02-09-2020, 01:29 PM
Seriously, it's like I get really, really excited about something/things in general, and then an hour or two later I'll be all like "blaaaaah, deeeeerp, let's not, that's stupid, you're stupid and worthless, there's no point, you're gonna fail and even if you don't, people are going to make you fail, blaaaah", and it's accompanied by a dark sensation coming from somewhere in my stomach, a bit to the right side, and it's going outward, circling the liver, and a little bit under my ribs on the right side, sometimes including the heart. That root thing in the perineum seems to have been fixed for now, so I guess it is progress, but now something different is being worked on. Seems like it's very much related to self-esteem and self-confidence. It's really, really annoying though.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
