Subliminal Talk

I got a text from the airport today they found my laptop, the music production continues wooot

Been feeling my fears coming back, OCD & Social Anxiety, After Using LTU v6 & UMv2 for a short period of time. It took a while but OFv3 had finally removed my OCD of touching things that "have germs".

Really can't afford to go through weeks or months of social anxiety before I hit a breakthrough, I NEED to go back to OFv3. It was a mistake stopping this program. I felt confident with business & that is the most important thing right now. I also was much less Needy.

I am going through allot mentally & going through a break up so all I want to do is focus on the Gym / Money. I've been sober, it's been difficult, I have a ton of green & alcohol at my home but I haven't consumed any.

I feel mentally not very good. but I am very hopeful because I am getting my license back in a few weeks, I paid off $2900 a few days ago & have just 700 more to pay off. I am close to finally driving after 3 years. My business is going to do very well this year I can feel it, because my motivation is very high & their is nothing else I want to do.

I plan on investing into Crypto , I'm currently learning, & I might mine Miami Coin in the near future. I am still looking into it. If anyone has any good tips or info/links I can research please DM me or Comment. Would appreciate any help with learning to invest into Crypto.

& I'm not sure why, but the only time I have smiled/Felt any joy or happiness in the last few weeks is the two times I went back on OF v3 within the first hour of using the program again.

That just happened now. I genuinely felt happy & at peace. I've been hurting inside generally. I am confident that after 1-3 weeks of using Overcome Fear v3 again, I will feel very good mentally. Last Summer when OF v3 was affecting me powerfully, I felt so confident in my business relations with customers. I am excited to feel that level of inner confidence again, that combined with being able to drive & not be restricted, I can make allot of money

I feel a sense of internal relief after having played OF v3 & I'm only 1/4 into the loop. That's a good sign.

Having allot of fear based dreams.

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I'm noticing TID from NSLW, In singing, & drawing ability. More creative, & able to flow easier.

It's cool that the creativity from NSLW also enhances creativity in other Arts.

Accidently did like 8-10 loops. I feel great.

Yesterday I went on a 3km Sprint with my dogs around 10pm, then later on in the night again for 1.5km, Today so far I went for a 30 minute walk with a jog (I was trying to run but my pants were super loose so i decided to wait), going to go for another run later tonight around midnight.

I've also been doing Calisthenics, Pull ups, Push ups, home work outs, before my sprint yesterday for example & walk today, I'm in really good physical shape , but my cardio is not very good. Soon I will be joining boxing, in 1 month or so.

I feel really good running with my dogs, 1 German Shepherd in one Hand, 1 Presa Canario / Pitbull Mix in the other. It's such a primal feeling, & I hope to develop a habit where I do this forever. & start connecting with my dogs on a greater level, I haven't connected with my dogs this well since I was 19, when I first got my German Shepherd I would go to the lake every single day with it after work, & it would swim, but then life got in the way, court, toxic relationships, bad habits, license. ect. So I wasn't able to do it to the same extent as before. Although when I was in a toxic relationship we did allot of walking together , we would walk every day after I finished work, 2 hours. So that was the healthiest part of that relationship.

The Music I know I will always love & do, because Music is my passion since I was 5, but this Boxing endeavour, I really feel like it is good for me & if I do it I will be happy, I just need to stay committed, I feel like if I fail at this it will take a big hit on my pride & self esteem, I have been on & off for many years with Martial Arts but this time I want to stay committed, I this the problem before was I was in MMA instead of BOXING , I like sparring, & fighting, MMA was more training, but less sparring.

I want to become the highest potential I can be, Mike Tyson is someone I am listening to allot lately, his podcasts & interviews, he has a great mind, & mindset, he said discipline is doing what you hate but doing it like you love it.

