07-13-2019, 08:58 AM
I started this program on the 11th, which was the first day I had a chance to do so.
During my first loop, I felt some fullness in my head, as others have experienced, and there was a point at which I felt a short euphoria after I thought about being wealthy. For the most part, my journey through that first loop was uneventful.
Then the bloom started.
During the next hour, I felt a strange energy that was hard to define, and as it grew, I started to recognize it like a thing coming out of a dense fog in the distance. The first thing I recognized was, "This is the effects of adrenaline!" This got me to thinking about why I would be having an adrenaline rush (which is very uncomfortable for me, by the way; too much and I start getting the symptoms of being poisoned). Then, as if the adrenaline was a dark mass coming into view through the fog of war, I had a realization ride through that fog at a distance, but with clarity: it was not just adrenaline, some subconscious part of me was feeling sheer terror!
But this was unlike any terror I had ever felt before. It was distant, diffused, and only barely recognizable. The FRM was doing it's job in helping me be safe from it. It was something I could experience, without being "in and of it". I recognized what it was, but it did not control me, affect my conscious decision making, or significantly influence my conscious self. It was then that a single lone thought in a frightened voice drifted up from below: "No, please don't make me do this!"
I replied to this thought immediately, determinedly and automatically. "We are doing this, and unlimited success and wealth are what we are going to have."
There was nothing more from whatever part of me said that. It took a grand total of 45 minutes from when I noted the adrenaline to when I realized that the terror was simply gone. Whatever part of me that was had been overwhelmed and assimilated. I was significantly impressed.
The rest of the day didn't really give me much to go on. I could feel that a lot was going on under the hood, but it wasn't obvious what. Just that multiple parts of me were busy subconsciously working on things and working things out. I was deeply "in process". But that was all.
The next day, I woke up spontaneously at 5 AM, and while I was awakening, my mind was already filled with plans for a new product that would make money, how to design it, how to build it, who to market it to, and so on. I naturally didn't want to wake up at 5 am, so I tried (and tried hard) to go back to sleep, but my mind would not slow down or stop working this out. At 6:06 AM, I gave up and got up, went into my office and started working on USLM 4.1. I worked on that until at 9:33 AM, gf woke up and we went to breakfast. Then I came home and kept working on it.
This day, I did not feel fear, but I did feel; something familiar to me: resistance. Some part of me was trying hard to resist. I felt this for several hours, and the feeling increased. I was impressed by this as well, because normally, I do not resist my own subliminals (that I know of consciously, at least). Resistance means that I had struck a nerve, and I had created a subliminal that was so powerful that those parts of me that had managed to hide from being affected so far were now being challenged. I somehow knew that these were the parts of me that were responsible for keeping me from my financial goals, and they were fighting hard to keep the status quo.
Then I realized how tired I was, unusually tired. I recognized this also: it was the exhaustion I always feel when some part of me is fighting the subliminal. But it wasn't just that; it was also those parts of me that were executing the script doing their thing. I could feel that they were busier than a beaver on speed. And there was this sort of determination that I had never felt the likes of before; usually when I am determined, it's because "we need to accomplish X, and we might not otherwise". This determination didn't have that part about "we might not otherwise". The goal felt like it was a foregone conclusion, and we needed to get there, NOW. It feels like my subconscious is like a locomotive, gaining steam, unstoppable, the goal in sight and no doubt at all as to achieving it, with a sort of determined necessity to getting to it.
Pretty amazing, when I think about it. But the funny part was, another part of me was resisting doing some of what was necessary, not because it was trying to stop me, but because the processing of other things wasn't finished yet: it felt a lot like being a race car driver in a high end race car (the kind no mere mortal could ever hope to afford) while it's on blocks at the pit stop, all the tires off, the hood open, and a team of mechanics working hard and fast on all of it at the same time. The script was being executed, but even at top speed, there were parts of me frustrated because they had to wait for other parts of me to be finished with what they were doing (at top speed). It was like one part of me was ready to go, sitting in this car saying, "Come on, guys, the race is on, we're losing valuable time, let's go!!!" And the team of mechanics was busy changing out the tires, rebuilding the aerodynamics, the engine, the suspension, the drive train, the brakes, the transmission and everything else, all at the same time, aware of the impatience of the driver, but un-phased by it as they worked as quickly as they could work without introducing errors.
I worked until I was too tired to keep going and then I dropped for a nap; my alarm went off in 2 hours (normally I can't fall asleep for a nap, and if I do, it never lasts more than 45 to 60 minutes) and I was still exhausted. I tried to just go back to sleep, but GF showed up and told me she was low blood sugar, we needed to go have dinner.
