USLM3- The Journey to Success

[mat422]

Possible TID from FRM. Had a dream last night where I had to give a speech and I couldn't talk. Basically what I said was nonsense, word salad, things in the wrong order. This happens in day to day life too. Even before subs I'd always mess up speaking to people when I was anxious. I'd rehearse the lines in my head and then go to say it and feel like someone hit the brakes. I'd do that two or three times before the actual words came out. Half the time I'd either trip over a word, my tone of voice would be inconsistent, or my brain would forget what it needed to say and then it was like a buffer. I know it's anxiety which is fear. I guess that's why music is appealing, I don't have to use words or figure out what I want to say. I just say it directly through the music.

Well now that this whole Dallas thing is over I don't feel such a need to get uslm4 or ltu immediately. I honestly just wanted them to come out sooner to help me deal with these past few days. But now that I don't have an anxiety provoking event upcoming I'm alright with a wait.