Subliminal Talk

Now that I think about it, fear can be pretty stupid, if only didn't show the symptoms I would have switched to E5 as planned but it's only extending it's suffering, now I'm going for the fifth month.

This is just hilarious, after I realize that feeling no symptoms would lead me to switch to E5 the tinnitus stopped or reduced considerably, and I can hear it very clear at this time, or maybe it's just temporal and it will come back, or the fear is surrendering, I don't know.

Did you read the list of types of resistance? What you're describing is listed.

The 20? Seems feasible, especially when I woke up at night because my right ear was hurting (it was at the fourth loop) and tinnitus was stronger then when the loop ended after some hours I could barely hear it, so I agree maybe my case is type 20, except that I haven't lowered the volume.

Sounds like it to me. You would be probably the 3rd potential case I have encountered.

Does that include pain at times in my left ear without reason for making me feel as going deaf?

(10-28-2021, 06:23 PM)User_000 Wrote: [ -> ]Does that include pain at times in my left ear without reason for making me feel as going deaf?

I would think so.

It's been a while since I feel it's hard to breathe but not as bad as the beginning and yesterday I felt kind of a fever and tiredness, but not sick, also couldn't sleep at all but now I feel normal, and as for tinnitus whether I hear it or not depends on the stress I have to deal with, when I'm not stressed I can barely hear it.

So far the symptoms have been as cycles, I start feeling bad then in a matter of days I feel good until the cycle repeats and when it does usually it's less painful, I have noticed they last one week until it fades completely, right now my breathing is almost done, now I can breathe like usual but for some reason now I feel my nostrils kind of strained then remembered I have experienced some dreadful experiences playing sports and maybe fear was allocated there because of those experiences, and so far my tinnitus and pain in the ear cycle are still going wild, the pain at least has decreased since the first time, well, the breathing issue lasted at least 3 months and it's finally gone so I will celebrate, I really hope tinnitus to be caused by fear.

The pressure on my nostrils keep giving me a weird feeling and today I'm feeling my head kind of hot, like a fever but that's it, yesterday my left ear was hurting but not today.

I'm very pleased to announce that finally after who knows how many years I was able to face my biggest fear and returning unscathed, the sensation was pretty bad though, usually I start feeling an anxiety attack and then my mind goes wild thinking I'm gonna die, then my head feels pretty hot, my heartbeats go crazy, I feel pain in my chest, until I faint or resist it long enough to calm down but this time I didn't resist and remained calm instead of thinking the worst, and I was able to let the emotion be, and curiously didn't faint, guess it was due to being calm.

This a great moment and I'll make sure to remember it for my entire life.

(11-14-2021, 12:29 PM)User_000 Wrote: [ -> ]I'm very pleased to announce that finally after who knows how many years I was able to face my biggest fear and returning unscathed, the sensation was pretty bad though, usually I start feeling an anxiety attack and then my mind goes wild thinking I'm gonna die, then my head feels pretty hot, my heartbeats go crazy, I feel pain in my chest, until I faint or resist it long enough to calm down but this time I didn't resist and remained calm instead of thinking the worst, and I was able to let the emotion be, and curiously didn't faint, guess it was due to being calm.

This a great moment and I'll make sure to remember it for my entire life.

Amazing post man! This makes me happy to read.

Today is Day 180 for me on OF V3 myself. Onward and upward!

(11-15-2021, 01:35 AM)CatMan Wrote: [ -> ]

(11-14-2021, 12:29 PM)User_000 Wrote: [ -> ]I'm very pleased to announce that finally after who knows how many years I was able to face my biggest fear and returning unscathed, the sensation was pretty bad though, usually I start feeling an anxiety attack and then my mind goes wild thinking I'm gonna die, then my head feels pretty hot, my heartbeats go crazy, I feel pain in my chest, until I faint or resist it long enough to calm down but this time I didn't resist and remained calm instead of thinking the worst, and I was able to let the emotion be, and curiously didn't faint, guess it was due to being calm.

This a great moment and I'll make sure to remember it for my entire life.

Amazing post man! This makes me happy to read.

Today is Day 180 for me on OF V3 myself. Onward and upward!

Thanks, that's sure a long time, don't know what kind of fears you're dealing with but you can do it!!

On other news, it appears it's too soon to conclude this

I'm guessing fear is allocated in parts of the brain related to ears, nose and oddly enough head temperature, so today my ears are not hurting anymore but it feels kind of weird, as if there is tension on them, and my right ear especifically kind of shrinks itself when hearing a sudden loud noise like finger snaps, very weird, and tinnitus remain the same.