11-25-2011, 10:37 PM
good to know shannon! I've never used subs so much in the past so I've never really dealt with these problems.
a bit more updates for my journals
I went back home for thanksgiving and have been seeing family and friends this past week. Many of the people I saw I haven't seen in a long time. With my family, as an INTJ, I tend to prefer listening to them talking instead of interjecting, but it seems like I'm more willing to talk more these days. This could just be due to my not having seen them for a while. I also voice my opinions more on a few situations, whereas in the past I would just agree with what my father would remark about something.
I went shopping with my friend last night for black friday. We went to walmart first in hopes of some cheap goods, but ended having to wait 2 hours in line for checkout. I didn't find anything I needed to buy so I ended up waiting with my friend in line for his stuff. Note that this is a guy friend, who I've been friends with since middle school. I didn't mind at all having to do this since it's been a while that we talked. Not sure what an alpha would've done in this situation, but I value our friendship.
As we were shopping I noticed something, that I was following him when we went around the store at certain points. I didn't feel like taking the lead, it was a pain, and I didn't want to lead them to places they didn't care about or what not. It was a lot of responsibility and work for little return. If I was with a girl instead in the situation, or if there were girls with us, I most likely would've cared more and would've led. Thinking back, I should not care about what others would think of my leading. Leading would be a waste of effort should've been my only reason.
I've been getting more and more into the idea of analyzing other's behaviors lately, especially because of my encounter at the mall in the previous post. It's also very alpha to objectively analyze how others interact with me instead of analyzing how my actions will affect me. I'm looking for some books on this type of thing if anyone has some recommendations.
thanks again for reading my journal!
Aside from the above not too much to note, especially since I missed 2 days because my player failed to loop.
a bit more updates for my journals
I went back home for thanksgiving and have been seeing family and friends this past week. Many of the people I saw I haven't seen in a long time. With my family, as an INTJ, I tend to prefer listening to them talking instead of interjecting, but it seems like I'm more willing to talk more these days. This could just be due to my not having seen them for a while. I also voice my opinions more on a few situations, whereas in the past I would just agree with what my father would remark about something.
I went shopping with my friend last night for black friday. We went to walmart first in hopes of some cheap goods, but ended having to wait 2 hours in line for checkout. I didn't find anything I needed to buy so I ended up waiting with my friend in line for his stuff. Note that this is a guy friend, who I've been friends with since middle school. I didn't mind at all having to do this since it's been a while that we talked. Not sure what an alpha would've done in this situation, but I value our friendship.
As we were shopping I noticed something, that I was following him when we went around the store at certain points. I didn't feel like taking the lead, it was a pain, and I didn't want to lead them to places they didn't care about or what not. It was a lot of responsibility and work for little return. If I was with a girl instead in the situation, or if there were girls with us, I most likely would've cared more and would've led. Thinking back, I should not care about what others would think of my leading. Leading would be a waste of effort should've been my only reason.
I've been getting more and more into the idea of analyzing other's behaviors lately, especially because of my encounter at the mall in the previous post. It's also very alpha to objectively analyze how others interact with me instead of analyzing how my actions will affect me. I'm looking for some books on this type of thing if anyone has some recommendations.
thanks again for reading my journal!
Aside from the above not too much to note, especially since I missed 2 days because my player failed to loop.
