12-21-2018, 08:16 PM
Little things are starting to come into place for me. I'm seeing how I keep myself down a lot by comparing myself to others. The only person I need to compare myself against is my past self. If I'm doing better, then I'm doing great.
It hit me today when I was at work. I was thinking about the stuff I learned, the stuff I could do, the small little changes I contributed to in the company. They're not the hardest things, but I never gave myself credit for them. Instead it was always "oh that? That's nothing, you shouldn't be proud of that anyone could do that. Try handling something more challenging then you get acknowledgement for actually doing something."
So many "I shoulds" in my life. It's not as bad now, but I used to have a really bad habit when I saw someone was good at something I wasn't. I told myself "you should be able to do that, you're not as good as them". But now I understand just how useless those comparisons are because people and their backgrounds are different. And it's not fair to judge yourself against others.
It hit me today when I was at work. I was thinking about the stuff I learned, the stuff I could do, the small little changes I contributed to in the company. They're not the hardest things, but I never gave myself credit for them. Instead it was always "oh that? That's nothing, you shouldn't be proud of that anyone could do that. Try handling something more challenging then you get acknowledgement for actually doing something."
So many "I shoulds" in my life. It's not as bad now, but I used to have a really bad habit when I saw someone was good at something I wasn't. I told myself "you should be able to do that, you're not as good as them". But now I understand just how useless those comparisons are because people and their backgrounds are different. And it's not fair to judge yourself against others.
INFP
