Day 7:
Tired. So very tired. And hungry all the time. Maybe I'm turning into a zombie. Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. I had a resistance headache from literally the time I got up until the time I went to bed. Making things worse, I overdid it with the martial arts training and royally f*cked my neck up, so I was in terrible pain for the ENTIRE day.
On the flipside, women are being so f*cking nice to me. Smiles. Glowing smiles. Slipping up and calling me pet names. Accidentally touching my hand. Showing genuine care on a level I didn't think was possible. This attraction seems so... different than before. It's primal, but not animalistic. It reminds me a bit of Xist pheromone. Kinda like she's thinking, "I could so just melt into your arms for an eternity after you bang me into oblivion."
It feels like they're craving intimacy from you in some form or fashion -- ANY form or fashion. They're giving me constant eye contact and it's soft and loving. Very seductive. I'm becoming aware that everything about the female form seems to be designed by nature to attract men, because everything about the women I'm attracted to seems to bring out this deep primal lust. That's something I haven't experienced in a LOOONG time.
Shannon wasn't lying when he said he expanded the healing. I'm curious what the new parameters are, because I'm finding myself responding to the clearing in very interesting ways.
In fact, I'm being much more emotionally open toward people. I reconnected with an old female friend and we talked about how much we missed each other. I'm not even going to pretend like I haven't missed her -- we spent A LOT of time together in California, but my emotional issues kept us from ever becoming a thing. In the past, I'd be worried too much about appearing "alpha" to have a convo like this. It's like I don't give a sh*t now, because there will always be another one to come along.
The reality bending is no joke: I've spent days in a sense of confusion because I don't know who I am anymore. Things I'd normally react to, things that would trigger me, don't. I feel like I'm being dragged toward a reality where I am the sexiest, most successful man in existence.
Shannon definitely snuck "Everything is Possible," or something like that in here, because many of my internal limits have begun to melt away. Things I thought I'd never do, I'm doing. Even when I'm training, I find myself pushing harder and harder and harder. That's how I got in the situation I'm in now with the f*cked up neck. I did three classes back to back: Brazilian Jiu-Jutsu, Muay Thai and then boxing. Three hours of intense training... and no MHS to heal me.
The dreams on this thing are absolutely surreal and nonsensical. A few have felt very menancing, but not physically. Like... my soul was in trouble or something.
Anyway, I've collected quite a few Tinder numbers. Gonna see how this plays out.
Tired. So very tired. And hungry all the time. Maybe I'm turning into a zombie. Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. I had a resistance headache from literally the time I got up until the time I went to bed. Making things worse, I overdid it with the martial arts training and royally f*cked my neck up, so I was in terrible pain for the ENTIRE day.
On the flipside, women are being so f*cking nice to me. Smiles. Glowing smiles. Slipping up and calling me pet names. Accidentally touching my hand. Showing genuine care on a level I didn't think was possible. This attraction seems so... different than before. It's primal, but not animalistic. It reminds me a bit of Xist pheromone. Kinda like she's thinking, "I could so just melt into your arms for an eternity after you bang me into oblivion."
It feels like they're craving intimacy from you in some form or fashion -- ANY form or fashion. They're giving me constant eye contact and it's soft and loving. Very seductive. I'm becoming aware that everything about the female form seems to be designed by nature to attract men, because everything about the women I'm attracted to seems to bring out this deep primal lust. That's something I haven't experienced in a LOOONG time.
Shannon wasn't lying when he said he expanded the healing. I'm curious what the new parameters are, because I'm finding myself responding to the clearing in very interesting ways.
In fact, I'm being much more emotionally open toward people. I reconnected with an old female friend and we talked about how much we missed each other. I'm not even going to pretend like I haven't missed her -- we spent A LOT of time together in California, but my emotional issues kept us from ever becoming a thing. In the past, I'd be worried too much about appearing "alpha" to have a convo like this. It's like I don't give a sh*t now, because there will always be another one to come along.
The reality bending is no joke: I've spent days in a sense of confusion because I don't know who I am anymore. Things I'd normally react to, things that would trigger me, don't. I feel like I'm being dragged toward a reality where I am the sexiest, most successful man in existence.
Shannon definitely snuck "Everything is Possible," or something like that in here, because many of my internal limits have begun to melt away. Things I thought I'd never do, I'm doing. Even when I'm training, I find myself pushing harder and harder and harder. That's how I got in the situation I'm in now with the f*cked up neck. I did three classes back to back: Brazilian Jiu-Jutsu, Muay Thai and then boxing. Three hours of intense training... and no MHS to heal me.
The dreams on this thing are absolutely surreal and nonsensical. A few have felt very menancing, but not physically. Like... my soul was in trouble or something.
Anyway, I've collected quite a few Tinder numbers. Gonna see how this plays out.
