Now weird stuff is happening, first my right ear started to ache or that was my impression, when I touched it didn't feel anything then I got deeply relaxed and the pain stopped, ironically I perceive my hearing to have improved just a little bit, almost imperceptible, that's weird.
I was hoping for the symptoms to finally fade away and then here I go feeling like throwing up with great anxiety, I can only say one thing: goddammit
Dude dude dude. I feel for ya man. I damn shure know how it can be.... for shure. you're couragous as hell soul for even giving this a go...... you will get thru it all . you will..... you're treasures of freedom await you, thats F-en for real.
I Know its a biotch right now.... F-it ! throw up, go out in da woods, scream cry moan,groan,call for the Universe's help. let the toxic stuff transmute into the ground, ask this and it shall be done before you start to let out. I used to use a broken limb on the ground, and then ask, then I'd go for it and beat the shit outta the stick,into the ground... I knew my limit too, dont over do it though. short round,rest and start again if you need to. AIMHO. you know you better,so go easy.
Emotions = energy in motion.....another few days and you'll feel different, give it its time needed to surrender,to come down from itself...its fear on overload......in time this too shall not only pass but let go and give in to Love, your essence.
Be with it as much as you can, make it totally OK with you for it to be there and if you can even embrace it,send it love...and be gentle with yourself is a must. YOU Know like you would a good good friend,be that for YOU<Man too!!
We men are so conditioned to just rough it and stuff it or get over it.... F- that...let yourself have your experince. I promise you this shit will pass,
I've known people who literally were scared shitless and once they gave themselves some time to process..all the emotional 'stuff' the literal diarrhea subsided,as well. yes the two were very much connected.
Keep going, you've gotta stronger heart than the fear - False Evidence Appearing Real = F.E.A.R.
Thanks, I'm glad this won't last more than an hour, but I'm sure it will come back.
Yesterday my left ear started to ache but I didn't give it second thoughts, at night I could hear whistles or whistlings on my right ear, and they continue as of today if I pay attention, I wonder if that's another reaction, I don't recall setting the volume that high but then why my left ear started to ache, I also realize I put a lot of strain on my mandible at times.
I realized that the sound is louder when I'm in certain places and in certain circumstances, when I'm in my room the sound is louder, when I'm outside of it I can barely hear it, and when there is external noise I can't hear it, I already tried covering my ear but I can still listen it.
Also my hearing keeps as sharp as usual.
After my ear started to feel weird I realized the whistle has dissapeared, it doesn't feel that bad, it's almost imperceptible, like if it was strained or something, I still don't know exactly if this is related to fear but I have checked that with enough anxiety my ears feel pain and make me feel as if my hearing is getting worse.
I already knew that I am messed up but never imagine the kind of sh*t that fear can do.
I was down all day but now I feel like a new person, and my chest is hurting again but I don't care, now I have the confidence to redo my life and I will do it right this time.
One of the most frightening things I ever had to face in my entire life was cancer. Not because I thought it would kill me, oh no. I had been suicidal from the emotional pain I had been in for years by the time I ended up with it. I figured, "This is as good a way to die as any, I guess." What scared me was not death, but the knowledge that now I would have to face my greatest fear: hypodermic needles.
And face it I did, entirely against my will. That first few days they stuck so many needles in me that i managed to find a way to black out even laying down, which usually prevents that. The nausea I felt right before that happened was unbelievable. But you know what happened? They decided to install an infusa-port in my chest surgically to minimize the number of times I need to have a needle stuck in me. The irony was that the surgery required me to have no less than seven IVs inserted into my arms at once. Having the infusa-port allowed me to "only" have to deal with one needle every few days. The surgery to remove it was pretty awful, they didn't even put me under because the doctor was mad that my mother wouldn't let him get away with rescheduling after a full day of waiting. He had sent the anesthesiologist home to have that excuse. So they shot me up with 7 shots of local anesthetic in my left pectoralis to do the surgery.
By the time I got done with cancer treatment, I learned two things. First, I was no longer afraid of needles... and second, facing major fear like that results in nausea.
So as you find yourself feeling these things, just remember... that is your fear losing the fight for survival.
Haven't feel nausea for a while (2 days), but I think that fear is almost done, now my current problem is tinnitus on my right ear, It's actually there again and got me thinking about something I may have screwed up, then remember one day before it started that while I was sleeping I got on my right side for a long time with the earphone pressing agains my ear, aside from that there's nothing else, well at least it doesn't hear as much as yesterday or maybe I got used to it.
I don't know if I should rest from the audio until it fades away.
So far so good, except that I still have tinnitus, it's kind of curious how during the day I can't hear it until night, and my hearing it's as good as always, maybe even slight better, also when I think about it too much my ears start hurting, if the price for getting rid of fears was this then I wouldn't mind, but somehow I think this is related to fear in some way, can never have a rest, do I?
Maybe I screwed up when using hybrid, now it has gotten a little bit worse, so I will switch to masked, and again I'm feeling it's hard to breathe, and if it's not that it's like passing out, and anxiety is swelling up on my chest again.
I suggest you have a read through the post in the FAQ section on types of resistance and how to spot them. I think you'll discover some very interesting things as you get down the list towards the end.
Each format will have a different level of your awareness that it communicates most directly to. Ultrasonic communicates most directly to the "shallow subconscious", near the "shore" of the conscious awareness. Masked communicates most directly to the "deep subconscious", and Hybrid hits both at once.
If you are experiencing tinnitus, and you don't want to aggravate it, then you will have to stick with Masked format. If you are experiencing artificial tinnitus, caused by the subconscious in an effort to get you to stop using the program or a specific format, then consider the lengths to which your subconscious is going to get you to stop, and ask yourself why it is doing that and what it means.
Pretty interesting, I can only say tinnitus gets stronger at night when going to sleep (when I use the audio), and yesterday was kind of weird if I can say that, because when I played the audio immediately felt as today (hard to breathe) and took some time to fall asleep, and my ears start hurting when I recall it so I'm pretty sure it doesn't want me to keep using it or at least the hybrid format, I'm gonna try it again today, this time without worrying
I also said it was worse but didn't notice it during the day, in fact it was worse yesterday with me being anxious about my ears.