01-07-2022, 09:37 PM
Stage 3, Day #62/365, 1st Day OFF,
Last night, for the first time in my nearly 30 years of being alive, I chose to have sex from start to finish without a condom.
(She's a regular date, who isn't seeing anyone else, who's on the pill and most of the way through her period, AND I pulled out, so I figured why not)
Holy shit does it ever make a difference!
First off, all of this morning, my brain has been sex-obsessed, reminding me of my horny teenaged days; popping stiffies while at work and shit.
Second, the amount that I busted out at the end was absurd (my dick knew where it had been lol).
Third, a flood of emotions and good feelings towards my partner; my brain is convinced that it's in love. I'd even say that the entire dynamic of our relationship shifted after this happened. More intimate. Though I wouldn't want to build an entire relationship on top of "omg dat pussy's so good!"
I need to be careful because this has set a new standard for sex; however, I've had a history of looking down on people who get "oops" babies because "hurr durr it feels better without condoms." It's dangerous stuff and I consider myself disciplined, but all of my precautions, statistically speaking, lowers the risk to virtually zero.
I've considered a vasectomy to remove that concern completely, though I will probably want to have kids 10 years down the road.
Last night, for the first time in my nearly 30 years of being alive, I chose to have sex from start to finish without a condom.
(She's a regular date, who isn't seeing anyone else, who's on the pill and most of the way through her period, AND I pulled out, so I figured why not)
Holy shit does it ever make a difference!
First off, all of this morning, my brain has been sex-obsessed, reminding me of my horny teenaged days; popping stiffies while at work and shit.
Second, the amount that I busted out at the end was absurd (my dick knew where it had been lol).
Third, a flood of emotions and good feelings towards my partner; my brain is convinced that it's in love. I'd even say that the entire dynamic of our relationship shifted after this happened. More intimate. Though I wouldn't want to build an entire relationship on top of "omg dat pussy's so good!"
I need to be careful because this has set a new standard for sex; however, I've had a history of looking down on people who get "oops" babies because "hurr durr it feels better without condoms." It's dangerous stuff and I consider myself disciplined, but all of my precautions, statistically speaking, lowers the risk to virtually zero.
I've considered a vasectomy to remove that concern completely, though I will probably want to have kids 10 years down the road.
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