11-02-2019, 12:34 PM
Wonkiness, wonkiness to the nth degree!
So, first today I realized something that made me go all "oh, heck yeah, we've got this" (I'll write something more elaborate on this topic at a later date); then I instantly started feeling like total shyte, then I got into an argument with myself, then I started feeling better and better, and then it struck me what *exact* little Oedipal drama designee "foxy psychotherapist" was trying to play out with me back then and it's absolutely terrifying. There's a very good reason the self-persevering part of me decided to cut off the emotional side of me from acting - to keep me from doing something very, very stupid.
No wonder I'd get, like, PTSD symptoms when faced with a similar situation, whoo boy.
THAT WAS CLOSE.
So, first today I realized something that made me go all "oh, heck yeah, we've got this" (I'll write something more elaborate on this topic at a later date); then I instantly started feeling like total shyte, then I got into an argument with myself, then I started feeling better and better, and then it struck me what *exact* little Oedipal drama designee "foxy psychotherapist" was trying to play out with me back then and it's absolutely terrifying. There's a very good reason the self-persevering part of me decided to cut off the emotional side of me from acting - to keep me from doing something very, very stupid.
No wonder I'd get, like, PTSD symptoms when faced with a similar situation, whoo boy.
THAT WAS CLOSE.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
