(04-30-2023, 10:53 AM)Johannesbrst Wrote: [ -> ] (04-30-2023, 09:03 AM)NOMAD Wrote: [ -> ]Day 49
Over the past week, I really haven't been able to detect what Maverick is doing. But after doing some reflection, I can see some effects sprinkled here and there.
I had a client indicate to one of his colleagues that they are fortunate that I'm involved with the current undertaking. He also thanked me for my role in another undertaking. I sensed that I had been building rapport with him. He's tough, but his mannerisms have changed in recent weeks. He verbally confirmed what I had already picked up on. I'm also seeing more respect in my dealings with others.
One thing that really hit me last night is my growing indifference. I was at a public event. I walked into the main room, looking for my seat. I heard a woman say, "Hey Nomad." I turned around and was greeted by a woman I know. After giving her a hug, she introduced me to her friend. I was polite, but I didn't want to talk to them. I just wanted to find my seat. In fact, I hadn't even noticed her because I didn't give a shit enough to look around and identify people I know. I was content to be alone in my own company. Once I was seated, my wife joined me and began talking. But again, I didn't want to talk. I just wanted to sit silently. Then my brother-in-law joined. Same thing. My point here, is that I didn't care what anybody had to say. I didn't want to listen and I didn't want to talk. During the entire event, I found myself annoyed by how people seem to need to constantly jabber. For some I observed, it seems to be meaningless conversation meant to fill the silence. For others, it seems that they feel like they've got something profound to say and that they absolutely need to share it with someone. Either way, they wouldn't shut the fuck up.
I beginning to see how Maverick could strain relationships. For me, it's beginning to weed out some of the things that I consider meaningless bullshit. If I've got a finite amount of time and energy to focus on something, that something needs to be worth the finite amount of time and energy that I have.
This made me think of Hank Reardon in Atlas Shrugged.
I don't know anything about Atlas Shrugged. I might (or might not) read it one of these days.
(04-30-2023, 03:02 PM)NOMAD Wrote: [ -> ] (04-30-2023, 10:53 AM)Johannesbrst Wrote: [ -> ]This made me think of Hank Reardon in Atlas Shrugged.
I don't know anything about Atlas Shrugged. I might (or might not) read it one of these days.
I did read The fountainhead from the same author and I did like it a lot... Ayn Rand is a very good author!
(04-30-2023, 06:09 PM)lano1106 Wrote: [ -> ] (04-30-2023, 03:02 PM)NOMAD Wrote: [ -> ]I don't know anything about Atlas Shrugged. I might (or might not) read it one of these days.
I did read The fountainhead from the same author and I did like it a lot... Ayn Rand is a very good author!
I have no doubt that I'd enjoy her writing. My issue is where I want/choose to focus my time and energy. Entertaining myself with a large fictional work isn't something I'm interested in at the moment.
I haven't read any fictional work since Dune. And yes, I realize that these fictional works represent something much deeper than the surface fiction, but again, it's a matter of how I choose to spend my time and energy.
Day 50
Today was one of the least stressful days I've had in a while. That doesn't mean that everything went well. It didn't. But I didn't care that it didn't go well. I even made some mistakes that would usually bother me. But I felt a sense of, "Oh well. I'll do better next time."
I mentioned indifference yesterday. Looks like it's still going strong.
Day 56
Maverick has had an odd 'swirling' effect on my. By that, I mean that I ultimately have no idea what it's doing. Sometimes I'm calm. Sometimes I'm anxious. Sometimes I care. Sometimes I feel detached. Sometimes I have glimmers of intense joy. Sometimes I feel dread.
Today, I'm exhausted.
Day 57
I had several vivid dreams last night. One of them really stands out in terms of what I think Maverick is doing.
I was at my house and in my garage. I walked out onto the concrete pad just outside my garage and moved some of the junk that had accumulated on the pad. As I did, I saw that there was a huge hole on the concrete. There was no solid ground beneath it. Instead, about 12ft down was septic system. The concrete pad was barely supported and below it was disgusting filth. Over the course of the dream, I found multiple holes in the concrete.
I believe this is symbolic of the outer 'me' that I present to the world versus the real deal, that I might not be so pleased with.
I also had a pretty incredible sex dream.
Hi,
Does it work out to 8 days on or 9 days on for you per month on Maverick?
(05-10-2023, 07:35 PM)KingDavid93 Wrote: [ -> ]Hi,
Does it work out to 8 days on or 9 days on for you per month on Maverick?
One month =32 days
Each cycle is 1:3 (4 days)
32 / 4 = 8
Day 63
This morning, I'm experiencing a body-wide euphoria (for lack of better term). It radiates from my chest and from my groin (specifically, my testicles). This isn't the first time I've felt this since running Maverick. In fact, I felt it several times this week. But today, it's more intense. I don't even want to get out of bed. I want to lie here and bask in it. If I had to compare it to anything, it's like a subtle orgasm that doesn't stop.
Day 63 (cont'd)
It seems that the sex effect that largely disappeared during month 2 is back. I hope it stays this time.
