Subliminal Talk

Stage 2, Day 23:

I have been few days without journaling. Not much to tell. Therefore, there is no point to journal just for the sake of journaling.

I haven't seen any FBs since last week. It appears my behavioral change related to SM3, makes my GF grow and makes her do some introspection.

Like few days ago (maybe last week-end) after having sex, she did share some confession with me. Such as. You are right to complain that I am frigid and boring in bed because I am.

Then yesterday, it was her day off. We had 3 quickies during the day. Except for the last time, never long enough to reach climax. Before falling asleep I got another confidence. She said that now she is fighting and resisting orgasms. By not climaxing, this leaves her wanting more. This is a theory/tip that she has been sharing with a female colleague with whom she share together their sexual experiences/wisdom (from what I heard about her. She is kinky and naughty and she hears about my sexual performance from my gf. that would be fun if that turns into a 3some at some point....).

I am not 100% sure that I like the idea as my main source of satisfaction from intercourse is to bring my partner to orgasm... OTOH, I appreciate her effort to increase her interest into sex. She did also borrow 2-3 erotica novels from the public library.

So bottomline, there is an undeniable effort from her to become more sexual. So this can probably be attributed to SM3. This is an unexpected but welcome result from SM3.

Another detail worth of mentioning about those quickies. The second one, we were outside and got caught by rain in our backyard. We went into the shed where she suggested a quickie doggie style in the shed and she just dropped her pants and did bend over the shed back wall to present me her naked butt. This kind of sudden, out of nowhere, sex invitation is the type of situation where I used to have some trouble to get hard. Yesterday, it did work out nicely. I think that I have read somewhere that SM3 could/was helping the user in those situations and I feel that it did help me in that specific situation. but I just cannot retrieve where this feature is explained. It could be in the program instructions or the product page...

Update: I found where I did read about that program feature. It is on its sales page:

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He must be able to perform at will, on a moment’s notice, whenever the opportunity arises, and keep himself until he chooses to be done with what he is doing. He must be able to approach, indicate his interest, escalate to sex and then pull the trigger – smoothly, quickly, and decisively. His sex drive must be the equal of any sexual situation in which he finds himself, and any woman with whom he intends to be sexually intimate. And he must be able to do all this naturally.

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Tinder nurse did ping me on messenger yesterday. I did ask her some news from her. She did innocently slip in the convo that she had a dinner date earlier this week. Possibly an attempt to instill jealousy in me. It didn't create anything remotely close to jealousy.

Finally, I did search for some SM3 journals in the forum. Damn, they are quite rare and old... The main takeaway that I got from that search is that it appears to be a consensus that SM3 Stage 3 creates a lot of turmoil in the user. I cannot imagine that it will be my experience. So far everything has been smooth and positive. Based on Stage 3 description is (I'm paraphrasing) more of the same thing than stage 1 and 2 but more intense. Actually, this is exactly what I wanted to find out what Stage 3 (and all the other stages after the one I'm doing now...) could have in bank for me by searching inside other SM3 journals because unlike AM6 stage descriptions, SM3 stages description doesn't give much details... imho...

In my case, I'm welcoming that experience and feel that it is going to be fun... Nothing to think that it is going to be rough to go through for me... Only 7 days left before finding out...

Stage 2, day 24:

This morning, I went to my dental cleaning appointment. Receptionist was sexy and flirty. Hygenist, while I was on her chair, she did seem to me more touchy feely than usual (we meet 3 times per year). At some point, I did feel her breast against the top of my head. At some other point, it felt almost like my head was resting on her lap and against her belly. That is impossible since my head was resting on the chair but I definitely was feeling the warmth of her lap pressed against my shoulder under it. Having your teeth cleaned is anything but erotic but OTOH, she was definitely much closer to me physically than she needed to for her work... maybe she wasn't even not aware and all of that was subconscious...

At the end of the appointment, when she did escort me back at the reception... she did present me her hand for a professional handshake. I did grab her to kiss her on the cheek.. no idea why I did that. I just felt it that I wanted to do it.

Stage 2, day 27:

I have heard back from my 2 fbs in the last few days. I'm very happy to realize that my attraction on them is still strong. This is making a relatively stable ring of 3 partners. Honestly, I find this setup very close to what I consider ideal. my 2 fbs have busy life and therefore, they are independant and not demanding in terms of my time.

