07-10-2024, 06:10 AM
Day 149,
I've had the desire to get back to dating these last few days.
However, I'm halfway embarrassed to put myself back out there again, which is interesting because I haven't had those feelings for the past 6-7 years since I used to put myself out there.
I will be jumping into OGSF after hitting day 170 on this program.
I'm assuming that the work from this program has removed some superficial layer of guardedness; that's probably what "protected" me from feeling too embarrassed back then. Also, I used to be driven by the desire to get women to prove something to myself and to others. Now, I don't care as much.
I feel that I can be more sincere and candid no matter what.
I've had the desire to get back to dating these last few days.
However, I'm halfway embarrassed to put myself back out there again, which is interesting because I haven't had those feelings for the past 6-7 years since I used to put myself out there.
I will be jumping into OGSF after hitting day 170 on this program.
I'm assuming that the work from this program has removed some superficial layer of guardedness; that's probably what "protected" me from feeling too embarrassed back then. Also, I used to be driven by the desire to get women to prove something to myself and to others. Now, I don't care as much.
I feel that I can be more sincere and candid no matter what.
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