Woceyes AM round 2

[woceyes]

Thanks Rainbow. I wasn't trying to be defensive with you after sex magnet. What you had said to me back then. I knew it was true but didn't want to believe it. After all this time since sex magnet and now. I have figured out i don't just want sex, i want something more. So WM 2.0 will be my next one to get when i get five hundred dollars.

With that i did dig a lot deeper to find out why exactly after AM 2010. My thoughts and feelings and why I was apprehensive about moving out of my moms house or leaving. It has a lot to do with me being the middle child and only boy in the family for ever till my mom married my step dad ten years ago. I always felt left out and not as important as my sisters. So when my younger one moved out i had my chance as stupid as it sounds, to try to reclaim what i thought was never there. I realized that its not true, and I can't let that hold me back. I am still struggling with existential thoughts, to try to pick a career i would like and stick with it. I want to learn as much as i possibly can. I think what ultimately scares me though is being at a mundane job doing the same crap every day for the rest of my life.

I can feel the power Am 5.0 has I have been so tired this whole week. Also had some weird dreams but i like it. I have been in a "whatever" state these past months and my dreams have been rather bland till Am that is. Also not sure if all the programs or just sex magnet but i still have a lot of older women chasing me and trying to pounce me with there cougar skills. Maybe I flirt to much