Run 2
Stage 4
Cycle 1 of 4
Nothing significant to note.
(01-08-2026, 04:13 AM)ReconGunner Wrote: [ -> ]Run 2
Stage 3
Cycle 7 of 8
Still quiet.
As I mentioned in @Shannon's thread here, there seems to be something going on in the external environment that's affecting many of us who journal here. I had a brief conversation with an unrelated group of folks last night, and many of them are feeling something similar in their own lives. Like a storm that is about to break, one that will cleanse and refresh.
Until then, onward to UMS.
Just this morning I encountered more online content talking about major, even foundational, changes in the external environment, the kind of changes that take time to express their effects, and that this may have started back in the fall. This is consistent with other observations and reports here and elsewhere. And everything I have been reading says one thing consistently - "It's about to break", like a storm. Wisely, no one is claiming precise timing, but the sense of things is "immanent."
My sense of this, relative to UMS and possibly other titles, is that external effects are being hampered by whatever is pending; and that when it breaks, the obstructions will fall away.
Run 2
Stage 4
Cycle 2 of 4
Continuing quiet. Some conscious thoughts about UMS-related matters; nothing new or significant.
(01-20-2026, 06:57 AM)ReconGunner Wrote: [ -> ] (01-08-2026, 04:13 AM)ReconGunner Wrote: [ -> ]Run 2
Stage 3
Cycle 7 of 8
Still quiet.
As I mentioned in @Shannon's thread here, there seems to be something going on in the external environment that's affecting many of us who journal here. I had a brief conversation with an unrelated group of folks last night, and many of them are feeling something similar in their own lives. Like a storm that is about to break, one that will cleanse and refresh.
Until then, onward to UMS.
Just this morning I encountered more online content talking about major, even foundational, changes in the external environment, the kind of changes that take time to express their effects, and that this may have started back in the fall. This is consistent with other observations and reports here and elsewhere. And everything I have been reading says one thing consistently - "It's about to break", like a storm. Wisely, no one is claiming precise timing, but the sense of things is "immanent."
My sense of this, relative to UMS and possibly other titles, is that external effects are being hampered by whatever is pending; and that when it breaks, the obstructions will fall away.
I think you will find that currently we are in a cycle of increasing friction and resistance to change, an effort to keep the status quo, and resist progress with stagnation. This effort is quite futile, however, as major change is coming. You're going to see things start breaking up and making progress and change in the next 3-4 months, and beyond. How this plays out financially will be different for everybody, but right now we're at a point of forcibly breaking through stagnation and resistance to the change that is coming at us like a tidal wave. What we're seeing is the last gasp of what has been the cause of much of the chaos in the world for at least the last 7 years, financially and otherwise. Thank goodness... I saw this coming in 2014, and have been dreading going through all this BS..
(01-29-2026, 01:29 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (01-20-2026, 06:57 AM)ReconGunner Wrote: [ -> ]Just this morning I encountered more online content talking about major, even foundational, changes in the external environment, the kind of changes that take time to express their effects, and that this may have started back in the fall. This is consistent with other observations and reports here and elsewhere. And everything I have been reading says one thing consistently - "It's about to break", like a storm. Wisely, no one is claiming precise timing, but the sense of things is "immanent."
My sense of this, relative to UMS and possibly other titles, is that external effects are being hampered by whatever is pending; and that when it breaks, the obstructions will fall away.
I think you will find that currently we are in a cycle of increasing friction and resistance to change, an effort to keep the status quo, and resist progress with stagnation. This effort is quite futile, however, as major change is coming. You're going to see things start breaking up and making progress and change in the next 3-4 months, and beyond. How this plays out financially will be different for everybody, but right now we're at a point of forcibly breaking through stagnation and resistance to the change that is coming at us like a tidal wave. What we're seeing is the last gasp of what has been the cause of much of the chaos in the world for at least the last 7 years, financially and otherwise. Thank goodness... I saw this coming in 2014, and have been dreading going through all this BS..
Thanks for the confirmation! I'm a bit late to the game when it comes to this kind of understanding, and I'm still feeling my way through it all.
In my meanderings across the wilds of the Internet, I happened upon this quote:
George Eliot Wrote:It is never too late to be what you might have been.
That is, it is never too late to pursue and achieve your potential. I needed this, as one of my struggles has been "at this point in my life, can I reach what I haven't? Should I even try?" And the answer to both of those questions is simply "Yes".
(01-29-2026, 06:33 AM)ReconGunner Wrote: [ -> ]In my meanderings across the wilds of the Internet, I happened upon this quote:
George Eliot Wrote:It is never too late to be what you might have been.
That is, it is never too late to pursue and achieve your potential. I needed this, as one of my struggles has been "at this point in my life, can I reach what I haven't? Should I even try?" And the answer to both of those questions is simply "Yes".
