Subliminal Talk

Feels like there's some serious FRM action going on right now (it feels like the DMSI 5.1 FRM), and I'm being all like *oooof*, but otherwise feeling pretty fine. Got some good singing practice in this morning!

So FRM and H&C is doing its thing, and during nappy time I had a dream - which, actually, wasn't all that disturbing, all things considered - but I still did wake up with a start from it. Hadn't had one quite like this in quite some time. Interesting.

Otherwise, I think I'm making really good progress. Certain individuals are - from time to time - bombarding me with "fake concern", some of which is so disgusting it's frickin' hilarious, in a way, hahaha.

Now I'm experiencing something like energy-flooding of light, healing energy, with the exception of mayhap this bit of what I call "the core trauma" which still feels a bit low, but we're gonna get there surely.

The additional loops of DRS v2 were, it would seem, an unfortunate necessity. Oh well. Frankly? I could go for some Black Hole Shield action TBH, but I don't want to mix 6G with 5.XG, so I'll wait for the 6G version.

Ohh, let's have song about some of the above. Motorhead - I don't believe a word \m/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d0ZuRK7Vg1U

Nappy time brought about some more very interesting dreams, but wonky sensations would indicate there are still attempts at cording/projection going on, but they did feel a bit different (less coordinated maybe?) Anyhow, feeling pretty good, gonna get some singing practice in and then go to a metalz \m/ gig.

Vaknin?

Don't ever use PTSD rec aid with any sort of shied other than perhaps grounding or transmutative, especially DRS v2, because otherwise you're going to end up in a feedback loop that's impossible to break through, if ever. This definitely applies to my case, and quite possibly for everyone else.

Sorry for the wierd posts, I had to go to the hospital for medication adjustment (the comboI had apparently madethings worse overtime, it happens). It's fine to use PTA with any shield. I was worried I'd seriously hurt people inportant to me with this combination (had not yet happened AFAIA). Hopefully this won't get me permamently banned from thevstore!

So now I'll be running plain PTRA, without DRS v2, for a month at least, because I'm quite possibly in the safest place in the city for me right now (no joke) and I'll be getting gradually better. Unfortunately I had to switch to masked on bluetooth earbuds, which is a bummer, but I'll make do temporarily. All the best throught the holiday season! And enjoy the Christmas special, haha, I'll be buying it once I'm outta here.

Nice, glad that you'll be able to put more energy to healing now that you're in a safer place.

Thanks! I'm feeling better day after day. I think the main problem when your CPTSD has its roots in pathological family relations (nothwisdanding workplace mobbing) is that it's difficult to remove its negative effects while the bond is still firmly in place and you have regular contact with these people.

Things are going pretty well, all things considered. Still using DRS v2 despite previous misgivings and I'm glad for it (but now the prescribed 2 loops, I don't feel as much need for boosting).

The docs have been hinting that I received a misdiagnosis in that previous institution, we'll see once I'm done switching out meds under their supervision amd they tell me what's what. It's also easier for me to not smoke as much, which is a definite plus.

All the best in the upcoming year to everyone!

Together with my bro we finally managed to start getting people to believe our side of the story, so to speak, which was a must to break free from negative influences of certain individuals. I should be going back home soon as well, and then I'll be able to continue PTRAing using my phone's speaker. Good stuff!

How's it making you feel so far?