01-13-2019, 08:56 PM
(01-13-2019, 01:04 PM)Shannon Wrote: Then you should realize that reverse resistance is an intentional effort to fail, and it's pretty stupid. It sounds like that's what you are dealing with right now.
I think you especially will appreciate FRM 4.4+.
It's all out. I swear it's not just my mind state. Things keep going wrong left and right. I've never had it this bad. I had to print important stuff tonight and the printer just outright refused to acknowledge there was paper loaded. I spent a good 30 minutes doing everything to fix this damn thing. Then I got up and left the room in defeat and came back to the thing working. My laptop immediately declined in performance as soon as I got out here. Programs crashing, simple tasks like loading a spreadsheet taking forever, just absolutely terrible speed, random driver issues,etc. At this point I don't think these are random coincidences. They seem to keep occurring as a way to get me to quit.
Hell when I first got here I was told I just needed to connect a few wires on an amp for the sound system. It turns out the speakers were all run in series which made the diagram useless and the intended setup all wrong. I had to climb a ladder to each speaker and set the caps to 15w. Thirteen speakers total. It doesn't seem like a lot but it is when you consider having to deal with moving the ladder, climbing it, and shakily adjusting the settings from a high up place. And then if that wasn't enough, apparently there was another zone that wasn't even attached and I had to splice the wires and then do a super haggard run in the ceiling.
I still have 6 days left. I feel terrible, I just don't want anything else to go wrong because I'm exhausted right now. I feel like I'm pushing myself beyond my means here. I feel as if these incidents and problems popping up are just being used as a way to get me to quit. The more I want things to go right and be smooth, the more chaotic it gets.
INFP
