So, I didn't get called in to interview for the job opportunity I mentioned. I'm not going to "sour grapes" this one - it would have been a good career move for me. And I told no one about it except to journal it here.
Based on this, I'm going to stop journaling possibilities and opportunities. No offense to any who read this journal, but broadcasting unrealized potentials may be counterproductive. So I'm going to keep those to myself. I will journal things that do happen, of course, as well as anything else that seems to be related to UMS. But I'm not going to risk the chance of sabotaging myself.
Hard lesson learned.
(10-27-2025, 01:06 PM)ReconGunner Wrote: [ -> ]So, I didn't get called in to interview for the job opportunity I mentioned. I'm not going to "sour grapes" this one - it would have been a good career move for me. And I told no one about it except to journal it here.
Based on this, I'm going to stop journaling possibilities and opportunities. No offense to any who read this journal, but broadcasting unrealized potentials may be counterproductive. So I'm going to keep those to myself. I will journal things that do happen, of course, as well as anything else that seems to be related to UMS. But I'm not going to risk the chance of sabotaging myself.
Hard lesson learned.
Good Move !! Mum's the word !!
(10-27-2025, 01:21 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ] (10-27-2025, 01:06 PM)ReconGunner Wrote: [ -> ]So, I didn't get called in to interview for the job opportunity I mentioned. I'm not going to "sour grapes" this one - it would have been a good career move for me. And I told no one about it except to journal it here.
Based on this, I'm going to stop journaling possibilities and opportunities. No offense to any who read this journal, but broadcasting unrealized potentials may be counterproductive. So I'm going to keep those to myself. I will journal things that do happen, of course, as well as anything else that seems to be related to UMS. But I'm not going to risk the chance of sabotaging myself.
Hard lesson learned.
Good Move !! Mum's the word !!
My friend wanted to be a Lawyer so badly that he could taste it. Smart guy, straight "A's," but he couldn't comprehend the intricacies of his "Juris Doctor".
This is the graduate-entry professional degree in law, typically completed in three years after a bachelor's degree.
He told me this when I asked him, "Why are you a Librarian?"
Him: I really didn't give an f*** if I got the job.
(he let go of the outcome)
Sooner than later, much sooner. When you let go of the outcome, something better will drop into your lap, and you'll be thankful that you didn't make this "career move".
(10-27-2025, 01:52 PM)4Kingdoms Wrote: [ -> ] (10-27-2025, 01:21 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ]Good Move !! Mum's the word !!
My friend wanted to be a Lawyer so badly that he could taste it. Smart guy, straight "A's," but he couldn't comprehend the intricacies of his "Juris Doctor". This is the graduate-entry professional degree in law, typically completed in three years after a bachelor's degree.
He told me this when I asked him, "Why are you a Librarian?"
Him: I really didn't give an f*** if I got the job. (he let go of the outcome)
Sooner than later, much sooner. When you let go of the outcome, something better will drop into your lap, and you'll be thankful that you didn't make this "career move".
Thanks both!
This is part of my letting go - taking a lesson learned, applying it, and moving on. I'm not even thinking about "something better". When it comes, it comes.
Run 2
Stage 1
Cycle 3 of 4
One week left, then Stage 2. Nothing more to mention from this cycle.
Run 2
Stage 1
Cycle 4 of 4
A little rough this week. I was more irritable than usual early in the week and flew off the handle a couple of times. Throughout the week had old memories pop up - some I hadn't remembered in years if ever. But instead of causing any emotional distress, they simply passed - even those that came up more than once.
Stage 2 starts tonight. I'll journal at the halfway point and at the end of each cycle, to help me keep the cycle in sync.
Run 2
Stage 2
Cycle 1 of 4 - Mid-cycle (edited to correct the cycle count)
More old, previously forgotten memories popping up sporadically. Same reaction - they pass without causing distress.
Best guess is that UMS is hitting deeper stuff that's been holding me back, and 6G is so smooth that all that results is bits and pieces of the past floating up to conscious notice.
A quick update.
Today I passed the professional certification exam that I have been studying for, with points to spare. No employer guarantees of any new opportunities, but I'm now better equipped professionally to seek out other opportunities on my own.
Further update. Some thoughts that passed through my mind while I have been decompressing from the stress of preparing for that professional exam - stress I didn't realize I was carrying.
Nostalgia isn't just remembering; it's reliving. It's re-experiencing the original events at a remove, as memory recalls the events. Listening to music always brings back memories associated with the music. Sometimes, a specific song will bring back a specific memory. Other times, the song brings back general memories of a period in my life. And it's always been nostalgia, strong enough that the reliving was often painful.
Since I first ran E5, and through most of the subliminals I have run since*, that pain has been less and less over time. Some memories that were always painful have become all but painless. Other memories that would trigger discomfort now have no effect at all.
I have always struggled with integrating my past with my present self. A big part of my life has been an ongoing attempt to leave my past behind to forge a better future. I've realized that leaving my past behind would mean leaving my *self* behind; who would I be in that case? That integration of my past self into who I am today is critical. Not just in the sense of "where I've been has made me who I am", but also "who I was is who has become who I am". I have to be at peace with all selves, past, present, and even the unknown future selves. Not in the sense of approving, but in the sense of "past selves are who they were, present self is who I am, future selves are who I choose to become". Noting, of course, that any future self I choose to become will face obstacles, and as I gain wisdom I will change that choice.
What does this specifically have to do with UMS? Everything. UMS is part of who I choose to become. Money will not define me; money will equip me to be and to do.
There will be those who see who I become, and they will marvel at what they consider unbelievable. They will suffer no harm, save to their own pride and ego; that only if they choose to hold on to their prejudices toward me.
*OPH v2 was probably the single exception
Lots happening, it appears.
I had a very odd dream last night. I was in a completely different environment and situation, one that did not resemble anything I have experienced. And I was being "cyber attacked" by someone who was manipulating real-world authorities against me. I distinctly remember someone else acknowledging what I was experiencing and saying 'That matches his known behavior. He does that at random; no one knows how or why he picks a target." I woke up a little unnerved al the same. After I went back to sleep, I had dreams about that dream - same tone, less vivid and detailed.
Related to the work UMS is doing? Very likely. What does it specifically mean? Not a clue.
Run 2
Stage 2
Cycle 1 of 4 (edited to correct the cycle count)
Wow. What a week! Gotta plow the field to plant the seed...
And it's not stopping.
While dreaming - nothing that I remember about the dreams themselves - I "heard" a sound that resembled the sound my alarm clock makes just before the alarm itself sounds, only the sound was a bit more metallic, like a lever being moved firmly. This happened at the end of one dream and the start of the next. I also took note of it while sleeping, perhaps awake just enough to notice it. And it happened a second time, a bit muted in "volume".
Some kind of shift, maybe, signified by the "lever sound".
Run 2
Stage 2
Cycle 2 of 4 - Mid-cycle
The last couple of days have been relatively quiet compared to the previous.
I noticed that I was miscounting the cycles. Edited the prior posts to correct the count and noted the reason.
Heading out of town next week. Of course my phone, and UMS, will be travelling with me.
Run 2
Stage 2
Cycle 2 of 4
Keeping track of where I am in this run. Lots to journal, but on my phone at current.