I went to the beach this afternoon. I think that I have witnessed SM3 manifestation modules effect. We did pick a spot and during the afternoon, several hot women came alone and did install themselves all around us. They were too numerous and the beach is several miles long to be just an act of hazard...

Stage 2, Day 29:

I was supposed to maybe see one of my FBs for lunch time. She was supposed to confirm if it was ok for her yesterday evening. I didn't heard back from her. In the past, I would have felt compelled to ping her back to query if yes or no she wanted to me. Not in my current state of mind. I just concluded that she couldn't because otherwise she would have texted me. Not hearing back from her is simply letting me unaffected.

This morning, I did go to the gym. There was 2 girls in the class. My interactions with both were nice. Actually, one is an attractive redhead air stewardess and we started to get a little bit personal by asking each other some personal questions. I guess that is one path to get intimate eventually...

Stage 2, Day 32 (last day!!!):

The last 2 days did suck. During last week-end, we did eat a lot of fast food/restaurants + more than usual alcohol. Nothing overly excessive but I must have eaten something really bad as I got lower back pain (kidneys?) for 2 days + very low energy level. IOW, I felt like shit.

I'm feeling better today but with being in that state, all I can say is that my sex drive took a hit and having sex was very low in my list of desires.

Tinder nurse did message me Tuesday... I didn't even feel like replying back before yesterday. I did explain her how I was feeling and she did wish me to feel better soon. I wouldn't be surprised that having sex was in the back of her mind but she didn't mention it by figuring that I would probably decline any invitation.

Yesterday afternoon, I did kick myself in the butt and I went to the gym. With high heat, I tend to prefer going at the gym in the morning but I was quite happy to meet my regular 4PM class buddies... Including cuties... Especially the very sexy black girl... She has the most erotically arousing body of all the girls going at the gym. I have to tell her that eventually... I cannot keep that for me. but this is tricky because she is in couple. She always come workout with her bf. BF that I respect. It is not my best buddy but still. BUT, I can feel that the attraction is mutual... She keep looking at me, smile at me... come over to flirt with me... the most funny subtle effort that she does is that when we run and I am THE slowest runner, it is that she adjust her pace to the same pace than me so that she can interact with me and I assume that she does that purposefully...

idk if this is possible but it seems like the more I am attracted to a girl, the stronger her attraction toward me will be... AKA some sort of auric sniper effect. It is not listed as a program feature but this experience feels like there is something along those lines into SM3. Bottomline, having sex with her would certainly be a very delicious thing to do...

finally yesterday evening... add the workout fatigue + my starting low energy state... I was simply totally exhausted. I was a walking wreck just thinking going to bed and sleep. I got sexual advances from my gf. We had sex Tuesday early afternoon after lunch... She did say that her libido was rising. I did decline because I really didn't felt it.

This morning, FB #2 (the one that I was supposed to maybe meet Monday) did text me because she wants to have sex tonight. Idk yet if I'm going to accept or not... I'm feeling better but I'm not yet 100% back up to my normal energy state.

So in summary, there are 3 women chasing after me for sex and I'm not feeling that hungry for that in the moment... That is what I call a high quality problem... That is something that didn't happen to me that often in my life... If it is my new normal with just 2 SM3 stages completed.. the abundance is going to become insane later in with following stages....

When I go to bed tonight, I will be starting to listen to stage 3... I'm very eager to see what will happen next... from past experience, stage transition are always exciting with awesome surprises...

Pomegranet Juice is excellent for Kidney's,flushing,dissolving stones,ect. so is freshly squoozen grape fruit juice and apple cider vinegar...mixed 4 to 8 oz.'s. you can look up the best mix,etc, google. In my humble onion(Ha!_ opinion!
good luck on getting seriously laid and related. now theres a statement I dont make every week!

Stage 3, day 1:

I did go to the grocery to buy 2 huge pomegranates. I did eat half of one of them yesterday evening. This morning the lower back pain has diminished so therefore, I conclude that ncbeareatingman tip is valid. It did help.

So yesterday, I started to listen to stage 3. Before going to bed, I got a tinder match and a second one this morning. Is it manifestation? maybe idk... but I love those coincidences. but they don't look like interesting matches... Sometimes, I wonder on the second look... Did I REALLY like that girl...

