11-08-2019, 07:08 AM
Crap, my headphones fell off my head as I was listening to my loops during sleep last night. But - not all is lost, as I woke up actually being able to hear the sub pretty clearly but relatively quietly coming from the headphones next to my head. I think some resisty part of me doesn't really like the increased number of loops and volume increase (I was using a lower volume last week, now I'm at -10dB or thereabout as per foobar on headphones, so that's pretty loud); but not *that* much. 
The added immediacy appears to be working (i decided it's time to "turn up the heat" so to speak) as I was still awake during the first loop, and I felt like, a pressure going up to my head, and something very wonky happening on the perineum - liver line; as if something fairly big got kinda "pushed through", a little bit forcibly, perhaps, but still. 
Feeling very good today, albeit I'm physically very tired (my back, shoulders, facial and abdominal muscles need some R&R from all the workouts, alignment correction and bardic practice I've been doing this week). I noticed that some part of me was trying to get uppity during bardic practice today, trying to come up with stuff like "this is crap, that's bad, lol" but it was rather mild, and another part of me was very calm and all "no, it's all good actually, I'm just physically tired after an hour's worth of singing etc., that's par for the course" and such.
It'd be better for my bardic practice if I had the facilities to practice 15-30 minutes every day, just working on the physical-technical stuff, and doing repertoire work on other occasions. Trouble is, I currently have the means to only practice for longer stretches of time every other day, excluding weekends, so I'm kinda forced to do it all at once, lol. It's still neat I have a place to do it regularly, though.
I have a certain suspicion that the current edition of the DMSI sniper is going to work most splendidly, but that it may simply require quite a bit of exposure time depending on the target - I'm noticing that I'm projecting less explicitly sexual "vibes" towards certain responders, it's more like comforting and loving (but still kinky ). So I believe that should there appear a responder who's by nature DTF, so to speak, it's going to get more direct oomph. Other types may take some more time and finessing. It's also funky, because I now intuitively seem to know and sense what particular brand of, shall we say, "romancing" would any particular responder require in order for fun stuff to happen. We'll see about whether this intuition of mine has merit with time, I guess!
It's also why I guess what I call "the heart stuff" had to get cleared out for me, personally, as I can feel the energy vibes being projected from that area as well.
The added immediacy appears to be working (i decided it's time to "turn up the heat" so to speak) as I was still awake during the first loop, and I felt like, a pressure going up to my head, and something very wonky happening on the perineum - liver line; as if something fairly big got kinda "pushed through", a little bit forcibly, perhaps, but still. Feeling very good today, albeit I'm physically very tired (my back, shoulders, facial and abdominal muscles need some R&R from all the workouts, alignment correction and bardic practice I've been doing this week). I noticed that some part of me was trying to get uppity during bardic practice today, trying to come up with stuff like "this is crap, that's bad, lol" but it was rather mild, and another part of me was very calm and all "no, it's all good actually, I'm just physically tired after an hour's worth of singing etc., that's par for the course" and such.
It'd be better for my bardic practice if I had the facilities to practice 15-30 minutes every day, just working on the physical-technical stuff, and doing repertoire work on other occasions. Trouble is, I currently have the means to only practice for longer stretches of time every other day, excluding weekends, so I'm kinda forced to do it all at once, lol. It's still neat I have a place to do it regularly, though.
I have a certain suspicion that the current edition of the DMSI sniper is going to work most splendidly, but that it may simply require quite a bit of exposure time depending on the target - I'm noticing that I'm projecting less explicitly sexual "vibes" towards certain responders, it's more like comforting and loving (but still kinky
). So I believe that should there appear a responder who's by nature DTF, so to speak, it's going to get more direct oomph. Other types may take some more time and finessing. It's also funky, because I now intuitively seem to know and sense what particular brand of, shall we say, "romancing" would any particular responder require in order for fun stuff to happen. We'll see about whether this intuition of mine has merit with time, I guess!It's also why I guess what I call "the heart stuff" had to get cleared out for me, personally, as I can feel the energy vibes being projected from that area as well.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
