12-01-2019, 10:48 AM
Funny. It would appear that now that some of that fear stuff got removed, now I can pretty palpably feel, I dunno, "energetic wounds"/"auric wounds" - it feels like an open wound, but it's not physical obviously, and they're in the physical heart area as well as the liver area. These tend to be directly related to emotions and such, but it's best to be rid of them to avoid physical complications related to that as well (I mean, we wouldn't want me to go and bork out with liver failure or a heart attack before 50, now would we 
). When I'm actively listening to DMSI, there are moments when these are filling up with something light, and it's very pleasant. In the spirit of full disclosure, I am actively working on healing 'em up in other ways as well apart from running the sub.
It's a different sensation than when these swell up with fear or some negative crap, because they don't feel "empty" when that happens, just black and unpleasant. Now it feels literally like an open wound.
I dealt with that shite when it was still all the way down my right leg (which feels pretty wholesome by now, actually, sometimes my right knee would act up, but for very short periods of time), so this shouldn't take all that long, y'know.
I actually visited that conservatory place today for shits and giggles today, as it was nearby to where I had that pointless rehearsal dealio, and now I know I was tempted to start avoiding the place to avoid aggravation of these wounds of any sort. So I'll be visiting that place from time to time anyway, as I've been doing for many years now. I *own* it.
Feeling pretty good with all that. Touring out of town from tomorrow until Thursday, packing my DMSI to-go.
). When I'm actively listening to DMSI, there are moments when these are filling up with something light, and it's very pleasant. In the spirit of full disclosure, I am actively working on healing 'em up in other ways as well apart from running the sub.It's a different sensation than when these swell up with fear or some negative crap, because they don't feel "empty" when that happens, just black and unpleasant. Now it feels literally like an open wound.
I dealt with that shite when it was still all the way down my right leg (which feels pretty wholesome by now, actually, sometimes my right knee would act up, but for very short periods of time), so this shouldn't take all that long, y'know.
I actually visited that conservatory place today for shits and giggles today, as it was nearby to where I had that pointless rehearsal dealio, and now I know I was tempted to start avoiding the place to avoid aggravation of these wounds of any sort. So I'll be visiting that place from time to time anyway, as I've been doing for many years now. I *own* it.
Feeling pretty good with all that. Touring out of town from tomorrow until Thursday, packing my DMSI to-go.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