This morning I went to the gym. There was 4 girls... including the yoga shy girl that I did talk about something like 1 month ago. She was travelling for her vacation in Europe. Before she left, I had a crush on that girl... Oh boy... So much thing did happen during her absence.... I didn't felt anything to see her again... She still is very shy and reserved... I did talk a bit to her... and I felt nothing...

I did exchange some smiles with the coach... Last time that I did mention her in this journal, she was a bit bitchy... Today she was really nice.

I did banter a little bit with the blonde girl working out beside me.

All in all... nothing striking did happen on day 1 yet... but my energy level is still low and I feel that my overall enjoyment is taking a toll because of that... This might be a factor...

Lets keep going and lets wait to see what is next...

Stage 3, day 15:

Not much to tell so far during stage 3. It is mostly family vacation which isn't very conclusive for new adventures. One last vacation week then the kids return back to school which should mark the return of more frequent flirting for me...

with the exception of today. I went to the gym during lunch time. We were 2 guys and 3 women. Among them a very sexy black girl (another one. not the one that I have been talking about not so long ago).

Black girl was working out right beside me and at some point, I did something that was at the same time, totally automatic and also out of my usual behavior. I did enter into her personal space to go at the other side of the gym to grab some more weights... I did look at her in the eyes and I did say some casual totally random shit but said with some bedroom voice as if in fact I was telling her something really dirty.... She did giggle and did pick the vibe...

In fact after the workout... She was lingering in the gym looking into her phone as if she was waiting for me to finish as well... I did talk a little bit with her... I told her goodbye, went into the gym lobby to check my phone as well... then she follows me in the lobby and still linger in front of me reading some random shit posted on a door... as if she was making herself available for more interaction with me...

that was interesting experience... the first surprise since stage 3 started...

Stage 3, day 16:

This morning I had an appointment with a new professional. I had the strong impression that both the receptionist and the female professional with whom I have spend 1 hour in her office were both into me. Both were cute and doable.

1. Pretty convinced that the feeling was accurate.
2. This knowledge is helping to act even more sexier.

I didn't pull the trigger but I did just enjoy this interesting situation.

Stage 3, day 20:

I'm travelling therefore my listening setup during night is slightly different. Speakers were on the night table about 10 inches away from my head.

I'm not sure if this had an incidence but in the morning I made an erotic dream. It was really dirty. It involved public sex, orgy like number of participants and I have surprised myself performing sexual acts that I normally have zero interest in doing. Let me explain the last point. I wasn't seeing what I was doing until the time to pull out arrived only to find out that I was doing anal on a girl...

Such dreams are quite rare and always welcome when they happen... Beside that, I have not much to report in terms of real interactions. I'm in the final week of family vacation. Not really in a position to experiment with the magnet.

However, yesterday we were in a fast food restaurant/ice cream joint and I have been amazed by the amount of young attractive women that I have seen pass by while I was there. I have seen literally dozens and dozens of hot young women to a point where it was ridiculous. It is either a) We did stop in a city where the hot girls ratio is incredibly high or b) The SM3 manifestation module is working in high gear...

Stage 3, day 21:

I went do crossfit in a gym where I currently am as what they call a 'drop-in'.

As I come in the gym, there is 1 dude and 2 very fit girls. Everyone is very warm to me. I notice that the 2 girls are smiling a lot at me. One is even qualifying to me. By telling me that she is a coach. Participated to the regional competition and the she knows the owner of my gym.

Next, the class that I register has only 2 athletes. Me and another girl. I tease and flirt the girl all along the class. The coach says that usually the 4 0'clock class is usually filled with nurses and teachers but probably because it is summer none did show up (damn!).

At the end, I talk with girl that I did work out with about about how taking a fresh drink and relaxing after a hard workout was the best way to have a huge amount of pleasure. She did giggle and hinted that she did know at least 1 better way to have pleasure... I'm pretty sure that she had sex in mind and she did look disappointed when I told her that I was leaving the next day.

I didn't push it since I knew that I had no free time to spend with her but it is a very good feeling that hook-ups can be as easy as picking a low hanging fruit...

Stage 3, day 22:

I had a family lunch. I met my nephew new gf. She is very hot and very young. Something like 21 or so. She is obviously in the no-go zone but I cannot help but wondering if the SM is having an effect on her and if she, at least, entertain the idea of how it would feel like having sex with me... nevermind... I need to get rid of those dirty thoughts... Somehow, she was very often close to me making talking to her the obvious thing to do. At lunch she even did choose to sit in front of me at the table.