And that's basically where I am with this running this, I don't really like doing it, but after I'm done I feel amazing, And Accomplished, & I learned from Youtube to learn to reward yourself when you achieve small goals, as that will spike dopamine in a healthy way, & keep you motivated, give you more energy, basically remind yourself you're on the right path.

Went on a 3.6Km Run , the fist 2 KM was a downhill so it was difficult, went the whole 3.6km with very little breaks.

Felt primal, alive, one of the best moments of my life, seeing all those lights & seeing my Two Dogs Run with me just felt amazing.

Sadly tho, I can't run with my German Shepherd anymore, I noticed her hips are starting to have problems, shes only 7. I don't want to aggravate it, Will have to only take her on light jogs or walks. she is still active & doesn't seem to be in pain but it makes me worry.
Before she passes away I will buy another German Shepherd Puppy that she can train and see before she dies. It will help her feel alive when she is old & dying, I don't have to worry about that now, but maybe in the future. Hopefully far far down the future.

This dog has been with me through everything. I got kicked out of my parents house at 19 when I got the Dog & that's how I started selling drugs, & that's how everything led me to where I am now. No regrets though, I have own my business now, Confidence in myself, & I have learned allot from my mistakes.

Today I sprinted 1.5Km with Goku , went as hard as I could, my body is sore all over, before I went on the run I did a Home work out, 5-7 sets of wide grip pull ups, 5-7 sets of close grip, ab crunches using the pull up bar, 2 sets of 30-40 push ups,
I am seeing my body transform every day, it feels great, Its giving me some confidence that I very much needed after going through a break up & a drug bender In Medellin, I am physically in the best shape I've ever been in, & for the first time I'm running and sprinting, I hope I can maintain this motivation & become a boxer, it will really be good for me.
I am an extreme person , I'm a Venus In Scorpio, I'm either All in or all out, I'm very intense. in everything in life.

(12-03-2021, 10:10 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ]Today I sprinted 1.5Km with Goku , went as hard as I could, my body is sore all over, before I went on the run I did a Home work out, 5-7 sets of wide grip pull ups, 5-7 sets of close grip, ab crunches using the pull up bar, 2 sets of 30-40 push ups,
I am seeing my body transform every day, it feels great, Its giving me some confidence that I very much needed after going through a break up & a drug bender In Medellin, I am physically in the best I've ever been in, & for the first time I'm running and sprinting, I hope I can maintain this motivation & become a boxer, it will really be good for me.
I am an extreme person , I'm a Venus In Scorpio, I'm either All in or all out, I'm very intense. in everything in life.

I am a Scorpio too. I know what it feels like to have extreme drive like you are having now. Honour that drive while it's there. I am envious of that... Im still trying to figure out what the hell I want. Eventually you could try running ultra marathons if you really want to reach peak endurance. A great boxer is someone with really good endurance and conditioning.

(12-04-2021, 12:11 AM)SaltyMeatballs Wrote: [ -> ]

(12-03-2021, 10:10 PM)Raykon Wrote: [ -> ]Today I sprinted 1.5Km with Goku , went as hard as I could, my body is sore all over, before I went on the run I did a Home work out, 5-7 sets of wide grip pull ups, 5-7 sets of close grip, ab crunches using the pull up bar, 2 sets of 30-40 push ups,
I am seeing my body transform every day, it feels great, Its giving me some confidence that I very much needed after going through a break up & a drug bender In Medellin, I am physically in the best I've ever been in, & for the first time I'm running and sprinting, I hope I can maintain this motivation & become a boxer, it will really be good for me.
I am an extreme person , I'm a Venus In Scorpio, I'm either All in or all out, I'm very intense. in everything in life.

I am a Scorpio too. I know what it feels like to have extreme drive like you are having now. Honour that drive while it's there. I am envious of that... Im still trying to figure out what the hell I want. Eventually you could try running ultra marathons if you really want to reach peak endurance. A great boxer is someone with really good endurance and conditioning.

I feel like Goku in the Gravity Chamber