01-17-2019, 07:52 AM
Haven't posted much in a while, so these may be my last posted observations before 3.3.1 lands:
- Work productivity and creativity is still flowing. I'm tackling formerly daunting tasks at work that I wasn't sure were possible (despite having done many "impossible" things throughout my career) or within my capabilities in a matter of minutes/hours, and I'm seeing opportunities and solutions (that were formerly not even on my radar) with ease. Opening one not-quite-impossible door often led to solving others beyond it, ones that couldn't even become not-quite-impossible until after the first door was opened. Haven't been this inspired in at least a year. Setbacks haven't really been setting me back as much as they've given me something learn from, adapt to, build on, and expand from. The only downside is that I keep discovering more opportunities for enhancement before its parents and grandparents can be put into production use. When the changes finally see the light of day, it'll be a sea change, not just a facelift.
- Had a week of moodiness last week. Otherwise, I haven't had an unpleasant mood that lasted more than a day long. But there haven't been many of those. Not that there have been an abundance of joyful days either, but there have been some. Mood-wise, my best comparison would be how I'd felt on E1, as the highs and lows on E1 were more pronounced for me than on E2 or other IML subs. It's mostly been a lot of emotional neutrality with the occasional-but-strong positive peak or negative trough.
- Noticed that wintertime affects my progress. Last week's moodiness seemed very much synchronized to signals from my body that I was both 1) dehydrated and 2) low in water soluble vitamins (notably, vitamin C). These are seasonal deficits, not DMSI-induced. My daily routines are fairly consistent, but I do run low on supply in certain areas at this time of year, possibly due to increased demand. My body's very clear (in physically visible and tangible ways that others can see) about when each of these things is lacking and is very responsive when balance has been restored. This year, I noticed, for the first time, that my thought processes (emotions included) are also influenced by these seasonal shortages and improve greatly when they've been replenished.
- Tinnitus has been noticeably reduced for me during 3.3. I should clarify that the subs have not been responsible for my tinnitus, as I have night-time jaw-clenching issues and typically wear splints to minimize the symptoms, only one of which is tinnitus. Symptom-wise, only tinnitus has improved, suggesting that the tinnitus-suppressing module in the sub (rather than reduction of any fear and stress that might induce clenching) may be able to claim some credit.
- Joking more, unintentionally. This strikes me as an indication that I'm having a little bit more fun than I've had in a while.
- A third of my primary goals of DMSI are still barely anywhere to be found, so far. By that, I mean as far as my attention to its main goals go, not by measuring how often I'm being hit on, IOIs, lay count, or similar popular measuring sticks that others seem to be using. And I'm definitely executing, changing in leaps and bounds daily. But, focus-wise, it feels more like I'm executing 5.5G than 3.3-D. There's a difference between feeling like I'm sexy and feeling like others think that I'm sexy, and, while others may or may not see the distinction, I've spent a good portion of my life feeling a satisfying amount of the latter while experiencing very little of the former. To be clear: This is simply a report of my 3.3 run so far, not a criticism of DMSI, and I fully understand that most DMSI users prioritize external sexual response above internal sexual self-image. It takes as long as it takes, what's in my way sets the pace, I'm enjoying the scenery along the way, and 3.3.1 may change the entire landscape yet again. But, having said all of that, from a purely conscious perspective, you could tell me that I've been running USLM4 or E3 for all of this time, and the visible changes could make at least as much sense to me as they do as the result of DMSI. For me, previous versions of DMSI have brought sexual thoughts to mind a lot more often than 3.3 has.
