Stage 5, Day 4,
Doing well. I'm ahead of myself with my coding bootcamp, submitting homework about 3-4 days in advance.
I got sent home yesterday for a very mild sore throat (COVID symptom), so I got Thursday and Friday off of work.
I got 10.5 hours of sleep today, and the symptoms were all but gone this morning.
Got a lot of guitar and coding practice. Ran for 1.25 hours today.
Feeling good.
Stage 5, Day 8,
Things going smoothly. Gaining more interest in rings and watches. Less interest in sex.
Stage 5, Day 8,
A couple of insights that I've been sitting on:
- The need for reassurance is a form of validation seeking; stop making statements of uncertainty or insecurity towards people in the hope that they will give you calming words or shore up your abilities.
- Shut your damn mouth; don't blab to people about random goings on. I used to tell at least one person when I got a new date, etc. Now, I keep my own business to myself and don't even hint to it. Even if people inferred it, I wouldn't share.
- Disclose things only with people you've chosen in advice that you trust. Rumor spread quickly if put in the hands of the wrong person.
Stage 5. Day 15,
Noticing a considerable decrease in guitar playing speed. Still playing coordinated, but at about 90% of my max speed. Staying consistent with the practice but it's either not paying off or there's some work happening on the foundational level.
Stage 5, Day 21,
Missed a day due to a sexy sleepover. Got 33 days left in my 6-Stage run.
OF2 is on the docket after a 1-2 week hiatus.
My body language is generally improved.
A few months ago, I remember remarking at Christoph Waltz' posture/poise in Inglorious Basterds. Nowadays, I have a similar posture when I think about it; I still slouch when I'm in a flow state at my computer.
Stage 5, Day 27,
Changing to Stage 6 on Friday
Stage 6, Day 4,
So word must have gotten out about my good dick skills (or something) because I suddenly got 3 new random women follow me on Instagram. I don't know them, and they don't know me. I haven't posted anything for months.
Maybe it's this TID (future coming to life before running the next sub)?
Stage 6, Day 7.,
Keeping track of the day.
Stage 6, Day 10,
I've been running a bit more than usual.
It has been twice a week for several weeks, but I've done it a third time yesterday (Saturday) and make a habit of either Friday or Saturday (or both) then I'll throw in Mondays.
NOTE: I've been having various thoughts and philosophies surrounding fear and the effects that fear has on your life.
If you're interested in having me shoot a video on it, let me know.
I'll probably do it either way, but some consensus on it will get it out faster.
Stage 6, Day 12,
20 days left! I'm looking forward to using OF v.2/
I'm finding myself shrinking away more and more from life and the means of living.
Part of it has to do with COVID lockdowns; our province has a stay-at-home order, and though I've gone on dates in the past, my intuition has been telling me to not push for dates nowadays and to work on my projects/purpose.
I don't have regrets about this; however, I realize that I'm caving into tendencies to remain within a shell.
I've been able to look back and find incidents in my early life which either formed these fears or reinforced them.
I'm just itching to run the next subliminal.