Day 67,
Having issues with my regulatory college and their contradictory feedback to my SMART goal. It matters enough to them that not meeting their deadline means a suspension.
I did submit it on time (so that's not the issue), but I did not see their email from late February, blending in with their other emails about elections and their committees. I only got a phone call reminder yesterday; I got back to them quickly and I have until tomorrow to send a revision/
I don't work in the field, so I didn't have the motivation to do a ton of professional development work, but it fueled a fire under my haunches. I'm reading the books I pledged to read.
I wrote feedback to their feedback, and how meeting that feedback involves a major contradiction, barring a misunderstanding of the terms they've used (and I reviewed those terms many times). And their criteria - as worded - is impossible to meet for a non-practicing practitioner (being non-practicing is not against the rules, but it's more difficult to demonstrate an improvement in your learning, because you don't apply it day-to-day).
I'm going to revamp my goal to be as stellar as possible; getting that done tonight.
Had a very strange dream last night, where I was back to being a 12-15 year old boy on a school field trip with classmates; we went to this dock/pier, and it was later at night. Buses full of terrorists rolled up and rounded up our classmates, executing us assassination style. I work my way out of a situation, slip away and get to safety. I don't know what happened afterward, but I didn't have the instinct to get help; only to save myself. When I woke up, I realize how foolish that was, and that I was thinking selfishly, and that my thinking would lead to needless deaths among my friends. Even so, it's weren't my fault that these dream-world terrorists were killing us!
Woke up very drowsy and tired, having to fight to get out of bed and not fall back asleep, after enough sleep.
Having issues with my regulatory college and their contradictory feedback to my SMART goal. It matters enough to them that not meeting their deadline means a suspension.
I did submit it on time (so that's not the issue), but I did not see their email from late February, blending in with their other emails about elections and their committees. I only got a phone call reminder yesterday; I got back to them quickly and I have until tomorrow to send a revision/
I don't work in the field, so I didn't have the motivation to do a ton of professional development work, but it fueled a fire under my haunches. I'm reading the books I pledged to read.
I wrote feedback to their feedback, and how meeting that feedback involves a major contradiction, barring a misunderstanding of the terms they've used (and I reviewed those terms many times). And their criteria - as worded - is impossible to meet for a non-practicing practitioner (being non-practicing is not against the rules, but it's more difficult to demonstrate an improvement in your learning, because you don't apply it day-to-day).
I'm going to revamp my goal to be as stellar as possible; getting that done tonight.
Had a very strange dream last night, where I was back to being a 12-15 year old boy on a school field trip with classmates; we went to this dock/pier, and it was later at night. Buses full of terrorists rolled up and rounded up our classmates, executing us assassination style. I work my way out of a situation, slip away and get to safety. I don't know what happened afterward, but I didn't have the instinct to get help; only to save myself. When I woke up, I realize how foolish that was, and that I was thinking selfishly, and that my thinking would lead to needless deaths among my friends. Even so, it's weren't my fault that these dream-world terrorists were killing us!
Woke up very drowsy and tired, having to fight to get out of bed and not fall back asleep, after enough sleep.
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