01-30-2020, 01:35 AM
Back to DMSIng after the 4-day break. So we're looping from today on until next Friday. I'm touring again all week. Won't be able to do more than 4 loops from Monday on, but I'm using the time I have now to do 8, lol. I've also suddenly decided to go waaaay down with the volume (it's very, very low right now, foobar says -40dB or thereabouts; fret not, I can hear it all clearly, as I'm using the hybrid with headphones, lol), and I think it was the right call. Still DRSing with the best of them as well.
Bad news is, I'm gonna have to be careful with that "G" woman. She's: a) definitely trying to set me up with "E", in lieu of setting herself up with me, b) she's hell-bent on "helping me" even though I don't really want to be "helped" in certain aspects - basically, she's got *tons* of personal issues going on, including an asshole partner (like, totally. Textbook sonny manipulator type of dude) and an 8 y-o who's just been diagnosed with depression (no wonder, TBH, from what I've seen), and she's trying to "help" others in order not to have to deal with her own shite. So yeah, careful with that one (and, I'm sorry to say, she's going to DRS herself if she keeps at it). As well as with "E" - I feel for her, as her husband looks to be quite the asshole as well, but still. It's like the late Lemmy Kilmister once said in a one-off "ASK LEMMY" TV show type of thing where people sent in letters asking him for life advice: "You know what, I wish you all the best but actually, I don't give a shit about your problems because I have my own so *don't* write in, and see you next week"
( or something to that extent, I'll look it up on youtube and maybe link it here, it was hilarious). Otherwise, the professional/friendly relationship is worthy of maintaining and I'm supposed to teach a class in her stead next week. This I can do - the woman needs more time to spend with her daughter, and I'll be getting paid, so, it's a win-win! Hadn't ever done anything of the sort, but, to hear her say, all the people there love me, so I guess I'll just wing it until I come up with something that works, lol.
On that front, I kinda overspent my potatoes this month! It's nothing drastic (because I've got potato incoming), but it's a reminder to not do that. Also, given that self-love thing, I am frankly starting to believe that it's due to a lack of self-care and attention to one's own needs why I've done so. Had *tons* of ideas and thoughts regarding that self-love thing this past week in many other aspects and areas as well (the point being: it's pretty important!). I found myself asking: "Is this really how much I care about myself? Shouldn't I care about my own well-being and security a touch more?". Lol. This applies to pretty much everything: sex, romance, professional stuff, finances.
Also finally pin-pointed the crux of what I was afraid of after that entire SLA thing (by the way, apart from sending egotic hating my way, she's still trying to psych-sed me as far as I can tell, lol. Won't work, love. Should be interesting to see how that's going to pan out given the DRS); and now I know what to call it even: let's call it "social betrayal", which I've had happen a great many times, lol. I'll spare you my Freudo-Lacanian take on the matter for now, but it's a thing, heh.
Hot Lacanian action was fun, but none of my sexy MILFs were in attendance again.
I also believe that some of our friendly Lacanians were a bit salty because I apparently out-Lacaned them, re: "foxy psychotherapist". I guess my trolling of her + the DRS working its magic, and now they've noticed that this girl has *serious problems* and maybe now they'll do something about it, lol. The MILFs should be making an appearance soon enough as well, I bet! Apart from that, got an invite from that dancer girl with "dat ass" to join some sort of body-movement class yet again, and I think I'll bite, should be fun and educational. Have a little b-day party to attend tomorrow as well.
I am getting these moments when I feel very uplifted and "complete". Very wholesome! They come and they go, but when they come, it's *glorious*.
I have more, I guess, but that's all I'm going to write here for now.
Bad news is, I'm gonna have to be careful with that "G" woman. She's: a) definitely trying to set me up with "E", in lieu of setting herself up with me, b) she's hell-bent on "helping me" even though I don't really want to be "helped" in certain aspects - basically, she's got *tons* of personal issues going on, including an asshole partner (like, totally. Textbook sonny manipulator type of dude) and an 8 y-o who's just been diagnosed with depression (no wonder, TBH, from what I've seen), and she's trying to "help" others in order not to have to deal with her own shite. So yeah, careful with that one (and, I'm sorry to say, she's going to DRS herself if she keeps at it). As well as with "E" - I feel for her, as her husband looks to be quite the asshole as well, but still. It's like the late Lemmy Kilmister once said in a one-off "ASK LEMMY" TV show type of thing where people sent in letters asking him for life advice: "You know what, I wish you all the best but actually, I don't give a shit about your problems because I have my own so *don't* write in, and see you next week"
( or something to that extent, I'll look it up on youtube and maybe link it here, it was hilarious). Otherwise, the professional/friendly relationship is worthy of maintaining and I'm supposed to teach a class in her stead next week. This I can do - the woman needs more time to spend with her daughter, and I'll be getting paid, so, it's a win-win! Hadn't ever done anything of the sort, but, to hear her say, all the people there love me, so I guess I'll just wing it until I come up with something that works, lol.On that front, I kinda overspent my potatoes this month! It's nothing drastic (because I've got potato incoming), but it's a reminder to not do that. Also, given that self-love thing, I am frankly starting to believe that it's due to a lack of self-care and attention to one's own needs why I've done so. Had *tons* of ideas and thoughts regarding that self-love thing this past week in many other aspects and areas as well (the point being: it's pretty important!
). I found myself asking: "Is this really how much I care about myself? Shouldn't I care about my own well-being and security a touch more?". Lol. This applies to pretty much everything: sex, romance, professional stuff, finances.Also finally pin-pointed the crux of what I was afraid of after that entire SLA thing (by the way, apart from sending egotic hating my way, she's still trying to psych-sed me as far as I can tell, lol. Won't work, love. Should be interesting to see how that's going to pan out given the DRS); and now I know what to call it even: let's call it "social betrayal", which I've had happen a great many times, lol. I'll spare you my Freudo-Lacanian take on the matter for now, but it's a thing, heh.
Hot Lacanian action was fun, but none of my sexy MILFs were in attendance again.
I also believe that some of our friendly Lacanians were a bit salty because I apparently out-Lacaned them, re: "foxy psychotherapist". I guess my trolling of her + the DRS working its magic, and now they've noticed that this girl has *serious problems* and maybe now they'll do something about it, lol. The MILFs should be making an appearance soon enough as well, I bet! Apart from that, got an invite from that dancer girl with "dat ass" to join some sort of body-movement class yet again, and I think I'll bite, should be fun and educational. Have a little b-day party to attend tomorrow as well.I am getting these moments when I feel very uplifted and "complete". Very wholesome! They come and they go, but when they come, it's *glorious*.
I have more, I guess, but that's all I'm going to write here for now.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
