USLM3- The Journey to Success

[mat422]

I realized something today. What makes music good is how clearly the person making it puts themselves into it. I've been too afraid to make bad stuff, so I've been playing it safe with my decisions. But by doing that making music got very claustrophobic in a way. That actually generated more fear because now I felt I had to absolutely get it right and anything else was "wrong".

A lot of this was due to getting bogged down in the technical details. The more I read into the technical stuff, the more I got worried my own tracks were technically bad. But a lot of it was just fear or what ifs. I've listened to some of my older stuff and even then it wasn't terrible. It wasn't super polished or professional quality, but it wasn't unlistenable either.

I feel like there's potential in me. I just have to trust in myself and believe I can do it. I used to have a bad habit of holding up all my favorite producers on a pedestal and then believing they were somehow inherently better than me at all this. But they all started the same and I'm no different. I just have to stop doubting myself.

Still really tired. Gonna work on something now though. I had to drag myself from my couch and force myself to sit down and work on my music. It does feel like it's gotten easier though, so I'm looking forward to that becoming even more natural in the future.