Beside that, tinder lunch date girl did text me. It appears that she wants to meet me to have wild fun together. I'm surprised of the long lasting effect that I have on her. Maybe it is SM3 induced effect. Some PUA/dating coaches say that in order to cement a FWB relation, you need to hook up about 3 times. We did only hook up once...

I had to turn her second invitation down because of my kidney pain problem and low energy back then. I though that she might have move on to have her needs fulfilled by someone else especially after about 3 weeks without contacting each other... Apparently she still think about me. That is great news because I do think about her too and I'm about to become available again for some fun encounters...

Stage 3, day 23:

Manifestation module is definitely working well in this program. I went in a restaurant for dinner and again within less than 10 minutes after the arrival, at least 3 very hot women did find themselves around me.

Also some more thoughts about the whole experience. I feel that my attitude toward sexuality has changed since the beginning of the program. I'm a guy who thinks a lot. Weight in the pros and cons before pulling the trigger. Of course, as I'm getting older with more experience, the list of cons is growing and this inner dialogue is very often paralyzing. Of course, if you start seeing too far ahead and think about all the ways shit could happen, this is not very useful. It is much better to shut that off completely and just enjoy the present without worrying uselessly.

I feel like I'm retrieving the attitude that I had when I was a young adult. Women appeal is again only pleasures with no worries. It is like I'm retrieving the innocence that I once had. This effect is a really cool mind reprogramming thing...

Finally, I though that it was unambiguous that the type of relation between tinder lunch time hook up girl and me was exclusively casual. She did mention her desire to have me sleep over her place and prepare me breakfast the morning after. This did turn on a warning light in the back of my mind as that tells me that she hopes for more... I'll have to set her expectation right next time I see her....

Stage 3, day 24:

I start to be really indifferent about outcomes with women. For instance, tinder girl texted me yesterday afternoon. I know that conventional wisdom is to wait a little bit before replying back. I did 2 things.

1. I just did remove messaging notifications from my phone. So it means, that I'm going to reply only when I think looking if I did receive new messages.
2. When I saw her reply, I wanted to reply back a bit later because I was busy but I didn't stop to push back the moment that I reply.

I ended up replying back only this morning.

Another interesting realization. PUA coaches teach a method called push/pull. I just realize that women do use it too. She tease me with the possibility of sex. I bite to the hook, then pull back the invitation. I suppose the idea is to set the frame where the target is now chasing.

It is the second time that this specific girl propose a date then the proposal is jeopardised by her periods that appears to come earlier than expected... or maybe not... she puts me on standby.

idk what is being a woman and how to manage periods but I find it a bit suspicious that this problem happens 2 times in a row and I wonder how is it that she waited the very last moment to invite me knowing that doing it now.. this problem could come...

That being said. This issue is something that is outside of my control. This type of situation, while under control, used to frustrate me... This time around... I feel nothing. It is total indifference... There is also no resentment for the apparent attempt to manipulate. It is simply the human and/or female nature. You have to accept how things are...

The text exchange went like this:

her: Saturday evening or Sunday evening
Me: Sunday
Her (this morning): You know I don't mind if we meet tonight or tomorrow
Me: Tomorrow is perfect for me.
Her: My periods may start earlier than expected this month. I'll update you tomorrow if we can meet

I didn't reply back... Another option is that she did tried to put pressure on me to finally make me change my mind and accept to see her tonight...

This feel really Alpha. I made my mind.. and no matter what she throws at me. I don't flinch.

The funny thing is that I have been in similar situation before. I didn't react exactly the same way and I ended up losing her interest. I was demonstrating more empathy. Saying stuff like: no worries. I understand and such...

Now, I'm just 100% indifferent and non-reactive... I just don't care about the outcome... I'll report back how things go.... but I suspect that my current hard to get behavior is probably spiking her interest even more into me....

My behavioral changes which are effortless btw, are very interesting to observe... very very interesting... I really enjoy SM3 a lot....

As a final side note... I'm very eager to to see the new DMSI version released... Not that I'm eager to try it myself. I'm still commited to SM3 for another 3 months but it seems like the only active journals are either for LTU and UMS... I'm sure the journey of these participants is awesome as well but I would enjoy more reading stories/challenges/changes from others that are similar to what I currently experience.... Some variety would be good for the reading pleasure of all....