06-09-2017, 01:41 PM
Got five numbers from Tinder in the past 3-4 days. Feel very unmotivated in pursuing them, however. Not sure if it's resistance or if I'm just not that attracted to them. Either way, had a huge realization this morning.
I haven't been posting nearly as much on the forum. Not because I've "outgrown" the community or some other nonsense. I was thinking that I didn't have anything new to present, so I just didn't. Then it dawned on me -- there's never been a time in my life when I was juggling five different women. This problem that I have right now -- so many choices that I'm starting to shut down? That's a new phenomenon. And the other things that happen on a day-to-day basis now -- women constantly smiling at me and acting giddy when I come around. Touching their lips when I speak to them. Sneaking glances at them when they think I can't see. All new phenomenons. However... they seem so natural that I didn't bother to post. It didn't hit me until this morning just how much I've changed from when I started the DMSI journey. Hell, how much I've changed since I started v3.1.
It feels like v3.1 is finally picking up momentum, especially with me blasting my subconscious with 4-7 loops of v3.1a each night. It's BRUTAL on my emotions and psyche, but it's causing so much DEEP identity level change that I'm willing to endure it.
In regards to attraction, I've been following RTBoss's model -- stop fighting the subconscious. There are times when I've said things to women that I thought was "beta," only to see their attraction skyrocket later. I don't know if it's the vulnerability, the boldness in opening up without fear of being hurt or what -- but it's been working. To me, this is proof of the "subconscious knowing things" programming, because it's stuff I'd NEVER say consciously. Now, I'm not professing my love or anything like that, but just... letting my usually high guard down. I went to dinner with the chick from the Muay Thai gym. She was one of the people I opened up to a little bit. First, she complimented me on my manners (which normally, I straight up ignored, but the sub was urging me to show that I at least had them). After our conversation, I caught her looking at me with those weird, "I'm falling for you" glazed eyes and awestruck grin and she told me that I was her "loveable jerk." I'm assuming the sub is adjusting my behavior to show just enough "alpha" and "beta" qualities for her to soften her guard and believe that I'm high status, but attainable.
Interesting.
Yesterday, my manager told me that I was doing absolutely amazing -- so well that she didn't even want to do a 90-day review. No need. Said she appreciated how I hit the ground running from day one and my insights are shaping how the company thinks. There's the ultra success kicking in, among other things. I actually thought my performance was so-so, but I guess that's just me being hard on myself.
Gonna keep running these high loops for at least 2 more weeks. Then onward to MLS. I want to get the clearing surrounding cognitive ability from that one.
I haven't been posting nearly as much on the forum. Not because I've "outgrown" the community or some other nonsense. I was thinking that I didn't have anything new to present, so I just didn't. Then it dawned on me -- there's never been a time in my life when I was juggling five different women. This problem that I have right now -- so many choices that I'm starting to shut down? That's a new phenomenon. And the other things that happen on a day-to-day basis now -- women constantly smiling at me and acting giddy when I come around. Touching their lips when I speak to them. Sneaking glances at them when they think I can't see. All new phenomenons. However... they seem so natural that I didn't bother to post. It didn't hit me until this morning just how much I've changed from when I started the DMSI journey. Hell, how much I've changed since I started v3.1.
It feels like v3.1 is finally picking up momentum, especially with me blasting my subconscious with 4-7 loops of v3.1a each night. It's BRUTAL on my emotions and psyche, but it's causing so much DEEP identity level change that I'm willing to endure it.
In regards to attraction, I've been following RTBoss's model -- stop fighting the subconscious. There are times when I've said things to women that I thought was "beta," only to see their attraction skyrocket later. I don't know if it's the vulnerability, the boldness in opening up without fear of being hurt or what -- but it's been working. To me, this is proof of the "subconscious knowing things" programming, because it's stuff I'd NEVER say consciously. Now, I'm not professing my love or anything like that, but just... letting my usually high guard down. I went to dinner with the chick from the Muay Thai gym. She was one of the people I opened up to a little bit. First, she complimented me on my manners (which normally, I straight up ignored, but the sub was urging me to show that I at least had them). After our conversation, I caught her looking at me with those weird, "I'm falling for you" glazed eyes and awestruck grin and she told me that I was her "loveable jerk." I'm assuming the sub is adjusting my behavior to show just enough "alpha" and "beta" qualities for her to soften her guard and believe that I'm high status, but attainable.
Interesting.
Yesterday, my manager told me that I was doing absolutely amazing -- so well that she didn't even want to do a 90-day review. No need. Said she appreciated how I hit the ground running from day one and my insights are shaping how the company thinks. There's the ultra success kicking in, among other things. I actually thought my performance was so-so, but I guess that's just me being hard on myself.
Gonna keep running these high loops for at least 2 more weeks. Then onward to MLS. I want to get the clearing surrounding cognitive ability from that one.