At dinner, I noted that at least one of the servers was acting strange: normally she's "just doing her job" and it feels sometimes a little bit like she just tolerates us. This day she was all bright and cheery, happy to see us, smiling and greeting us enthusiastically. And she wasn't even our server. Normally on days she doesn't serve us, there's 7:1 odds that she doesn't even look at us.
We went to the beach after dinner, and it felt very nice to relax, but I wanted to get home and keep working on USLM. When we finished walking at the beach and I got home, I immediately continued working. A few hours later gf walks into my office and offers me sex. To my amazement, I had to answer that I was too tired. (That almost never happens!) I thought about it and realized that it wasn't that I didn't want to have sex, it was that the program was at the early stages of doing what it is designed to do, and it was working me so hard that I simply didn't have any energy left. I also realized that as the program accomplishes the changes that it is designed to make to the listener subconsciously, this won't happen anymore. Making all these changes at top speed all at once is hugely exhausting, and working this hard on top of it. At that point, we went to bed instead.
This morning, I got up at a more reasonable time, around 8 AM when my pets normally wake me up to go outside. Normally I let the dogs out, wait for them to come back in and then get another hour of shut-eye. This morning, I tried that, but GF was not having it. Instead of waking up at 9:30 or 10 AM, she was awake and complaining that I wasn't snuggling with her. So we snuggled for a bit and then did our morning bathroom routine brushing teeth and whatnot, and went to breakfast.
This morning, our server was one who we have known for a while, and we know she likes us a lot. Normally she gives us great service, but this morning it was on another level.
I am beginning to wonder if maybe the auric shield on this thing (which I can definitely feel emanating from me, for the first time since doing DMSI 3.1) and the programming in this program aren't giving us a sort of presence that affects how people treat us? Are we projecting a vibe of unlimited wealth, abundance and success and people are reacting to it?
Anyway, I am currently working on USLM 4.1, feeling no resistance. I do feel the auric shield, and I also feel this deep sense of exhaustion, but at the same time I feel something forcing me awake. I cannot tell you how impressed I am with the Magnus Engine v2 so far. Great things are coming, and I am hoping that ME2 was the last major hurdle to what we need to do for 6G. Sure, there's a LOT of work to do in mining Beast for tech still, and I almost certainly have to create and build B19. (Why didn't I just wait a couple more weeks to build it? ARGH!) But I feel like we are over the last major hurdle, and now it's just walking down the mountain to the valley below, where the festival of 6G is going to be held.
In short:
I feel good!
And this might help some of you.
During my first loop, I felt some fullness in my head, as others have experienced, and there was a point at which I felt a short euphoria after I thought about being wealthy. For the most part, my journey through that first loop was uneventful.
Then the bloom started.
During the next hour, I felt a strange energy that was hard to define, and as it grew, I started to recognize it like a thing coming out of a dense fog in the distance. The first thing I recognized was, "This is the effects of adrenaline!" This got me to thinking about why I would be having an adrenaline rush (which is very uncomfortable for me, by the way; too much and I start getting the symptoms of being poisoned). Then, as if the adrenaline was a dark mass coming into view through the fog of war, I had a realization ride through that fog at a distance, but with clarity: it was not just adrenaline, some subconscious part of me was feeling sheer terror!
But this was unlike any terror I had ever felt before. It was distant, diffused, and only barely recognizable. The FRM was doing it's job in helping me be safe from it. It was something I could experience, without being "in and of it". I recognized what it was, but it did not control me, affect my conscious decision making, or significantly influence my conscious self. It was then that a single lone thought in a frightened voice drifted up from below: "No, please don't make me do this!"
I replied to this thought immediately, determinedly and automatically. "We are doing this, and unlimited success and wealth are what we are going to have."
There was nothing more from whatever part of me said that. It took a grand total of 45 minutes from when I noted the adrenaline to when I realized that the terror was simply gone. Whatever part of me that was had been overwhelmed and assimilated. I was significantly impressed.
The rest of the day didn't really give me much to go on. I could feel that a lot was going on under the hood, but it wasn't obvious what. Just that multiple parts of me were busy subconsciously working on things and working things out. I was deeply "in process". But that was all.
The next day, I woke up spontaneously at 5 AM, and while I was awakening, my mind was already filled with plans for a new product that would make money, how to design it, how to build it, who to market it to, and so on. I naturally didn't want to wake up at 5 am, so I tried (and tried hard) to go back to sleep, but my mind would not slow down or stop working this out. At 6:06 AM, I gave up and got up, went into my office and started working on USLM 4.1. I worked on that until at 9:33 AM, gf woke up and we went to breakfast. Then I came home and kept working on it.
