Unlocking My Full Expression (OGSF v3 6g)

[4Kingdoms]

A guy I was friends with at school as a kid, and then in my 20's he worked as a barman where I did security and we would mostly go out to clubs and such in other towns.. messaged me last night.

I haven't seen him for probably 10 years or more, no contact though of course 

I was thinking about if I should reply. Initially I was going to, then I started thinking "is this guy of value in my life?" and "if I caught up with him then would it actually add anything to my life?" (especially if he's still heavily into drinking and drugs).

And the answer is no.

But.. I feel guilty about not replying. Which you know sounds like it might have something to do with OGSF working on something. 

Then there's also a fear that if I go somewhere and see him and he's like "why didn't you reply to my message?" 

Despite that the stronger feeling is guiding me to "no, don't reply, I don't want this kind of shit in my life".

In my 20's at my first job. My friend/co-worker decided to go into the US Navy. When he got shore leave, he would call "the gang" when he came home to visit his parents. I would find out after his shore leave was over and was deeply hurt that he didn't contact me.

30 years later,  I got a message on Social Media. "Hello, Mr. 4Kingdoms."  I saw it 4 months after he messaged me, and I didn't reply.  Too little, too late.  I've moved on.

Benjamin, guilt and fear aside. I think you made the right decision.