03-19-2017, 08:47 AM
Day 19:
Short note.
Unbelievably profound sense of inadequacy and shame rising. Came out of nowhere. I can barely function. Just want to crawl into bed and stay there all day.
Went out to grab some food. Same IOI's from women. Young cashier at Taco Bell looked very uncomfortable (in a, I'm so attracted to you way) by my mere presence. Was babbling over her words and stuff. Wasn't in the mood to act on them. I feel terrible.
Regardless of what happens with women this time around, I'm just glad that I'm finally getting the chance to purge all of these negative beliefs and thoughts that's been holding me back for so long.
There's something different about the way this healing feels. It's like I'm being cleared at the ego / identity level.
Short note.
Unbelievably profound sense of inadequacy and shame rising. Came out of nowhere. I can barely function. Just want to crawl into bed and stay there all day.
Went out to grab some food. Same IOI's from women. Young cashier at Taco Bell looked very uncomfortable (in a, I'm so attracted to you way) by my mere presence. Was babbling over her words and stuff. Wasn't in the mood to act on them. I feel terrible.
Regardless of what happens with women this time around, I'm just glad that I'm finally getting the chance to purge all of these negative beliefs and thoughts that's been holding me back for so long.
There's something different about the way this healing feels. It's like I'm being cleared at the ego / identity level.
