02-02-2020, 05:37 PM
Heh. Had a dream that pointed towards the roots of that "fear of social betrayal". It's like I'm beginning to get the hang of it: notice a trigger, clean whatever pops out "in-the-moment" (so currently, in the temporal now, emotions etc.), think on it a bit, look for possible repression of something, et voila.
Heh. As creepy uncle Lacan said in that Seminar XI thingy, following Kierkegaard's lead: "anxiety does not lie". Anything of this sort pops up, *pay attention because it's important*, lol.
I think I'll switch to the Ocean-Surf/Silent Hybrid track, for variety's sake. Actually did it for the final loops of DMSI tonight, and it felt nice. Now DRSing (I think I'll keep the DRS on the Trickling Stream track).
Packing up tonight and going on tour out of town until Thursday, then finishing it up on Friday, and then I'm going to sing at people pretending I know how to teach them anything in the evening (as per standard "I am THE MAESTRO" practice of vocal education, in my personal experience, lol). I actually do have some funky tricks, but, I dunno, they're kinda related to my Sorcirer practice and *not* for public consumption.
Perhaps private tutoring for mucho potato, then I guess I could use them to help someone out because I could control the spread. Wouldn't want some MAESTRO stealing it away or something, because fuck those guys.
Heh. As creepy uncle Lacan said in that Seminar XI thingy, following Kierkegaard's lead: "anxiety does not lie". Anything of this sort pops up, *pay attention because it's important*, lol.
I think I'll switch to the Ocean-Surf/Silent Hybrid track, for variety's sake. Actually did it for the final loops of DMSI tonight, and it felt nice. Now DRSing (I think I'll keep the DRS on the Trickling Stream track).
Packing up tonight and going on tour out of town until Thursday, then finishing it up on Friday, and then I'm going to sing at people pretending I know how to teach them anything in the evening (as per standard "I am THE MAESTRO" practice of vocal education, in my personal experience, lol). I actually do have some funky tricks, but, I dunno, they're kinda related to my Sorcirer practice and *not* for public consumption.
Perhaps private tutoring for mucho potato, then I guess I could use them to help someone out because I could control the spread. Wouldn't want some MAESTRO stealing it away or something, because fuck those guys.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
