smash is a natural alpha

[Cortez]

I've had a tendency to hold a lot of tragedy inside over the years to try and be strong for everyone else. My tears came the other night when me and one of my best friends were out until 4 in the morning drinking. We were sitting on my back patio, just having a very real conversation about all the things that have wounded us and all of our pain just came out. I'm grateful to have a friend like that. I think we both really needed to vent. It sure cleaned me out emotionally.