Good for you and I Mean it too, coz Im going through thee same kinds of things Man. Im 67, SO hell yeah its worth it and worth the investment. the journey continues.
(01-29-2026, 06:33 AM)ReconGunner Wrote: [ -> ]In my meanderings across the wilds of the Internet, I happened upon this quote:
George Eliot Wrote:It is never too late to be what you might have been.
That is, it is never too late to pursue and achieve your potential. I needed this, as one of my struggles has been "at this point in my life, can I reach what I haven't? Should I even try?" And the answer to both of those questions is simply "Yes".
Had the same kind of thinking going on PTRA, feeling despondent about all my wasted potential, and I'm younger than ncbeareatingman.
Great quote for that.
(01-29-2026, 12:07 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ] (01-29-2026, 06:33 AM)ReconGunner Wrote: [ -> ]In my meanderings across the wilds of the Internet, I happened upon this quote:
That is, it is never too late to pursue and achieve your potential. I needed this, as one of my struggles has been "at this point in my life, can I reach what I haven't? Should I even try?" And the answer to both of those questions is simply "Yes".
Good for you and I Mean it too, coz Im going through thee same kinds of things Man. Im 67, SO hell yeah its worth it and worth the investment. the journey continues.
(01-29-2026, 12:09 PM)Have at ye Wrote: [ -> ] (01-29-2026, 06:33 AM)ReconGunner Wrote: [ -> ]In my meanderings across the wilds of the Internet, I happened upon this quote:
That is, it is never too late to pursue and achieve your potential. I needed this, as one of my struggles has been "at this point in my life, can I reach what I haven't? Should I even try?" And the answer to both of those questions is simply "Yes".
Had the same kind of thinking going on PTRA, feeling despondent about all my wasted potential, and I'm younger than ncbeareatingman.
Great quote for that.
Thanks! I'm glad this inspired others as well.
Run 2
Stage 4
Cycle 3 of 4
Rough day yesterday, specifically. A topic came up that often hits a pain point for me, and this time it hit me hard.
The topic is "gifts and giftedness", and the idea of people being allowed/invited to work in the areas where they are gifted, in their strengths, etc. My experiences there have always been that I have been denied such opportunities, even and especially when I stepped up to do so. As a result, whenever that topic comes up I hear an implied "except for you, Recon", whether I can tell that such was intended or not.
Not sure how to handle this. It's a blocker for UMS, to be sure; whether I'm blocking myself or whether that's been a persistent external blocker my entire life is the unanswered question. My guess is a vicious cycle of both. I need to break that cycle. I can continue to heal and diminish the self-blocking; I do not see any way to overcome external blocking except by UMS manifesting its external goals.
Almost done with this run. One week, then the break. Barring anything unforeseen, I will continue running UMS as instructed for two more full runs, or until I see substantial progress towards UMS - whichever comes first.
Run 2
Stage 4
Cycle 4 of 4
End of cycle. End of run.
Over the last couple of days my intuition has gotten sharper - that's the only way I can explain it. There have been a couple of things not directly related to UMS that have hit me as "this is strongly possible". It has been in the form of flashes of insight that came up unbidden but solidly related to my life. I've had insights like that happen, several years ago, but nothing recently until now.
Four weeks of rest, then on to Cycle 3. Looking forward to external events breaking loose and reaching UMS!
Something seems to be shaking loose; internally at least.
Things I enjoy doing that are otherwise non-productive are less enjoyable. It doesn't feel like depression, though. It feels like I'm in the middle of a shift in interests - setting those things aside to free up energy and focus for other things, but those other things are still unknown. I have a couple of potentially productive tasks on my to-do list, but I still feel internally blocked from starting them, as if it's not the right time or those will not be productive enough anymore. Strange.
And my intuition continues to fire - yet another "this is strongly possible". Still unrelated to UMS.
Break Week 1+
I've been sleeping a lot deeper. Had an otherwise unexplained acid reflux incident a few nights ago. I slept afterwards, but did not get good rest. I was wiped out for most of the next day.
As I've commented elsewhere, I'm unmotivated towards anything professional. I dislike my current job, but it pays the bills and not much else. I have some strategies for finding something else, but I'm not motivated to take action.
I'm considering whether or not I should start my next run of UMS by using Hybrid to break through any hard resistance. Then again, lack of motivation is a sign that deep work is being done, so maybe not so much hard resistance as "last ditch" resistance.
Either way, I'll run UMS up to four runs in a row, or until running UMS bears sufficient results.
Break Week 2
Still sleeping deeply but waking up fatigued. The fatigue is slowly decreasing, a little bit each day. And my motivation is slowly returning; also a little bit at a time.
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Shannon has mentioned that both lack of motivation and fatigue after deep sleep are signs of internal resistance being worked through. Since I'm seeing an improvement in both, I'm hopeful that the internal resistance is being overcome, and that in another two weeks, when this break is over, the third run of UMS will explode into financially productive outcomes.