My wife had 5 orgasms tonight. I tried to talk her into a 6th, but her body couldn't handle it. As far as I can recall, she's never been as loud as she was tonight. She didn't even try to muffle her yelps, grunts, moans, etc. The interesting thing is that I wasn't putting forth a ton of effort...just steady stroking. This is very much out of the ordinary. It had to have been the aura.
Day 70
The main notables that I'm experiencing are deeper sleep, sex dreams, the desire to flirt when I see attractive women, general boldness, and overall anti-social behavior. I'm also really tired. Part of this is a side effect of my work. Part of it (I think) is b/c of deep subconscious work going on.
Day 82
For memorial day weekend, I enjoyed some time outside. Exhaustion has been gradually fading and I enjoyed some time outside; walking, yard work, grilling...in nice, beautiful weather. I've been thinking about being outside all week. I've been pondering the joy I felt just being with myself. One day, I walked for an hour and a half, all the while exploring my own mind. It was bliss.
Today I had an epiphany. The most obvious effect Maverick has had on me from the very beginning is relaxation. I've tried to wrap my head around what that could mean in terms of reaching my highest potential. Today, it clicked.
I tend to fall on the high strung end of the "drive" spectrum, at least when it comes to my work. In a lot of ways, it has served me well. The problem is, I have a strong tendency to expend energy faster than I can replenish it. This is extremely detrimental to long term progress in all areas of life as exhaustion inevitably sets in. It's difficult to experience any level of fulfillment while being debilitated because of fatigue. Well, Maverick is addressing this.
I'm seeing beyond the self-imposed, self-destructive behaviors of being a workaholic. I'm seeing simple adjustments that I can make to bring peace and rejuvenation into my life. This is not at all what I expected from Maverick, but it's a pleasant surprise that makes perfect sense. I'm having a bit of a "duh, dummy" moment. It's so obvious now.
(06-01-2023, 06:03 PM)NOMAD Wrote: [ -> ]Day 82
For memorial day weekend, I enjoyed some time outside. Exhaustion has been gradually fading and I enjoyed some time outside; walking, yard work, grilling...in nice, beautiful weather. I've been thinking about being outside all week. I've been pondering the joy I felt just being with myself. One day, I walked for an hour and a half, all the while exploring my own mind. It was bliss.
Today I had an epiphany. The most obvious effect Maverick has had on me from the very beginning is relaxation. I've tried to wrap my head around what that could mean in terms of reaching my highest potential. Today, it clicked.
I tend to fall on the high strung end of the "drive" spectrum, at least when it comes to my work. In a lot of ways, it has served me well. The problem is, I have a strong tendency to expend energy faster than I can replenish it. This is extremely detrimental to long term progress in all areas of life as exhaustion inevitably sets in. It's difficult to experience any level of fulfillment while being debilitated because of fatigue. Well, Maverick is addressing this.
I'm seeing beyond the self-imposed, self-destructive behaviors of being a workaholic. I'm seeing simple adjustments that I can make to bring peace and rejuvenation into my life. This is not at all what I expected from Maverick, but it's a pleasant surprise that makes perfect sense. I'm having a bit of a "duh, dummy" moment. It's so obvious now.
I'm so glad you posted this. A lot of people on this forum have left comments about how Maverick makes someone a workaholic or they believe it makes everything secondary. It doesn't. Maverick allows you to allow things to happen for you. It was one of the things I've wanted to address about this sub for a long time, based on posts left on my own journal from other users, but I left it alone. I wanted other users of the sub to come to this conclusion. Bravo.
I'm glad you're easing into it so well. The best is still yet to come.
(06-01-2023, 07:42 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: [ -> ]Maverick allows you to allow things to happen for you.
This statement is very much in line with a couple of things I've noted in my offline journal. I've noted that Maverick seems to function as a door opener. It doesn't push you through it. It allows you to either consciously walk through the door or to casually wander through the door without realizing it only to find yourself on the other side. Another thing I've noted is that Maverick seems to be a permission giver. It doesn't push. It allows (as Duke said).
A simple example of this is that hour and a half walk I took. After the first 30 min, I said to myself, "I need to go back home now." But I didn't want to go back home. Why force myself to stop doing something that I enjoyed? So I kept walking. The question of why I had initially felt compelled to keep myself in a rigid 30min structure led to another hour of deep pondering and it was incredible.
Another example is that I was at work, talking with the top two guys in the company. I relayed how I've been enjoying my new role and how I'm figuring out the "rules" to the game. I'm not going to get into details here, but I was very open about some things. In return, they were very open as well. There was nothing told to me that I hadn't already suspected, but it was interesting to hear it.
In both cases, I stepped out of bounds. But it didn't feel like I was stepping out of bounds. In one case, it felt like I looked around and didn't see the bounds any more. Where did they go? Did they ever exist? In the other case, it was in hind sight that I thought, "Holy Shit. That conversation just occurred."
As I type this, I'm realizing just how amazing this is and how Maverick has the potential to really bring true fulfillment to my life. In some cases, it has some big & crazy effects (the conversation mentioned above was pretty badass). But equally important to true fulfillment...and this is what I didn't understand until this weekend...are the small things that are already within grasp but regularly ignored (an extended walk, a bird chirping, sleeping late, sunshine, the smell of freshly cut grass, a puppy, etc.).
Amazing.