retreat and I listened to music most of the way. I haven’t listened to much music in quite a while other than a song here and there. It was like I just couldn’t be bothered. Today it felt great listening to it and I was singing along out loud in my car which I never do. I was really getting into the music and feeling emotions and energy movements. I think that contributed to the heart opening feeling this evening.

I've had the same experience with music and forgot to report on it. Wow!

(02-21-2026, 06:05 AM)NOMAD Wrote: [ -> ]I've had the same experience with music and forgot to report on it. Wow!

Very cool. Must be something to it!

Today I was talking to the same woman and she reiterated that I look like I’m taking up more space, aka not being small and hiding myself. She asked me if I think I am handsome and I said I don’t think I’m ugly but I guess I’m average looking. She said no you’re not average, you’re a handsome masculine man. She said she’s a connoisseur of handsome men so trust her, I am one. Haha. I believe she sees me that way but I don’t yet feel that way about myself.

Overall I felt really good today on my first off day of the program. Heart opening and energy movements that were helped by the work I’m doing at this retreat. I had a moment of feeling my energy drop into my genitals and the muscles in my pelvic floor relax. Seems significant.

I am able to be more of myself while feeling less self-conscious than usual. I even said something that made the whole group laugh.

And how long did this take to accomplish again?

(02-22-2026, 02:04 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]And how long did this take to accomplish again?

I’ve done one full cycle of stage 0. Already I have feedback that I seem more masculine. But that is after a mostly awful year of running 6G subs until a breakthrough a couple months ago that has made things easier. Stage 0 feels much smoother and more effective at getting me through my issues in the first week than PRA did for the 2 month run. 

Today I did some exercises at the retreat for opening up the body and breath. It feels like now I’m through the really painful stuck blocks and I’m in a process of stretching and opening and discovering my body and how it works without the constriction I’ve lived with my whole life.

I highly encourage anyone to take time to breathe deeply and move your body any way it wants to move. Stretch, shake, jump, hum, shout, whatever needs to come out. That has been very helpful for me in getting energy and emotion to move.

That, my friend, is the ass kicking. It moves you forward at a good pace and doesn't care what you would do otherwise. Nice to see it works without needing to resort to brutality.