This day, I did not feel fear, but I did feel; something familiar to me: resistance. Some part of me was trying hard to resist. I felt this for several hours, and the feeling increased. I was impressed by this as well, because normally, I do not resist my own subliminals (that I know of consciously, at least). Resistance means that I had struck a nerve, and I had created a subliminal that was so powerful that those parts of me that had managed to hide from being affected so far were now being challenged. I somehow knew that these were the parts of me that were responsible for keeping me from my financial goals, and they were fighting hard to keep the status quo.
Then I realized how tired I was, unusually tired. I recognized this also: it was the exhaustion I always feel when some part of me is fighting the subliminal. But it wasn't just that; it was also those parts of me that were executing the script doing their thing. I could feel that they were busier than a beaver on speed. And there was this sort of determination that I had never felt the likes of before; usually when I am determined, it's because "we need to accomplish X, and we might not otherwise". This determination didn't have that part about "we might not otherwise". The goal felt like it was a foregone conclusion, and we needed to get there, NOW. It feels like my subconscious is like a locomotive, gaining steam, unstoppable, the goal in sight and no doubt at all as to achieving it, with a sort of determined necessity to getting to it.
Pretty amazing, when I think about it. But the funny part was, another part of me was resisting doing some of what was necessary, not because it was trying to stop me, but because the processing of other things wasn't finished yet: it felt a lot like being a race car driver in a high end race car (the kind no mere mortal could ever hope to afford) while it's on blocks at the pit stop, all the tires off, the hood open, and a team of mechanics working hard and fast on all of it at the same time. The script was being executed, but even at top speed, there were parts of me frustrated because they had to wait for other parts of me to be finished with what they were doing (at top speed). It was like one part of me was ready to go, sitting in this car saying, "Come on, guys, the race is on, we're losing valuable time, let's go!!!" And the team of mechanics was busy changing out the tires, rebuilding the aerodynamics, the engine, the suspension, the drive train, the brakes, the transmission and everything else, all at the same time, aware of the impatience of the driver, but un-phased by it as they worked as quickly as they could work without introducing errors.
I worked until I was too tired to keep going and then I dropped for a nap; my alarm went off in 2 hours (normally I can't fall asleep for a nap, and if I do, it never lasts more than 45 to 60 minutes) and I was still exhausted. I tried to just go back to sleep, but GF showed up and told me she was low blood sugar, we needed to go have dinner.
At dinner, I noted that at least one of the servers was acting strange: normally she's "just doing her job" and it feels sometimes a little bit like she just tolerates us. This day she was all bright and cheery, happy to see us, smiling and greeting us enthusiastically. And she wasn't even our server. Normally on days she doesn't serve us, there's 7:1 odds that she doesn't even look at us.
We went to the beach after dinner, and it felt very nice to relax, but I wanted to get home and keep working on USLM. When we finished walking at the beach and I got home, I immediately continued working. A few hours later gf walks into my office and offers me sex. To my amazement, I had to answer that I was too tired. (That almost never happens!) I thought about it and realized that it wasn't that I didn't want to have sex, it was that the program was at the early stages of doing what it is designed to do, and it was working me so hard that I simply didn't have any energy left. I also realized that as the program accomplishes the changes that it is designed to make to the listener subconsciously, this won't happen anymore. Making all these changes at top speed all at once is hugely exhausting, and working this hard on top of it. At that point, we went to bed instead.
This morning, I got up at a more reasonable time, around 8 AM when my pets normally wake me up to go outside. Normally I let the dogs out, wait for them to come back in and then get another hour of shut-eye. This morning, I tried that, but GF was not having it. Instead of waking up at 9:30 or 10 AM, she was awake and complaining that I wasn't snuggling with her. So we snuggled for a bit and then did our morning bathroom routine brushing teeth and whatnot, and went to breakfast.
This morning, our server was one who we have known for a while, and we know she likes us a lot. Normally she gives us great service, but this morning it was on another level.
I am beginning to wonder if maybe the auric shield on this thing (which I can definitely feel emanating from me, for the first time since doing DMSI 3.1) and the programming in this program aren't giving us a sort of presence that affects how people treat us? Are we projecting a vibe of unlimited wealth, abundance and success and people are reacting to it?
Anyway, I am currently working on USLM 4.1, feeling no resistance. I do feel the auric shield, and I also feel this deep sense of exhaustion, but at the same time I feel something forcing me awake. I cannot tell you how impressed I am with the Magnus Engine v2 so far. Great things are coming, and I am hoping that ME2 was the last major hurdle to what we need to do for 6G. Sure, there's a LOT of work to do in mining Beast for tech still, and I almost certainly have to create and build B19. (Why didn't I just wait a couple more weeks to build it? ARGH!) But I feel like we are over the last major hurdle, and now it's just walking down the mountain to the valley below, where the festival of 6G is going to be held.
In short:
I feel good!
And this might help some of you.
